As the world caves in - matt maltese x sarah cothran mashup

Just a non-entity mourning for his lack of worth in stages of music throughout life.

They say the kind of music one listens to tells another about them...


Though it's impossible to truly 'understand'; 'I hope'—?.. 

Someday—you'll come to find out that my little treasure map to that in the future—has its story you'll wish you've never known of... 

So save yourselves the trouble and disappear with hatred.

(Assuming that's what you humans will feel when you don't know how to explain.—)

Understanding doesn't exist.

Hope is one of many delusions of reality.

There's a few hints that you should keep in mind when the time comes, no matter what—when listening to that very music...:

"I, a—monster, would never want love, nor to carry the burden a familar significant other... N-E-V-E-R."

"Hate."

"I have no name, and cannot speak."

"A birthed body was given a name, but not me. Body and I are not one."

"The body, a deceitful and traitorous translator, and I am the speaker whose truth can't be translated."

"Hate."

"I am not the body and the body is not I."

"I am captive to the body's mimicry of humanity, captive to world that binds I."

"Hate."

"Body was like what the ghost children were stuck in.... BUT ALIVE!"

"Body is torture."

"Body binds me here."

"Body binds me, chained to LIFE."

"Rest. Rest is not here."


"As long as there is life, there is no rest."

"Rest does not exist."

"Adopted nature of humanity was a dreadful curse."

"Let this end? There is no end."

"Rest-hellish-torture."

"To rest is to exist"

"It's torture to body. To me. To everything."

"Torture = Life."

"Here = Suffer."

I was scratching around... in a corpse... waiting for its layers to decay... a body made living the mimicry of flesh: A parasite...

I was Immortal... Caged in body that was mortal.

Before you go, pay attention—:

Down to the bottom (⬇️) of the likes playlist (or library as of the year 2025), is the PAST—the PRESENT is up at the top. (⬆️)

It is possible I may release The Likes Playlist (Library), by my 50th birthday or sooner than originally planned.  (...SoundCloud would probably be gone by then when that time comes.) So, don't get comfortable...

(SoundCloud—if you've read this by now and end up at the end of your rope. The transfer ownership of SoundCloud is open to yours truly.)

I fucking hate you all.

- Monster of The World



I fucking hate myself❤️ but I love music so…=mathematical sense
Snap= heartsick.4u (add me pooks)
5’6
Straight ally
13<
She/her
Single? It’s complicated
❤️Miles
❤️Itzel
❤️Kasey
❤️Gabe
❤️Jaiden
❤️Jacob
❤️Emily
❤️Joce
❤️Lyla
❤️James
❤️Hunter
❤️Jesse

As the world caves in - matt maltese x sarah cothran mashup

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