Nihilistic Optimism by Overmention

I ain’t have to be an optimist 
To see my only part in this
I exist to pick apart the cards
To make due with the hand in mine

I am trying not to cross a line
With those I would like to crucify
It’s hard enough just choosing life
Numb enough to make it mine
I am at the brink of extinction 
With every breath I take
I'm working beyond restriction 
Trying not to be evicted 
So I’m sorry for the mess I make
If you’re offended you can 
Wait your turn in line to cry
I’m tired of just waiting out the fucking time

I’ve heard that’s the only way to heal
I just didn’t think I’d forget your voice
Looks like I don’t have a choice
Hard to hear through the digital noise

I know what it’s like to slam the door 
On those I love 
on those I trust
I’m over trying to run away
If it’s up to me 
I’d make you fucking wait 
Until I’m strong enough to accept your fate

I ain’t have to be an optimist 
To see my only part in this is
To forget I can’t play god with this
Hand I have fallen out of love with
I am trying not to cross a line
With those I would like to crucify
It’s hard enough just choosing life
Numb enough to make it mine

I am at the wits end of extinction 
With every breath I take
I'm working beyond restriction 
Trying not to have deserved this
I’ve heard that’s the only way to heal
I just didn’t think I’d forget your voice
Looks like I don’t have a choice
Hard to hear through the digital noise
I know what it’s like to slam the door 
On those I love 
on those I trust
I’m over trying to run away
If it’s up to me 
I’d make you wait 
Until I’m strong enough to accept your fate

I ain’t have to be an optimist 
To see my only part in this
Is to forget I can't play god with this
Hand I've fallen out of love with
I am trying not to cross a line

With those I would like to crucify
It's hard enough just choosing life 
Numb enough to make it mine
I'm at the brink of extinction
With every breath I take

I am working beyond restriction
Trying not to be evicted

Optimistic Nihilism

Overmention