New Hope is 20 chronologically ordered recordings from the months of November 2023 - June 2024. Made with two microphones and a focusrite, the raw records play with room feedback and tape speed to reflect the sound of grieving while falling in love. Runtime is 90 minutes and gapless playback is recommended in a setting where you feel comfortable.

New Hope

New Hope, Chapter I - The Great Divide

I ran home cuz I thought I was fired
And man all these joints are tired
And I said “wait” I was waiting for a serenade
Tell me everything about your damn day
Lay me out front if you threw a grenade
So why?
Do I seem distracted to you?
It’s beautiful to lay awake in my eyes

So watch it all be enough for you to take in
Watch it all be enough for you to let in
I tried to face the great divide
It only tired me out

Date of recording (11.6.23)

The Great Divide

I quit everything today
Old moldy yogurt and exercise bands
In the basement where I know that I can do anything

Follow the signs, I’ve been losing my mind
And these ears are too damaged to hear
I’m wasting your time while you’re waiting in line;
I think you should get out of here

Fairy lights round the window
Tinsel and tassels
I’m warm and I’m sinful

I will hurt you if you try
Give it another

Watch as I calcify
Think I’ll take medicine for the rest of my life
Cut the opening day ribbon and
 
Give me a sign, I’ve been losing my mind
You’re not in a condition to hear
Save me some time, I’ve been waiting in line
But I gotta get right out of here

I quit everything today
I can do anything
I quit everything today
I can do anything
I quit everything today (glue on the carpet)
I can do anything (door off its hinges)
I quit everything today
I can do anything

I am in so much pain
If I take my life find my songs on my hard drive and put them online
Not cause I feel like I need to be heard
But along the same lines, just hope packing my little ideas up pays off in some way
Clearly I’d trade the process for product any day

Any day now

I Quit Everything

album release show on may 30th in chicago: 
https://link.dice.fm/P9e4e3ae41d4?dice_id=P9e4e3ae41d4

music video: https://youtu.be/mu1dBfg4SiE

master by alexander panos in northern illinois
clarinets by zachary alexander in baltimore
backing vocals by oyeme thomas in chicago
horns by padraig greene in kingston

lyrics: 
the problem breeds a novel thief
and you conned it, ironic

you stayed with me, connected seams
and i loved it, i covet

and i needed that, i was catatonic
you carefully returned for me

calligraphic notes, stars would ink the pages
(you called my name with covered eyes)
blooming from the basement

that's like flashing hope to the patient
(you called my name with covered eyes) 
don't give them a reason

your combination i've never seen

but you've given me that, it was catastrophic

you're simply eternity

calligraphic notes, stars would ink the pages
(you called my name with covered eyes)
blooming from the basement

that's like flashing hope to the patient
(you called my name with covered eyes) 
don't give them a reason

your combination i've never seen

Bubba

Pre-order Bubba

your combination

lil remix of https://soundcloud.com/dobimusic/peacetreaty as a thank you for 600 followers on here <3
original by @dobimusic & @oyeme-thomas

peace treaty [paxen imzi remix]

New Hope, Chapter VI - Hush

Date of recording (1.9.24)

Hush

New Hope, Chapter VII - honest
Recorded 2.1.24

oh, don't let em take my breath away again
oh, I'll live forever if I could, if I could
death only matters anyway 
if you have someone to share it with
promise I won't put you on a pedestal
I'll only love you forever
and the sun's getting hotter, oh
but my hope's getting bright
one day we'll have a baby, my love 
one day we'll have a baby
in each other's arms, I love you still
oh, I could look at those brown eyes forever, and see you still

only I know how to love forever
if I could love you still
and only my friends could catch a glipse of the spark
only from the start
read your funny books
and tell me everything inside them
read your funny books
and tell me fuckin' everything

i know the music ain't perfect yet anyway
what the fuck does that even mean?
i'm recording into a focusrite
to tell you i'll love forever

baby I had a dream that you and I were in a library

-st

hmm? (do it anyways)

honest

New Hope, Chapter V - running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
Recorded 12.13.23

no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt
running through the park
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin home
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
yeah
home
what is this?
what is this?
(runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin)
about me
about me
about me
cause i'm running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
oh i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin through the park
yea im runnin home
runnin through the park yea i'm runnin home

running through the park, yea im runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin

New Hope, Chapter XVIII - gotta run!
Recorded 5.22.24
lyrics
don't you love me baby, definitely care
don't you love me baby
oh I found what I found
oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
don't you love me baby, I found the key
don't you love me baby, don't you know
don't you love me baby, don't you know
oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found the key, I found the key
oh I found the key, i found the way
gotta run run run, gotta run run run
oh I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
gotta run run run, gotta run run run
cause oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
aura (woo)
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
aura
your aura
aura
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
aura
your aura
aura (oh it's time to go)
woah, woah
woah it's time to go
woah it's time to go
it's time to go
(don't you know)
it's time to go, oh it's time to go
it's time to go, oh it's time to go
oh it's time to go

that was nice

gotta run!

New Hope, Chapter II - Red Spell

spells, we were talking bout spells
oh well, we were talking bout spells
hell, don't talk about hell
oh well, we were talking bout hell

now I see the difference don't you need me to rest
I swear my intuition tells me nothin' but the best
oh I need a good c---
so take your intuition, get your fuckin' inhibition out your mind
I don't need nobody here to see me whine
I'm crying, don't you see that I was only so depressed cause the best of the people that I had in my mind
oh why?

baby this is full regeneration, not the way I ride
I'm swimmin' no regrets and babe I only see the sky
I'm wonderin' bout the
woah, nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah standin' in the way

~

New Hope, Chapter III - Blue Spell

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
still waiting for the day to come when you say no
yeah

~

New Hope, Chapter IV - Green Spell

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"

fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
I'm still waiting for the day that you say you can let me go
I don't wait for the ways that you say "you can let me know"

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

subliminal the way that you would let me go
and the radio is running the show
I care for you I do, I do
but I only have so much for you
and I can't use all my spells


Recorded 11.7.23

Three Spells (Red Spell, Blue Spell, Green Spell)

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genesis (samplepack showcase) vol. 2

i made this this morning

***JONI FREESTYLE***
V1:
"Is this life worth living?"
Think it's time to ask a friend

So I'll sketch on it like Joni
Draw a line straight through the sand

Cause this brain was built to find the good
In spite of circumstance - is this life worth living?

V2:
"Is this life worth living?"
I’m not asking for a friend

Think I’ll find it where I lost it
Yea it’s just around the bend

When it’s not there think I’ll freak out
Where we go and where we’ve been

I’ve been round this wheel once or twice
I’d do it all again

B:

Again and again and again
I'd do it all

Again and again and again
I'd do it all

Again and again yea
I’ll do it all again

Again and again yea
I’ll do it all again

V3:
"Is this life worth living?"
Think I’ll find it in a friend

Think I’ll find it in a moment
Think I’ll find it in pretend

Think I’ll find it in the headlines
Think I'll find it in this brand

I’ve been round this wheel once or twice
I’d do it all again

JONI FREESTYLE

I'm bored so I'm just uploading this

I havent dropped anything in a while and I don't want to be a one song a year type of person so I guess this is just something until I finish this project 
idk whether it'll be like an EP or album or what and I don't really know where to take it because I've been working on it for years and the music I've been making has drastically changed since then so it feels like I'm removing two tracks for every one i make so yea sorry I'm like dumping lmfao anyway Hi Hi Hi

Låpsley - Ligne 3 (flip)

11/09/24 - 28/03/25
2/11

Want2 is sorta about being queer and wanting to be straight, or normal, but just knowing that you can't. Maybe it relates to Wind with the theme of not really liking who you are but still accepting it. It's from the perspective of wanting to be with a woman, but knowing that no matter how hard you try it just wouldn't work out, and that kind of awkward aprehensive sort of tone comes from that.

I always wanted to make a garage pop song, and this was like my hundredth attempt haha. Anyway I was just sending some drafts in a groupchat to get some thoughts and Eva seemed to really take to the idea and asked to jump on it. I adore Eva and their work so it was a no brainer and she transformed the track overnight pretty much, completely rearranging it and pretty much laying out a whole song, it was wild. We went from there and eventually got it done!

you can find Eva and her work here!:
https://soundcloud.com/eva-nge-line
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5u2g7SyRhKga7Cf8MUvKsM?si=9yhIDqs3SPaNixKBb3NSbQ
https://twitter.com/evangelinestuff
https://instagram.com/evangelinestuff
https://evangeline.info/

[LYRICS]
(to want)

I want to want you, but I don't.
And I need to tell you, but I won't

And if I tell you what I want
would you take it down to heart?
If I tell you what I want?

'cuz I want
I want

'cuz I want to want you
And I know, you just wanna be alone sometimes, you just wanna be alone
but I don't wanna be alone (sometimes)
(sometimes)

But I don't wanna be alone
If I'm forward, backward, reverse it down alone
lah lah bah bah dah dah dah

I wish I never met you in the first place
I know, you wish you never met me in the first place
I don't know what I want, what I want

gotta run!

patchymate

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