deep end

produced by me
written/mixed/mastered by me
cover illustration by server (https://serverxyzz.carrd.co)
interpolates jishoumushoku by sasanomaly

[lyrics]
~verse 1~
i like to keep things close to the same
got personal problems adapting to change
i always plan things so far away
but when i get started its far too late
i like pretending i know what to do
like if i really feel at home then itll all come true
i like pretending ive made it on my own
when it could all end with a phone call home

~bridge~
god, its so hard
to juggle all the things that have been handed to me
but i cant stop
ive got to get back up

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

~verse 2~
i try to sleep well, but every night
i cant shake the feeling im wasting time
ive gotta sink before i can fly
but im still afloat and i dont know why
maybe its all gonna slow way down,
thats all i can hope for, but i still dont know
i roll with the punches, i live in the now
i take a step forward and i double back

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

Steps

https://open.spotify.com/track/1s0XvMyOhnv5mY8sT4xm3o

(I) 
I’ve been blind 
To you
But if I take time 
Will I quit lying? 
Will I be 

All up in my mind 
Till I waste nights 
I been hearing lies
Through the grapevine 
(I could tell) 
I could tell lies 
Like a quicktime

(Maybe I) 
I could take time
Like I want to 
(Maybe I)
I can break ties 
If I have to
I can make time 
For the things I wanna do

I do 
Am I too much for you?
(Much for you)
No I do
Am I too much for you?
(Much for you)

You don’t know 
That I’m too much for you
(Much for you)
Yeah, I know 
It’s too much for you
(Much for you) 
Yes I do

(Much for you, much for you) 
(I’m too much for you, much for you)
(I’m too much for you, much for you)
(I’m too much for-)

I’ve been online, need a clear mind
Staying up way too late again
Write another song and play pretend 
Maybe I’m insane or hard to bend I can say

I’m just sick of love for the meantime
I can say lies for the peace signs
I can make time for the things I wanna do

Still I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you
Much for you 
I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you
Much for you 
I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you



Atlas

featuring additional writing & vocals by @JAYOVSN
written, produced, performed, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

Feel that boom when the bass talk back to you
Feel that boom when the bass talk bad with you
Feel that boom when the bass start asking you
How does it feel, how does it feel
You feel that boom when the bass talk back to you
Feel that boom when the bass talk bad with you
Feel that boom when the bass start asking you
How does it feel, how does it feel to dance tonight

I’m making an impact
I’m making a splash
I’m sensing the tension
The incoming crash
I’m feeling the pleasure
I feel unabashed
I’m feeling the pressure
I’m gone in a flash

Hello, hello, I greet you
It’s truly nice to meet you
Will you perchance remember me, what I’m all about
We’re waiting at the party
The music barely starting
I’m thinking of my legacy when I’m up and out

Feel that boom when the bass talk back to you
Feel that boom when the bass talk bad with you
Feel that boom when the bass start asking you
How does it feel, how does it feel
(You feel my energy?) You feel that boom when the bass talk back to you
(You feel my energy?) Feel that boom when the bass talk bad with you
(Do you feel my energy?) Feel that boom when the bass start asking you
How does it feel, how does it feel to dance tonight

I heard the haters want me to kill myself
They talk the talk but they cannot understand
I said this to myself, I need some help
I’ve isolated in my room, yeah I need to get out

Right, alright, alright, alright
Please just get it out of my head
The rhythm keeps coming again and again and again
When you feel that

Feel that boom when the bass talk back to you
Feel that boom when the bass talk bad with you
Feel that boom when the bass start asking you
How does it feel, how does it feel
(You feel my energy?) You feel that boom when the bass talk back to you
(You feel my energy?) Feel that boom when the bass talk bad with you
(Do you feel my energy?) Feel that boom when the bass start asking you
How does it feel, how does it feel to dance tonight

Feel that boom when the bass talk back to you
Feel that boom when the bass talk bad with you
Feel that boom when the bass start asking you
How does it feel, how does it feel
You feel that boom when the bass talk back to you
Feel that boom when the bass talk bad with you
Feel that boom when the bass start asking you
How does it feel, how does it feel to dance tonight

boom [ft. JAYOVSN]

prod. @wubz <3
art by kagitasuimen with design + photography by disk_motif

holding
I can't let you know me
I can barely think straight I'm still hoping
take your knife and mold me
I'm caught in your arms now caught in you're-
and i'm caught in your arms now
holding my hands out
pray that you're right
that you'll figure it all out (relish)

that's right - that's right - that's right
you told me last night last night it's fine
don't hold me i'll cry - i'll cry - i'll cry
cause I hate the way you look at-

and i'm caught in your arms now
holding my hands out
pray that you're right
that you'll figure it all out
making it worthless
thought that it'd hurt less
I let my guard down
carved like a knife- I'm-

I don't wanna know you now
feel like I've fallen down
took the time to find my heart
and you stole it from me
and I can't get up 
my legs are still broken
my heart is still stolen 
I need the piece that you're still
holding
I can't let you know me
I can barely think straight I'm still hoping
take your knife and mold me
I'm caught in your arms now caught in you're-

held by my halo
talk but say it slow
do it all over
you'll be my holder I
can't seem to stay long
wish for it all gone
do it all over
you'll be my hold- hold -hold
held by my halo
talk but say it slow
do it all over
you'll be my holder I
can't seem to stay long
wish for it all gone
do it all over
you'll be my (re-re re)

guide me slowly talk cause I can't speak I
hear you talking for me
can't get the words out
feel like I'm hurt now
all that you told me 
lies just to hold-

that's right - that's right - that's right
you told me last night last night it's fine
don't hold me i'll cry - i'll cry - i'll cry
cause I hate the way you look at-

that's right - that's right - that's right
you told me last night last night it's fine
don't hold me i'll cry - i'll cry - i'll cry
cause I hate the way you look at-
and i'm caught in-

and i'm caught in your arms now
holding my hands out
pray that you're right
that you'll figure it all out - out -out
held by my halo
talk but say it slow
do it all over
you'll be my holder I
can't seem to stay long
wish for it all gone
do it all over
you'll be my holder

holder「wubz」

Do I keep you up

@daywxtch
@adridoesthings

a huge thank you to @schbwp, @another-autumn-479671184 and @dotgavin for addition sound design and background vox

this took 2 months to make
141 tracks

the color

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Written by @hiisero, @ryanleahan & @trustt
Produced by @hiisero, @ryanleahan & @trustt
Mixed by @ryanleahan & @trustt
Mastered by @trustt

#2014Back

We made this in less than a day. (26/4)

[Intro: Ryan Leahan]
So won’t you go 
Go hang out with your friends
They’ll put the seeds in your hands
You found a reason to end you life, well
They found a spot to begin 
Well don’t you know 
Don’t you know in the end 
Were just the tracks that we spin 
So turn it up till the speakers blow
then I 
I wanna play it again 

[Pre-chorus: Ryan Leahan]
She's the girl divine 
Your always on my mine
Your the girl divine
She's always on my mind

[Drop: Ryan Leahan]
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again

[Verse 1: Trustt]
"Just wait for a week
Just stay for a month"
But I feel so wrong
But I feel so dumb
Just go out
Oh god, why'd it get so hard now?
I feel so dumb

Tell me everything
Just tell me where to stay
I can't even eat now
I can't even sleep
So tell me everything
Just tell me where to stay
I can't even eat now
I can't even sleep


[Verse 2: Sero]
You find yourself, uh, 
looking for doors 
but they lead to the same damn place

You find yourself lying,
trying to keep trying
with a noose in your hands

You repent, you repent, you repent
while you wish to be someone else
You say "mother, I'm sorry"
I desire for one day to be the one

[Pre-chorus: Ryan Leahan]
She's the girl divine 
Your always on my mine
Your the girl divine
She's always on my mind

[Drop: Ryan Leahan]
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again

[Outro: Trustt]
just hold on, cuz waiting forever
hurts more than missing you
and white grass, painted all over
our spring is meant for two
wait up, you're fading too fast
my eyes can't catch your moves
and white tracks, painted and older
this seat, i left for you

girldivine (with Ryan Leahan & trustt)

lyrics:
go go go go
so i luv wit u 
woah go goooa
lets go goooo
oh my god 
yea its so hard to let go
so i hold on 
yea its so hard to let go 
so i hold on
yea i knw that u been gone 
hope ur strong 
i hope one day maybe we still get along
everyday i wan call u and say that im sry
baby pls yah baby pls no need to worry
yell my name out pull up inna hurry
no need 2 worry
3 point shooter yea i shoot it like im Curry
pop a perc 30 got my vision blurry
but my feelings oh they so clear 
i Keep having visions yea i Think the end is near
think i m dying yah 
i think thats my only fear
i Close my eyes and ur voice is what i hear
stay wit me baby pls dont dissapear
but i fear that the end is near 
im Dying
 i can feel it
im Dying 
can u stay here with me 
im Dying 
i wnt forget abt u
im Dying 
can u hold me right here 
im Dying yea

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Patrick O'Neill