expectantlonlyness.

12. LIFE HAPPENS

prod. by: thms 
written by: thms.
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//yeah, I mean how could you?
//how am I?
//that’s a joke right, right?
//like you're joking? 
//oh, you're not.

oh
Things were going too good
Don’t get me misunderstood
The doubts around
They turned to truths throughout

through septembers cold i stood
didn't need what I thought I would
going numb in my face
But the winds that blow weren't what you'd think

I'll say
For my estate

That it's easy
For something to come along 
and pretend to save face

and you'll speak
bout how i never listened
Do you hear yourself in the words you’re saying?

These things just don't do this.
rotten luck at its core I swear
Might as well be toothless cause im
Coping hard on my own

And it feels so useless
I won't breathe with my own lungs
But I already feel this
Left alone in a broken home

on my own
I'll stand shone
may not be long
But I'll fight as long as I hold on

to be strong
don’t feel like i can know
But I know ive got a way
A way 

So I'll be here
and I'll wait for years
yeah I'll hold back the tears
can't you see im right here? Replace my fears.

because this wont heal
its pressing on me and I feel
the world is spinning they wont hear
me like you do. God, I need you. 

I swear to god 
Im not crazy
I just hate the things 
That you make me

You're cliché 
with no taste see
No thoughts 
That heads so empty

Going in blind not chasing
The waters too deep for saftey
Dive in headfirst im lazy
No regard for lifelike shading

Here come take me
Please baby
I need saftey in your arms
I'm going crazy

I hate being
This shell so empty
My mind is going dark

watercolors

my heart will go on n on n on

yh these bitches luv sosa
she wanna cum ovr 
cryin on my shoulder
but it dont mean shit 2 me

love u lots ashe 4 master xx

luv sosa w/ ashe [kyoa]

OMGYOLO is a collaboration project between @alice-gass and @andrewgoestohell that include songs that were written between December 2019 until February 2021. The Project includes guitar by @SAWCE (@sawceofficial) on track 4 and Vocal Accompaniment by Laura Les (@osno1) on track 5. These are the demos of the songs.

Photo by @Jamesbaroz on instagram

OMGYOLO - SELF TITLED (DEMOS) 2019-2021

https://open.spotify.com/track/6eZfeT8dORHl43aSJAjzft?si=15d8d240c2674e20

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ram7AKbtkGE 

uhhh uh-uh-uh-uh-uh
uhhh uh-uh-uh-uh-uh
she got the fatty euuughh
uhhh uh-uh-uh-uh-uh

"we do not care"

woah
we do 
e-e-e
not caaare
woah
e-EH
not care (e-EH)
woah 
we do
n-n-n-not share (OOUEH)
do not ask for my fries! (e-EH)
or else i will kill u
do not touch my fries..
get ur own damn fries
before i smack ur face! (e-EH)

ima go
d-d-downtown
ima blow
countdown
5, 4, 3, 2, 1
ima go 
poundtown 
open up the wrapper see my frie
1 was missing!
ima cry
whoever took it finna die
tell me u did it, and why?

my frie.. 
"we do not care"
"care-care"
my frie-e-E-e

my frie.. 
"we do not care"
"care-care"
my frie-e-E-e

woah
we do 
e-e-e
not caaare
woah
e-EH
not care (e-EH)
woah 
we do
n-n-n-not share (OOUEH)
do not ask for my fries! (e-EH)
or else i will kill u
do not touch my fries..
get ur own damn fries
before i smack ur face! (e-EH)

fries 🍟 (ragedrugg + wayza)

Intro (pick Up)

STREAM/BUY “no hope :)”
https://songwhip.com/january17th/no-hope


i woke up half past 1:00, staring at the sky tryna feel the sun with my eyes
and the more i try, i convince myself its alive
i convince myself, i’m alive
i convince my-

self deprecate just to try and cope
‘cause right now my confidence is on death row 
you said i look rough i said i know
when i pour my soul out its not enough 

staring out the window of a train car
middle of the day watching shooting stars 
blades of grass started to fall apart
blades of grass started to fall apart 
blades of grass started to fall apart
blades of grass started to fall apart
blades of grass started to fall apart
blades of grass started to fall apart

self deprecate just to try and cope 
‘cause right now my confidence is on death row 
you said i look rough i said i know
when i pour my soul out its not enough

no hope :)

Honestly don't even know all the lyrics lol
I made this in like 2 hours

Some of the lyrics -

Another sad song
It won't save me from myself
Tryna let go
It's just not good for my health

Just tear me down
Every time
Break my bones
Down to ride
Can't wait
Imma die
Can't say
I'm alright
Can't talk
Close my eyes
Can't breathe
Outta sight
Can't think
Out my mind
Can't say
I'm alright

Stuck with a limiter
Pushing perimeters
Don't think I'm missing her
But it still really hurts
Fixing myself now
Expand my horizon
Know I'm not cut out
But I don't mind it

Cage (glossalia)

Also on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/66ivgcdvkqcg9kxQI6CgsS

@aintitmardee
@kiimslilt

Lyrics:
You said to get out 
Why you tryna leave
You did me wrong
But now I'm coppin' pleas
The dead of night is when you wanna   scream
Guess they were wrong when they said love's a team
If you're gon' stab me in the heart
then you're going all the way
Cant just come around 
like the words just go away
I cant take no more all you do is cause me pain
Everything you do hits me hard than the rain

We hit off like woah
Let see where we go
Everything was love
Know you were my soul
With you by my side
I felt I could be
higher than I would
if my wings were free
C'est la vie 
Can you go away
Leaking out my heart when you call me these names
Was this what you wanted 
for me to take the blame
Running out of time
I'm not part of this game

You envied me
You hated me bad
Told me these lies 
To make me feel sad
You took my life
and gave it a chance
To turn around 
and crush our romance
Felt so much joy from holding your hand
Where'd we go wrong
this wasn't the plan
Don't know what to do without you
But I have to say that I'm glad that we're through

Rain (prod. mardee + goothereakiest)

guitar, bass, drum, all played by me
cover of paramore still into you

probably wont be on spotify for a while sorry

still into you

My First Love

Sweet sweet delight
Sweet sweet delight

You were my
You are my
Will always be
My first love

You were my
You are my
Will always be 
My first love

Sleep well my love
Sleep well my heart

You were my
You are my
Will always be
My first love

My First Love (First Take)

I use sound as a way to express my healing process, accept reality, and find beauty in life's unpredictability. In its raw and unfiltered form, sound serves as a powerful medium for conveying the complex emotions I experience while navigating life's chaos and uncertainty. By embracing disharmony and unexpected shifts in my music, I am not only accepting reality as it is, but also transforming it into something meaningful and intimate for me. This creates a space where vulnerability and acceptance coexist, allowing me to find love and beauty in the imperfect and even the disturbing.

Intro (pick Up)

Patrick O'Neill

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