Crawling end

I caught a glimpse of the future; we were older
But I keep failing at all of my attempts to see more 
I took a screenshot and put it in a folder
So I’d remember that we are worth fighting for

I only needed you to know

We never had our chance
It seems like life had other plans
So say you understand 

I only wanted close to you
I needed to be close to you
And everybody knows it’s true
So what am I supposed to do,
Just watch you walk away?

We can’t pretend that our lives are like a movie 
It won’t come easy, we’ve got to put in the work
We may not win but you know you’ll never lose me
I can see clearly what everything we have is worth 

There’s something I need you to know
I tried but I can’t let you go 

I hope I’m not too late
I never meant to make you wait
I’m bound to you by fate 

I only wanted close to you
I needed to be close to you 
And everybody knows it’s true
So what am I supposed to do,
Just watch you walk away?

Damn what I feel 
And every single day I feel it much more
We only needed one more day
We said the same thing yesterday 
But time has made a mockery 
Of everything we planned to be
Still we stay

My love for you will never fade  

Until we get our time
You know you’ll always be on my mind
Until you can be mine 

I only wanted close to you 
(Time is on our side)
And everybody knows it’s true
(Time is on our side)
So what am I supposed to do?
(Time is on our side)
So come and run away with me
(Time is on our side)
I needed to be close to you 
(Time is on our side)
And everybody knows it’s true
(Time is on our side)
So what am I supposed to do?
(Time is on our side)
So come and run away with me
(Time is on our side)
I only wanted close to you 
(Time is on our side)
And everybody knows it’s true
(Time is on our side)
So what am I supposed to do,
(Time is on our side)
Just watch you walk away?


Music/Background Vox: Elevate The Sky
Melody/Lyrics/Lead Vox: Star Madman
Mixed & Produced by: Elevate The Sky & Star Madman
Artwork: Elevate The Sky
Painting in album artwork by Denise Duong: https://www.deniseduongart.com/
Released via Headphone Music Label
More Elevate The Sky: elevatethesky.bandcamp.com

Additional thanks to Michael Centola & Jennifer Dorsey for photo shoot location

Close to You (Elevate The Sky & Star Madman)

Demon Grab

Prioritize to Agonize

AWITW - NEON EP
OUT NOW:
https://awitw.bandcamp.com/album/neon
The night has a thousand eyes, and the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies with the dying sun.
The mind has a thousand eyes, and the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies when love is done.

Transformed

overview

A lush and epic journey from ambient to sci-fi inspired cinematic sounds. 

Forbidden Planet

Music is therapy for me, first and foremost. When I say that, I mean it in every sense of the word: this hobby/obsession/lifestyle/whatever is one of the only things keeping me out of my head and present in my life. When I heard RAN's final master of this song for the first time, I wept like I haven't in a long, long time; it felt SO FUCKING GOOD to get this out of my head and into my ears and make it somehow external to myself, if even for a short while.

The Outer Darkness is where I end up when I let myself stop and listen to my own internal monologue reminding me what a useless piece of shit I am; how incapable I am of being a success, or a father, or a functional, useful human being in general; or how stupid I was to bring a child into this dying, collapsing, greedy cesspool of a planet; or how much better off everyone I love would be if I did them a favor and ceased to exist. It's foggy and cloying and pervasive and it makes even the smallest decisions or baby steps of progress insurmountable and terrifying, and most of all, it brings with it a lingering, abiding fear of things going right, because that is where disaster waits to drop me back to rock bottom if I let myself indulge in even the briefest moment of positivity.

My producer handle is Pashang 爬上, which comes from the Chinese "to climb up" or "to mount," and for me, it represents my ultimate goal in music creation: to climb up and out and away from the Outer Darkness and remember, even for a little while, that it doesn't exist everywhere all the time.

So this song is for me, and for you, if you find yourself curling your toes over the cliff face of oblivion, staring outwards and inwards at the endless expanse of nothingness and still find it within yourself to raise your voice to the universe and say "FUCK YOU, NOT TODAY." It does that for me and I hope it does for you, too. Thanks for listening.

All thanks to RAN for his amazing guitars and incredible master for the track, and to all the #synthfam out there helping and supporting each other no matter what. You all inspire me <3

The Outer Darkness (ft. RAN)

Concept score made for Johnny Cage from the Mortal Kombat franchise. I do not own the rights to this music.

Captain of Zero

An EP that was simply made for fun. I started taking my music too seriously (despite facing little to no pressure) and got to a point of not enjoying it. I gave myself no time limit and made whatever sounded "cool" and enjoyable to me. I spliced both old demos and scrapped sounds with new ones, and I this is the most genuine fun I've had making a project thus far.

Street (Within Passing Cars)

the way we go

Mostly spacewave/chillsynth/synthwave/darksynth. Mostly. 

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