Cybernetic Intoxication

Rhythmic Playground

Canned Scream

The Point Of No Return

Into The Unknown

Possibly a Replicant Inside

Music is therapy for me, first and foremost. When I say that, I mean it in every sense of the word: this hobby/obsession/lifestyle/whatever is one of the only things keeping me out of my head and present in my life. When I heard RAN's final master of this song for the first time, I wept like I haven't in a long, long time; it felt SO FUCKING GOOD to get this out of my head and into my ears and make it somehow external to myself, if even for a short while.

The Outer Darkness is where I end up when I let myself stop and listen to my own internal monologue reminding me what a useless piece of shit I am; how incapable I am of being a success, or a father, or a functional, useful human being in general; or how stupid I was to bring a child into this dying, collapsing, greedy cesspool of a planet; or how much better off everyone I love would be if I did them a favor and ceased to exist. It's foggy and cloying and pervasive and it makes even the smallest decisions or baby steps of progress insurmountable and terrifying, and most of all, it brings with it a lingering, abiding fear of things going right, because that is where disaster waits to drop me back to rock bottom if I let myself indulge in even the briefest moment of positivity.

My producer handle is Pashang 爬上, which comes from the Chinese "to climb up" or "to mount," and for me, it represents my ultimate goal in music creation: to climb up and out and away from the Outer Darkness and remember, even for a little while, that it doesn't exist everywhere all the time.

So this song is for me, and for you, if you find yourself curling your toes over the cliff face of oblivion, staring outwards and inwards at the endless expanse of nothingness and still find it within yourself to raise your voice to the universe and say "FUCK YOU, NOT TODAY." It does that for me and I hope it does for you, too. Thanks for listening.

All thanks to RAN for his amazing guitars and incredible master for the track, and to all the #synthfam out there helping and supporting each other no matter what. You all inspire me <3

The Outer Darkness (ft. RAN)

Hypnotic Refraction

Rebirth

Reception

Concept score made for the Last Cloudia RPG. I do not own the rights to this music score.

Newfound Civilization Act II

https://youtu.be/I9zpA_2FYgc

The Tyrant’s Chef Ep.5 –Ji-young’s Vow

(*Ep.5 “Overture of Resolve & Ji-young’s Vow” 
— Insert Score from The Tyrant’s Chef)
Amid preparations for the culinary duel that will decide the nation’s fate,
the Tyrant and Ji-young strengthen their resolve as their hearts align.
After overcoming countless trials and returning to the palace,
Ji-young stands before the King with unshakable determination,
vowing victory for the future of Joseon.
Insert Score — 〈Overture of Resolve & Ji-young’s Vow〉

Part 1 〈 Overture of Resolve〉
The two who carry the fate of a nation
set out on a long journey to prepare for the culinary duel.
Amidst trials and stumbles, a quiet warmth begins to bloom.

Part 2 〈 Ji-young’s Vow〉
With her resolve firmly set, Ji-young stands before the King,
confidently vowing victory for the nation.
--------------------------------------------

Ep.5 〈결심의 서곡 & 지영의 결심〉 — 폭군의 셰프 삽입곡

폭군과 지영은 나라의 운명을 건 요리대회 준비 속에서
서로의 마음을 확인하며 결심을 다져간다.
수많은 난관을 넘어 다시 궁으로 돌아온 두 사람,
지영은 굳은 의지로 왕 앞에서 다짐하며
조선의 미래를 위해 반드시 승리를 약속한다.
삽입곡, 〈결심의 서곡 & 지영의 결심〉

Part 1 〈결심의 서곡: Overture of Resolve〉
나라의 운명을 짊어진 두 사람,
요리대회를 준비하기 위해 먼 길을 떠나
좌충우돌 속에서도 따스한 온기가 스며든다.

Part 2 〈지영의 결심: Ji-young’s Vow〉
결심이 선 지영은 왕 앞에서 굳게 다짐하며,
나라를 위해 반드시 승리하리라 확신한다.

The Tyrant’s Chef Ep.5 –Ji-young’s Vow 폭군의 세프

Mostly spacewave/chillsynth/synthwave/darksynth. Mostly. 

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