leaving a few things behind as we near the end

the first song is one of many songs made for an old friend that will never be finished or released

second is just a voice clip

third is well i dont know

fourth is what you want and what you will receive very soon (As Of October 3rd 2021)

the time is ticking

2 minutes of anything & everything

everything

never enough

im done playing pretend
i really thought that i could change the way i was in the end
i tried to fix it but i fucked it up all over again
guess im the problem and there's no point in me making amends

i'm just procrastinating

2 minutes of anything & everything part 2

track 1: tell me again 

track 2: brakence deepfake cover

track 3: open ur eyes

track 4: daesworld type beat

track 5: clueless

track 6: hate2lose

track 7: splurge needs to make a comeback

my skin's itching, i can't take it

lyrics:

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

tryna open the doors, can’t find an escape
maybe it’s karma or maybe it’s fate
start to think I’m the problem and I shoulda changed
i wanted things and I got them but I’m still the same
I wanted to be someone you could depend on
Someone to be there when you need a hand or something else
A shoulder to cry on when you’re not well
I wanted to be that, can you believe that?
After everything I’ve done
But I could never be that, am I dumb?
I been shooting for the moon,stars,and the sun

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

potent

same song, new pitch, some new vocals, slightly better mix. enjoy <3 

lyrics: 
maybe im never enough
i'm sick and tired of fucking it up
tryna put it together, it's not adding up
talking a lot but you can't back it up
act like you care but it's not holding up
it's getting harder, i cant open up
tried over and over to show you my love
it's too bad that we dont give a fuck at all
x2

don't call me at 3 AM in the morning
do not disturb, it's been getting annoying
you say that you care but it's not really showing
cant take it no more that's why I've been ignoring your calls
its cool if you don't care at all
but why try to talk when you know that i'm tryna move on from you
like what's wrong with you?

we just go up and down and back and forth
i've been looking left and right and nothing works
i don't wanna talk cuz ill just make it worse
ill just keep acting like it doesn't hurt
there's too much in my head i gotta figure out
i've been on my own for a minute now
you cannot stay, i gotta kick you out
i cannot wait until i finish now

maybe im never enough
im sick and tired of fucking it up
tryna put it together but its not adding up
talking a lot but you can't back it up
act like you care but it's not holding up
it's getting harder, i cant open up
tried over and over to show you my love
its too bad that we dont give a fuck at all
x2

never enough (2023)

produced by guda & JibaoRockin

lyrics: 
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes, eyes

i know you see me
you cant deceive me
you act like it's easy
to throw me away to rot

i know you see me
i know that
just open your eyes
just open up your eyes

you're not blind you're not deaf
i know you see and hear me well
you choose not to hear me
i feel i need to yell
and you say that it's love
but i'm not sure if you mean well
til death do us part
i guess i'll see your ass in hell
i'll see you then
i don't know when
just open your eyes
and you'll see me again
i'm neither foe or a friend
it's only us in the end
wish you could see through my lens
won't you just

open your eyes (just open up)
open your eyes (can you see me?)
open your eyes(just open up)
open your eyes, eyes (can you see me?)

ah

open your eyes

demo/unfinished

i wish i could stop the time and be stuck forever with you
but you dont feel the same
i wont change ur mind
i cant have ur heart so ill take ur life instead
if i cant have you, no one can
you can take ur chance or take my hand
cuz its ur breath on the line
not a threat or lie
i advise you pick again

if im done then youll come with me
what i planned was never pretty
red never looked good on you 
but i did and ur throwing me away
you always told me you loved gore
so ill let ur insides paint my floor
take u from the bed to the door
til ur skin runs cold
and you never make it home

gore

2 minutes vol 4

1. intuition
2. backwards
3. march
4. try my hand
5. new jazz idk
6. love yourself

year of the cat

lyrics:

Rot in your bed with me
Keep me company
Be my symphony
Can you?

You got me stuck on you
You got me stuck on you

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

You got me tied up
I can't say it or it's up for me
Don't hit my phone up
Your attention's like a drug to me
If it ain't with me then I wish you pain and suffering
I give a fuck
But ima act like you mean nun to me

You don't like to talk it out
But you want communication
Can you make it make sense for me?
I try, but you know that it's killin' me

I want your love and your lust
I want your pain and your trust
I need your scent and your touch
I'm never getting enough of you

You got me stuck on you uh
You got me stuck on you uh

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

I'm just procrastinating

stuckk on you

from “year of the cat” 


lyrics:

u keep on fucking my head up
I’m fucking my bread up
he try to do it like me but he can’t
he know that I’m better
you know I been low I been broke
shit got me fed up
u keep on fucking around
i know the time finna catch up

u know ima run it back
run it up again
run up a bag, we gon get it in
we gon get it no matter where we is
i done made a bag, ima make it flip
ima make it double, ima make it twin
ima make it triple, baby I’m the shit
i don’t need to dribble just to make it in
i can fucking rap I can fucking sing
tell me why the fuck wouldn’t I talk shit?
tryna put my momma in a fucking crib
brand new wheels put her in a whip
ima keep it pushing bitch I need a hit
ima keep on cooking til it’s ready bitch
I’m not in a hurry bitch I know I’m him
they been tryna ask me where the fuck I been 
i been in my room tryna make an M

it’s fucking my head up
I’m fucking my bread up
he tryna do it like me but he can’t
he know that I’m better
you know I been low I been broke
shit got me fed up
u keep on fucking around
i know the time finna catch up

fed up (new jazz idk)

new music otw + enjoy another 2 minutes of anything & everything 

1. me> them
2. egotism
3. blatant
4. him
5. tongue tied
6. wow pt 2
7. bones

my ears won’t stop ringing

lyrics:

I feel you drifting away from me
you do it so blatantly
I’m done waiting patiently 
I know you don’t care
(x2)

I know you don’t care for me
you love me so hatefully
can’t hide ur complacency 
ur heart is no place for me

I’m never falling again
you pushed me over the edge
I’m scared to fucking offend
but can’t keep playing pretend with you
can’t forgive and forget the truth

I feel you drifting away from me
you do it so blatantly
I’m done waiting patiently 
I know you don’t care
(x2)

blatant

it's about that time of the year when idk what i want to make

1. autumn
2. attitude 
3. cold brew
4. waste ya time 
5. vice
6. unwind 
7. headlock 
8. let me go

an identity crisis

produced by malcriado 

lyrics:

oh to feel your hands run through my hair again 
to hear you call my name id do it all again
to feel your warmth and body on my skin
to have someone around to call a friend
is that too much to ask for? shall I beg?


I can’t forget 
you know that it’s killing me inside
cuz it should’ve been me instead that night
wonder if they’ll remember me when I die
but we’ll never know 

to hear you call my name id do it all again
to feel your warmth and body on my skin
to have someone around to call a friend
is that too much to ask for? shall I beg?

skin

lyrics:

I don’t really like to say what’s on mind
feel like my hands and tongue are tied when I’m with you
when I’m with you
(x2)


you said “talk to me when you need it”
what’s the point if you don’t mean it?
too many missed calls
give me a reason
you don’t listen when I’m grieving 

I’ve been looking left and right for a reason
get excited when you’re leaving for the weekend
ima make a couple bands off the feeling
I just need a pen and paper, I don’t need them

tell me where you at when I’m hurting?
I can’t say a word without feeling like a burden

(yeah yeah yeah)

always feeling uncertain
gotta cut em off, close the blinds and the curtains

you don’t know what you do to me
fuck round with my head like you can’t believe 
I’m fine, I’ll be better when you fucking leave

(yeah yeah yeah)

I don’t really like to say what’s on mind
feel like my hands and tongue are tied when I’m with you
when I’m with you
(x2)

tongue tied

produced by redmosk

lyrics:

It’s been so long since I woke up not feeling like this
I try my best just to ignore it but I can’t hold it in
I try my best just to be honest, don’t know where to begin
I’d put my pride down for me not to feel this again
(x2)

I’d put my pride down
Set it aside now
And fantasize bout 
how it would be better if I said the way I felt
Instead of something else
I’ll tell you everything until I’m nothing but a shell of myself
Cuz I’m nothing without my thoughts
All the things that cause my brain to rot
I can’t help it
I feel helpless
I hate that I felt this way and there’s me to blame

It’s been so long since I woke up not feeling like this
I try my best just to ignore it but I can’t hold it in
I try my best just to be honest, don’t know where to begin
I’d put my pride down for me not to feel this again
(x2)

pride

my personal favorite off the EP

produced by waves

lyrics:

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
won’t let me go

I don’t wanna talk about it
I feel it wrap it’s arms around
Put its hands over my mouth
Feel the need to scream and shout
But when I try it won’t come out

Would anybody hear me?
Would anybody hear me if i tried?
If I’m screaming for my life
When I’m needing for a sign
Can you show me it’s alright?

Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
Won’t let me go
(x2)

let me go

short outro

lyrics:

Even if it takes a little while
Learned from my mistakes to make you smile
Doing everything to make you proud

I just want to stand right by your side
Watch our hands slowly intertwine 
Let your life turn into mine
Until we’re one and our souls align

even if it takes awhile

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

it takes time to materialize your fantasies
in due time i'll find myself a remedy
or write songs, obsessing bout the melody
i'm headstrong but it's bout time that it gets to me

i shut down and shut my mouth
tryna save some face
a clenched jaw and a sweat drop

bout a second fore i break
if it all falls down
just know i gave it my all
til there was not more i could take
i don't call
and now they're saying that i changed up
it fucks my brain up
(x2)

they don't even try to see where i'm coming from
cuz when i needed it more, i had no one
but i don't even blame em for it
yeah, i would never shame em for it
i'd hate but i can't afford it

i'm way too focused on me
i'm giving into my hopes and greed
but they try to paint like it's much worse than it seems
and they wonder why i'm tearing at the seams
i try to bear it til i

shut down and shut my mouth
tryna save some face
a clenched jaw and a sweat drop

bout a second fore i break
if it all falls down
just know i gave it my all
til there was not more i could take
i don't call
and now they're saying that i changed up
it fucks my brain up
(x2)

break

2 minutes of aafdfvbcncfbreafvdsk

1. wya
2. break
3. alive demo
4. are you doing what you love?
5. listen2myvoice
6. don't worry about me
7. fear demo

don't scare the crows

produced by michael harrison

lyrics:

there’s nobody home tonight 
they won’t hear me if I scream
if I put one in my head
they won’t find me til I reach 
rigor mortis

until my hands are stiff and cold
and the lead’s pierced through my bones
this is everything I’ll leave

I hope that you don’t weep 
good thing I’m a coward
I’ll be here for a while
don’t worry about me

still save a seat for you / don't worry about me

don't worry about me

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

I still save a seat for you
it’s just out of habit
I can’t remembered what happened

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

there’s this void inside my chest
inside my head, I can’t fill it
don’t know the last thing I said,
the last thing we did
why couldn’t I cry that day?
no tears streaming down my face

I wish I could say goodbye- bye- bye 
would I feel the same?
or would I get peace of mind? - mind - mind
wish we could go back frame by frame
take it all away
one more time

but we don’t get what we ask for

why am I breaking down
I’m feeling it now
there’s no use in hiding when no one's around
I’ll figure it out
I won’t make a sound
I’ll keep it to myself like it’s all I’m allowed
I still save a seat for you
Only if I knew 
We’d be stuck like glue
Til the end

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

still save a seat for you

two minutes of meh


1. loose screws 
2. trifecta
3. drunken fist style
4. idk lol but im so real
5. figure you out
6. terrified (scrap)
7. still save a seat for you
8. idk either

you say i'm losing my mind

thx for 200K monthly on spotify!!

I don’t really like to talk unless it’s worth my while
don’t feel right anytime I smile
jaw been locked for a gawdamn while
u changed up the way I change my sound
I’m too RAW, hittin like smackdown
punch-in like Rock (Lee), drunken fist style
in due time they’ll give me flowers

better put some respect on me
try to catch up, u gon need a whole damn team
the way I drop now I don’t even let them breathe
not a single mf who could play in my league

thought I told you tell me your regrets
the greed you hold inside ur chest
don’t self destruct I’m not against you
I’m tryna get inside ur head

it don’t even make sense to me
they don’t even wanna talk to me
won’t even acknowledge me
(no they won’t, no they won’t now)

I’ve been fighting tooth and nail
til my skin is running pale
til I’m on my last inhale
til I got nothing left to share

drunken fist style

🎁

lyrics: 

u know I can’t help u, u can’t help yourself
go head fix ur attitude, u can go to hell
don’t act like I’m a friend of u, must be someone else
go and put ur fucking head to use and the way u felt

yea yea 

kick back
don’t give no fuck
bout her, bout him
put ur head down
get them bucks
for u, not them
tell that bitch there ain’t no us
just i, just me 

u really know how to kill the vibe, the mood
this bitch never match my groove 
can’t waste my time on u
hit me like “what’s the move”
bitch hit me like “what u doing?” ah
“what u got going on? 
“I’m tryna get along”
“I won’t do u wrong”

I’m kicking that bitch out the door uh
she cannot kick it with me
why u acting like u know sum
u not apart of the team yea
bitch I know I don’t owe u none
u never done shit for me yea
talkin bout u gon blow sum

u not doing shit to me
that’s straight blasphemy
my brodie gon blast for me
my brother gon clash for me uh huh

u ain’t got no one to do shit for u
I wouldn’t fuck with u either, fix ur attitude 
fix ur- uh fix ur- uh
fix ur attitude
huh huh huh huh huh
fix ur attitude
huh huh huh huh huh
fix ur attitude
huh huh huh huh huh
fix ur attitude

attitude

didn’t wanna crack that 3:00 mark but had a bit too many snippets to work with this time around so I’ll prolly post another one soon

1. scars
2. honest
3. bite the curb
4. could never be me
5. psyche
6. father

dog food

enjoy the funky little intermission. 
take a break, dance a little, breathe.
back to work i go but we'll be back soon,
all love always.

produced by yogic


lyrics:

baby listen to my voice
cuz I can teach you everything
you just gotta make a choice
don’t gotta give up anything
just the thing that brings you joy
can you hear me through 
the songs you sing
when you’re trying to avoid

baby listen to my voice 
ignoring all your issues
won’t get you out that void
keep on coping and telling yourself 
that you’re doing what you enjoy 
can you hear me through the songs you song
baby listen to my voice


they gonna tell you what you want
but I’ll tell you what you need
everything is said and done
gotta know when you should leave
but the feeling’s so addicting 
can’t let it go
all you gotta do is listen to me
be one and sink into me
I crave your intimacy 
love it when you’re in sync with me
I love the way you smile
love the way you walk around
every breath and every sound
the way my name comes out your mouth


baby listen to my voice
cuz I can teach you everything
you just gotta make a choice
don’t gotta give up anything
just the thing that brings you joy
can you hear me through 
the songs you sing
when you’re trying to avoid

baby listen to my voice 
ignoring all your issues
won’t get you out that void
keep on coping and telling yourself 
that you’re doing what you enjoy 
can you hear me through the songs you song
baby listen to my voice

listen

last 2 minutes of anything & everything installment of the year. thanks for the big 10K followers on here, this platform is where i started, and i plan to continue doing these little one off uploads for my fellow soundcloud users. love u always and keep holding on cuz we're almost there

1. polished
2. dilemma
3. journal (worm)
4. chrome
5. trunk
6. euphoria (this should've been on one of these a long time ago)
7. probably a jo song
8. parasite (a worm outtake)

otuka

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