I used the same beat u should check it out! 

is this the beat to that tik tok song, pastel shoulda blown up:(

throwaway*

love u guys 

lyrics -

ill tell her
its the wrong feeling in the club light 
off of it bitch off of it for the one night
ive been looking forward 
to the day
i just need my bitch then well always be m.i.a.
ppl claim they love me but never can see the change
except the gang
got gang squad deep on the block dont play
just bang on the clock for the cake no shame
hidden from the mainstream 
pro in the making

is this real
is it fake 
is there something in my fate 
whats the deal am i to blame 
wipe your blood stains off my face
came to kill
all the way 
aint no stopping whats been created
im yo shield
u fuel the flame 
aint no sunshine in our shade

so lets bet it all
i missed u most of all 
i know u 
were not dead at all
this wall was bound to fall
i know u

October - day by night (prod. zzfallenraven)

Lyrics

Say you got my back but I ain't ever seen you really do it
You won't hit me back and I been really fucking going through it
I just need a call, I just need to talk
I don't wanna type and I don't wanna write these songs

Cause it hurts too much and it takes too long
I can say it don't exist if I don't write it down
I don't really wanna see myself around
I just wanna put myself inside the ground

I just wanna fucking die
I don't wanna fucking live
I just wanna fucking cry
I can't even shed a tear

I might really need a beer
I might really need to smoke
I don't wanna face the fear
I just wanna fucking go

I can't stop the fucking thought
I might crash this fucking car
I might go right off the bridge
I might run right through the bar

I don't really give a fuck no more
I can't figure out why my heart so sore

Everyday I wake up I don't really wanna live
I been feeling pain but I don't really wanna give
Into all the things that I don't really wanna feel
Everyday the same, I don't think any of this real

Talk to my therapist, say existential
Tell me that all that I feel is just mental
What is the point that I'm trying to get to?
All that I've done, I don't think that I meant to

This a pathetic aesthetic, do not look up to me
Say I don't let it, but let it get to me
Fucking regret what I let you do to me
I need a medic for what you do to me

Made a living off of talking bout how much I wanna die
All these feelings, when I'm in it all I wanna know is why
Am I the way that I am, should I really even try?
Why if I know that I can even give it any time?

Life is hard so I gotta live it harder
Got no car but I still be getting farther
I taste tar and I feel it in my lungs
I just learned I was all I ever needed all along

nothing to hold on to. | Produced by ralm

a passion project i made late 2020
produced, recorded, and engineered by yours truly. 
Everything will be okay, keep going.

I been good [RARE 2020]

Infinitytheghost (prod. willie g)

FEEL THE RAIN (PROD. YUNGMEXIC$NBIH)

lyrics:

gotta take about ten medications
to even get my brain its needs
always feelin’ dead, goddamned, decaying
get my cure and then i feed
she fuckin’ hates me
yeah, she’ll even say it
go get high ‘til i can’t breathe
and i don’t want this situation
fucked up in the head and we-

sick
in the head and
dead on the inside
i was left for dead
and stuck up in my mind
i fuck up all the time
i never feel alright
no heaven left in sight
seven cigarettes, i’m high off coke
and i might just go
and die real slow
close my eyes and float away

(gotta take about ten medications
to even get my brain its needs
always feelin’ dead, goddamned, decaying
get my cure and then i feel-)

sick
in the head and
dead on the inside
i was left for dead
and stuck up in my mind
i fuck up all the time
i never feel alright
no heaven left in sight
seven cigarettes, i’m high off coke
and i might just go
and die real slow
close my eyes and float away

sick (prod. lxst ghxul)

all-just-dust.mp3

Hate (Prod. HVLX)

wrote this for your girl
Prod. Okthxbb
Artwork: https://instagram.com/not.a.real.angel
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Like u (prod. Okthxbb)

Prod. Maxokoolin
Follow @contracult

Lyrics:


Feel my eyes sink back in ma’ skull
No drug could play me a fool
I’m so tired of waistin’ my time
When there’s no one here by my side

Just when I thought everything’s fine,
Something’s gotta get on my mind
Keep my head held high they said
But these voices say I’m better off dead

Benzos in my head, 
I’m doin’ fine, but not invincible,
Got no recollection bout the things that happened years ago,
I could use a sign baby, hope it ain’t impossible, if I could save a life,
It’d be nothing but to feel

My eyes sink back in ma’ skull
No one can escape this hell hole
I’m so tired of waistin’ my time
When there’s no one here by my side

Wishin’ I could see all my friends 
Wishin’ I could just play pretend
Keep my head held high they said
But these voices say I’m better off dead

Hate (Prod. HVLX)

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