Dementia robs us of who we are, but not always everything. Sometimes you have perfect recollection.
Written 2016

Lyrics

We’ve been sitting here
I can’t help but wonder
what’s been going on 
inside your mind
And I wonder just how long
you’ve been this blind
and will you ever feel the same way again

Me I’m not going anywhere
Been marking time my whole life
Thinking one day I’ll just disappear
and be spared from all this strife
the older I get 
you more it seems to me
time has a way of cutting you just like a knife
In places no one ever ever sees

I’ve got to give you credit
for putting up with all my dreams
and all the times I said the wrong things
You know I’d do things so much better 
if I knew 
If I knew ahead of time what life was going to bring

Then the autumn came just like children
cold and wet from summer rain
I’m wrapped up in my lovers arms
Unaware of all your pain
It must be driving you insane
you can’t be any closer to me
and still be far away from me
sitting there happy in your perfect reverie

Perfect Reverie

Finding out an old relative is not who he said he was can change more than your last name.
Written in 2014.

Lyrics

I’ve been looking for you everywhere
I thought I saw you just the other day
I swear

You’re a mystery to me
makes me think of all the things 
I ever dreamed or ever thought 
I wanted to be

And when I think about it

I’m always searching for myself
can’t imagine being anyone else
but me

I wonder just how easy it would be
to disappear into the sun
come out clean on the other side
Suddenly there’s no need to hide

I can’t seem to close my eyes
without getting caught up in your disguise
the where and whys
I think I’m losing my mind
I just wish that I could travel back in time

to study all the lines upon your face
to see how you made a life in this place
I’ve always wondered where you’re from
it’s like you stepped out of the sun

Looking through old photographs
trying to decipher your hidden past
you never wanted anyone to see
we’ve all got secrets that are trying to break free
dying to break free

They’re calling out from the great beyond
telling you you’re more than the things you’ve done
Left behind a door that’s always closed
just waiting till the question is finally posed

Should you open the door
or just walk away
Or do you give the dead a chance 
to have their say

But tell me
Who am I, Who am I, oh who am I

Who Am I

Sometimes the game is as fun as the prize

Lyrics

You look at me
while you’re in flight
you walk with ease
your dress way too tight

you do what you please
no one will bother you tonight

the floor is moving
while you make your way
you lead me down
with my feet of clay

and never make a sound
you never make a sound

it’s something I can’t seem to hide
there’s something’s going down inside
of me tonight
so why don’t you come over
and we can figure out what’s wrong
and try to make it right

I’m not your mother
and I’m not your friend 
we could spend an hour talking 
until you bend

but we know how this ends
yeah we know how it’s going to end

you make your play
and I play my part

you give me what I want
and I’ll give you something yeah something
that’s way better than my heart
better than my heart

There’s something I can’t seem to hide
something’s going down inside
of me tonight
so why don’t you come over
you said to me

there’s something I can’t seem to hide
something’s going down inside
of me tonight
so why don’t you come over
and we can figure out what’s wrong
and try to make it right

Make It Right

Written about a girl my son was thinking about when he was 18.
Written 2019

Lyrics

Hanging out with you tonight
Didn’t know it would feel so right
I’m into every word you’re saying
Moving to the music playing

what’s got into you
talking to me I haven’t a clue
What you see in me at all
Whisper to myself
Don’t trip and fall

And then I softly start to sing
Must be the early signs of spring

Sometimes it’s hard just getting up
Pour some coffee in my coffee cup
Gotta get myself in gear
Heads up
Try to ignore the fear

It’s like the world is losing its mind
when all it wants to do is 
try to unwind
Pass me another, spare me brother
It knows what we do to each other

And then I go and softly start to sing
Must be the early signs of spring

tell me all your secrets
And I will tell you every one of mine
if the world crumbles down around us
we’ll doing fine

I’m always nervous even in my own skin
Think of the things I could’ve been
And try not to lose my way
But everybody does
It’s really okay

And then I softly start to sing
Must be the early signs of spring

Spring

The dance is always going on. Let it lead you down.

Lyrics

We’re moving
In rhythm
You slip on past
The beat is coming down
I hope it’ll last

I’ve been looking out for you baby
You looking out for me?
tell me something I don’t know
Before you try to leave

And bring me down
You’re bringing me right down to the ground
I am hoping
you’ll turn my whole life upside down
again

You take me
With your hand
to the lions den
I’m trying hard to be
The best I’ve ever been

I’ve been looking out for you baby
You looking out for me?
So tell me something I don’t know
Before you try to leave

And bring me down
You’re bringing me right down to the ground
I am hoping
You’ll turn my whole life upside down
Again

I am older
I am wiser
And I know who you are
And that won’t take you that far

I am older
And I am wiser
And I know who you are
And that won’t take you that far with me

I’ve been looking out for you baby
You looking out for me?
So tell me something I don’t know
Before you try to leave

And bring me down
You’re bringing me right down to the ground
I am hoping
You’ll turn my whole life upside down
again

Down to the Ground

My son had a breakup. So I wrote about it.

Lyrics

Last Christmas
You said
Goodbye

I didn’t know why
So I pulled myself together
And I
cleared you from my head

Last Christmas
Last Christmas

Headin down the highway
Goin home
Home for the holiday

the long road ahead
the long road behind
Looking for answers
The one thing I find

But we
need a little human touch
This time of year
not asking for much
Just the skies to clear

Let’s open up the wine
And get to feelin fine
It’s gonna be all right
This Christmas night
This Christmas night

Wonder who I am
Who I may become
Wondering if I’m worthy
is anyone

Got so Turned around
Lost my way
Couldn’t see why

set my sights ahead
Get some things done
Thinkin how you said
We’re all on the run

But we
need a little human touch
This time of year
not asking for much
Just the skies to clear

Let’s open up the wine
And get to feelin fine
It’s gonna be all right
This Christmas night
This Christmas night


This Christmas

Yeah, this is totally ridiculous. But I had a lot of fun writing it. Just another middled-aged nerd growing old.

Lyrics

I don’t care about sad songs
In the way that you think I do
I just try to follow the music
Wherever it leads me to

And I never had a clue
What you were going through
Won’t you realize, I can sympathize, baby

I could never right all the wrongs
For the things they did to you
But I’m trying harder everyday
To be the one you’re looking to

And I never have a clue 
What they put you through
Won’t you realize, I can empathize

baby, maybe
We could both be lovers in disguise

Looking at my pics in the way back
Dressing myself like I’m some sort a sad sack
Missing out at work with all of this of this bad back
Savin my momma by skippin all the cracks

But I’m swingin for the hits with my own bat
I’m Rollin it up with the best of my fatty phat
Genning up the X like I’m some kind a socrat
Gotta whip it out, lay it out, let’s go now stat

Spending all my time chasing greenbacks
Rolling me nothing but bunches of low stats
Cover me up with all of these sic tats
Workin real hard for a piece of the kick back

So give me the hookup on the low fat
Trying to build me that mythical six pack
all I wanna do is eat me some cheap snacks
Hey Let’s talk about these nutritional facts

Won’t you check out my pod
Won’t you Check out my pod
Hey Check out this thing I made
me and my squad

Oh we oh
Gotta keep it moving or I’ll get too slow now
Oh we oh, This mind is gonna blow

Catch me off guard on the down beat
Tripping like a loser on my two left feet
But I’m Dropping warez cause you know that I’m so leet
Listen to the modem I’m a dialin phreak

But I’m runnin on the wheel to the end of time
Got me in a bind, this workday grind
But they pay me so much you know I don’t mind
But My soul is slipping away

I’m just a souped up refurbed model T
I’m taking all the pills to keep the big D
I’m Pushing that rock for eternity
Living on a faded memories

But I’m yelling with my fist raised high
Dodging all the bolts from the gods in the sky
Give me some mercy on the day that I die
Till then I’m gonna live high

But they chewin me down
Yeah they’re chewin me down
Oh they’re chewing me down down Down

But they chewin me down
Yeah they’re chewin me down
Oh they’re chewing me down down
Down

Oh we oh
Gotta keep it moving or I’ll get too slow now
Oh we oh, This mind is gonna blow

What do you think I do here all day
Sittin in my cube writing dope rhymes?
I’m Busy walking all of these miles
So don’t slow me down
But remember
Don’t let the people catch you tripping


Tripping

I woke up this morning
Thought of all the things I could
Like Looking out my favorite window
Just hoping for something new

So I sat down beside you
And I looked into your eyes
Tried to tell you just what I was feeling
But all that I heard were the sighs and the groans
And the pain down inside your bones
It’s no wonder your whole world’s been reeling 

So I, I came down to see
How you were feeling today
No, don’t mind me at all

I’ll sit right here
I won’t say a word
I’ll just be waiting for your call

You look like you could use a friend
I’ll be here till the end
I’ll sit right here
You have my word
On me you always can depend

Like those days when things just seem to fall apart
Long before you day ever got a dc=ecent chance to start

And when you just can’t stand whatever season
You don’t have to give me one good reason
All you really need to do is turn and look my way

I probably don’t understand a thing you’re feeling
I don't know how badly life’s been stealing
All you ever need to do is turn and turn and look my way
Just say and we’re headed for the door
Say the word and I’m off the floor
Say the word and it’s you and me
No need to go on living like you’re

Dying to be free
Every day you’re 
Dying to be free
Every single day
You’re dying to be free
Every day
You’re dying to be free
Every single day
You’re dying to be free
Every day
You’re dying to be free
Every Single day


Dying to Be Free

A story about someone we met in Las Vegas. Sometimes you have to leave to escape to who you were.

Lyrics

When you’re small town famous
they try to catch your eye
When you’re small town famous
They only want to see you cry

came home from school
Tried to get away
Took so many things to forget
What they say

Don’t pretend you even know me
Don’t pretend you even care

They always tell you
what you’re doing wrong
They don’t wanna hear you
singing your own song

Found myself alone
Couldn’t get away
Carried more than my share
all those bills to pay

Don’t pretend you even know me
Don’t pretend you even care

I’m the story they tell you
When they tell you
what you shouldn’t do

No reason to stare
Just look on through

Don’t lift me up
I can’t go higher

Cause I might fall
Or catch on fire

I gotta leave this place
It belongs to my old face

When I think bout the ones I lost
No one ever paid the cost

the ones I used to fear
Now that everything is clear

You can't touch me
You can’t touch me

I’m still here
I’m still here
I’m still here
I’m still here

Small Town Famous

Just a GenXer trying to enjoy life and share his music before everything goes to hell in a handbasket.

Tripping

Parson Barr