THIS IS THE EXPERIMENT VOL.4

LYRICS

It cuts my throat off
It starts to sting and burn my eyes 
I want you thrown off
Whatever house you sleep at now

It’s a strangler 
Emotion wrangler
It makes me sick and I want it done to you
Take off your make up
It’s gonna take up 
All your energy not to just turn red

hands on your neck
Let me squeeze until your head pops off
Well hit the deck
Make sure to tell me when you’ve had enough

I’m a strangler 
Fucking wanna bang her
Walls are getting closer
And it’s getting hard to breathe 
Not gonna wake up 
From our little shake up 
I wont tell your family and they’ll think we both OD

We could use knives but the tensions up too much
I don’t want it to be quick I’m fuckin desperate for the touch 

You’re such a strangler
What’s with the anger
We both want this 
Let it all out now
You can hit me 
Tell your friends a hit piece
It’s not like they’re ever gonna like me anymore

STRANGLER

i want to be the keeper of the moon you love
in a sea of stars past even all the clouds above
i'd spend the rest of my life sitting up in the sky
and when you admire my work, i'd have a sense of pride

just words and soliloquies
written to be presented
trying to sound poetic
it's so pathetic

they don't mean anything to anybody
but i hope that they find
a way into your head
i think them prettier than i

i'm sorry, i don't even like drugs, i hate the shit that i took
i just want a summer of love
it'll never happen again, i'll never be like them
but i already took more than enough
i know i'm the fucking best at messing up the rest of
my life without any help from
the people that hate my guts, they wanna make me cry but
fuck 'em, i can do it myself

the body won't mind anymore
spread out across the floor
don't ever let it go
it's never coming home
a beautiful black swan
from dusk until dawn
until it gets tainted
when light starts to paint it

lying to your mom
about crying on the sidewalk
i love the misery
more than myself anyway
i want to be a ghost
i'd go to every sacred home
that you will learn to love
so you won't ever have to be alone

(the festival begins)

go through the steps
pulled from memory
different than
the way that it should be
words fail
where tears succeed
give them life
through bon odori

matsuri forever!

Sailor Moon

Shadow

pictures aren't sure
of that cute smile of yours
i wish you were here
with us ill hold you dear

09082023

ultraviolet ultraviolence, bleeding the full color spectrum
＼＼\\٩( 'ω' )و //／／

A collaboration between myself and And Cowboys (Canada). This originally started as one song (Kokoro) for a compilation album for Asian Glow's discord server. AC reached out to me after I had stated I was open to collaborating with someone and sent me his music. I was very impressed, and surprised that he was so underappreciated. We made Kokoro together last year, and the first version released on New Year's Day, 2023. The version uploaded then was largely incomplete and I wanted to redo it (you can still listen to it if you look for it), and whilst in the process of doing it I suggested that we just make a whole EP. AC sent me some of his unused project ideas and I built on them and sent them back, and he would build on those. This repeated until we had 4 songs done (both parts of Manta Raves were originally in one song). We had never met in person during all of this, and it was done entirely through Discord communication and Google Drive file sharing.

Ontan was one of my listeners a few years prior and eventually I found their art and followed them off of that. She offered to make me art for any type of musical project I need it for. Apparently, she knew about AC already from a Number Girl fan discord or something, so I thought she would be a great fit for this project. Small world huh?

I am very proud of how it all came together, and I'm forever grateful to AC and Ontan for their patience with me and contributions on this project!!! It feels like we all worked really hard together on a group project in community college and got an A+... 

ENJOY!!! (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) <3

Manta Raves (一​)

i got all dolled up just for this adventure
with wings of wax and war paint across my nose
to look my best when you're taking my picture
i never thought i'd have to stoop so low

i'm gonna bury you under the moon
i know i'm flying too close to the sun
but that's the thing that separates me from you
i do the things that still have to be done

it smells of smoke
it burns! it burns like flame!
it makes me choke
it hurts! it hurts like hell!
the fireworks are lighting up my face
don't tell heaven just how far i fell

i tried and failed to kill my own ego
all i know is that i'll never be a hero
sorry that i hurt everything i touch
i hate that!
i hate that i hate so much
pretty people don't act so violent
pretty, pretty people sit there in silence
i want to be loved like you
should i keep my mouth shut tight too?
what does it take to be respected?
what will it take for me to be accepted?
i'm full of fury and i know it
pretty boys don't feel these emotions

i don't deserve to be seen
i am not a human being
when i rot, i'll rot alone
harmonize with marigolds

would the flowers that i grow
from my flesh and blood and bone
be loved more than i ever will?
or would i be a villain still?
tulips don't cause any harm
and daisies won't leave you with scars
if that's true, i'll die in dirt
and become one with mother earth

orchids, lilies, dahlias, hydrangeas
chrysanthemums, poppies and camellias
sunflowers and lilacs, roses too
all peppered with the morning dew

Kokoro

kanye west cover

Look at ya, look at ya, look at ya, look at ya
Look at ya, look at ya, look at ya, look at ya
Look at ya, look at ya, look at ya, look at ya
Look at ya, look at ya (ladies and gentlemen)
Look at ya, look at ya (ladies, ladies and gentlemen)
And I always find, yeah, I always find somethin' wrong
You been puttin' up wit' my shit just way too long
I'm so gifted at findin' what I don't like the most
So I think it's time
For us to have a toast
Let's have a toast for the douche bags
Let's have a toast for the assholes
Let's have a toast for the scumbags
Every one of them that I know
Let's have a toast for the jerk offs
That'll never take work off
Baby, I got a plan
Run away fast as you can
She find pictures in my email
I sent this bitch a picture of my dick
I don't know what it is with females
But I'm not too good at that shit
See, I could have me a good girl
And still be addicted to them hood rats
And I just blame everything on you
At least you know that's what I'm good at
And I always find
Yeah, I always find
Yeah, I always find somethin' wrong
You been puttin' up wit' my shit just way too long
I'm so gifted at findin' what I don't like the most
So I think it's time (so I think it's time)
For us to have a toast
Let's have a toast for the douche bags
Let's have a toast for the assholes
Let's have a toast for the scumbags
Every one of them that I know
Let's have a toast for the jerk offs
That'll never take work off
Baby, I got a plan
Run away fast as you can
Run away from me, baby
Run away
Run away from me, baby, ooooohhhhh
When it starts to get crazy
Run away
Babe, I got a plan, run away as fast as you can
Run away from me, baby
Run away
Run away from me, baby
Run away
When it starts to get crazy
Just run away
Baby, I got a plan
Run away as fast as you can

Run right back to me
Baby I got a plan, 
Run away fast as you can

Never was much of a romantic
I could never take the intimacy
And I know it did damage
'Cause the look in your eyes is killin' me
I guess then you at an advantage
'Cause you could blame me for everything
And I don't know how I'ma manage
If one day you just up and leave
And I always find, yeah, I always find somethin' wrong
You been puttin' up wit' my shit just way too long
I'm so gifted at findin' what I don't like the most
So I think it's time (so I think it's time)
For us to have a toast
Let's have a toast for the douche bags
Let's have a toast for the assholes
Let's have a toast for the scumbags
Every one of them that I know
Let's have a toast for the jerk offs
That'll never take work off
Baby, I got a plan
Run away fast as you can

Run right back to me
I need you to run right back to me
Run right back to me
I need you to run right back to me
Run right back to me
Run right back to me
Look at ya
look at ya look at ya look at ya look at ya look at ya

Runaway

🍕🧻🚙

lyrics:

I made a big mistake 
And I forgot to save
And threw it all away, ooh
Its already too late
What causes all your love,
And takes away your pain?
It's no riddle and it's always been a fact 
That every light turned on
Will surely turn to black 

So I'm Renting out an old truck 
Driving till my heads stuck 
Screaming at the top of my lungs;Im a dumb fuck
Dirty and Im moldy
You don't even know me 
All you people wanna do is fuck or control me
You'll be the headlights, I'll be the young deer
Always thinkin' bout suicide if it's not clear 
Maybe it'll stream on twitch,
One less ugly stupid bitch 
Now I'm gonna drive off a cliff into a ditch 
♫
And even god would say 
You're gonna die one day
You better not be late
Oh, he's coming up behind you 
Sitting there beside you 
Telling you its fine cause you'll always be alive dude 
Until your not, and in tears a lot 
For when your fears so cold its not as sensationing 
Stupid and self aware
But don't you be scared 
We'll all see you there

Then we can talk about our jobs 
And complain about the weather 
Smoke a cigarette 
With a diet Dr. pepper 
All I wanna be is the girl you get to be with 
But you work all week and I got weekends
I don't even like you 
I'll end it all to spite you
Next stop is the gun shop, have a light dude?
He camel crushes my American Spirit
I don't wanna hear it if you're not gonna listen to me
Your first love is so sweet 
The rest is sugar free
I tried so hard to be
The girl I was at seventeen 
But oooooooooooaaaaaaoooooaaoooohhhh
I'll miss your eyes, Your ears, and the pimples on your face
I'll miss the lies you told me, the truth hurts anyway
I'll miss my high school and every time I got called gay
I'll miss my part times 
And every awkward phase

Pizza Rolls Royce

for a moment, i'll be an angel
high to low then a bloody faceful
of concrete, gore, and filth and obscenity
while i'm floating i'll become capable
of being golden, gorgeous, graceful
and it's only for the time i'm flying, but finally

i will look so lovely
and then all of you will see
the way i saw myself
in the bathroom mirror
with a face covered in tears
it was half past midnight in hell
you will know my body
every scar that's written on me
all of the thoughts in my mind
you'll think they are so beautiful
and that you could have saved it all
that i was just too pretty to die

i tried to get to heaven
when i was close, i came back down
i would fall like that forever
but i'll have to hit the ground
i'll pierce straight through the planet
and i'll party with the pagans
i'll plummet through all nine circles
and land right next to satan

you'll listen to my songs
that i worked on for so long
at least somebody's hearing them now
you'll read all of my writing
hope that it makes you start crying
take the words right out of your mouth
i will live on in the inking
and the melodies you're singing
in your hearts and minds just as well
you'll think that i was lovely
then all of you will love me
the way only i loved myself

Ika-Ika-Ikarus!

rest in peace lil watermark

The very first thing I said to you was hey 
I get a feeling that just won't go away
My stomach's turning over when I'm thinking about the things you say
The thought of you keeps me occupied all day
Yeah, it's so bad my friends say I'm vacant in my brain
All I wanna do is call you up and make you feel okay

And when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it over?
Yeah when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you

I woke up early this morning in a state of fright
Can't figure out what I said to you last night
Was it just a dream, or did I really try to kiss you twice?
Oh could you promise that you'd tell me if you liked it
'Cause I'd rather end it now than keep putting my heart out on the line
Oh darling, if I don't take your breath away
Can you please stop taking mine?

And when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it over?
Yeah when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it?

The thought of you keeps me occupied all day
The thought of you keeps me occupied all day
The thought of you keeps me occupied all day
The thought of you keeps me occupied all day

And when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it over?
Yeah when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it 
Over
Will you think it over
The thing that I told you
Will you think it over
Will you think it over
Will you think it over
Will you think it over
Will you think it over

Think It Over

zonedout - CYBER BARON (prod. phntmzn bR)

in our big tree... deadcatz

WHATARETHELYRICS

well hey mr dancehall
oh how do you do, well im not great
i could use a bit of your cheering up
well hey mr dancehall
oh how do you do, well im not great
i could see your smile for just a little while

oh it doesn’t get so bad
oh it doesn’t get so bad

i went home and change this part
erased it all n made it a wall
i did it just for my own safety
i never write something that fond again
so i don’t look so stupid 

oh thanks to u its not so lonely
not so dark and very homely
thanks to you mister statie
or did i name you misses stacy
oh now your gone i miss you still
i was fine then but now ill kill
this hole ill make it go on forever 

so do u love me

i am sprayed out on the floor
my heart it ebbs and flows
well maybe be i don’t exist
but i still insist

deadcatz

the love you love you love yous

WHAT ARE THE LYRICS

I run into you
As I’m wandering 
my mind starts to swell
Cuz those things you say
They sound just like hell
To my ears and
my head starts to get whiplashed
My fingers feel so numb
You don’t want me to touch you there
You don’t want me at all 

I run into you
As I’m wandering
My mind starts to swell
Cuz those things you say
They sound just like hell
I can’t handle it but I
Choose not to lose
That feeling so good

I tell myself
I can handle it
And maybe it’s not so bad
Compared to
Being all alone
Jerking off at home

I love it when you tell me
I love you so 
Little

It hurts so much
When I’m not next to you
I gotta find a little reason to tell you
Blah blah blah 

Oh I’m so scared
Of what could happen next
This feels like a rollercoaster
next stop is an exit

You’re telling me
Put this little bag
On top of my sweaty head
And then just breathe real fast
Start counting 
we won’t make it to 10

the lylylys

songs against self

valentine

WISHING YOU GODSPEED, YOU BEAUTIFUL MOTHERFUCKER o(^_^)b

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