New Hope is 20 chronologically ordered recordings from the months of November 2023 - June 2024. Made with two microphones and a focusrite, the raw records play with room feedback and tape speed to reflect the sound of grieving while falling in love. Runtime is 90 minutes and gapless playback is recommended in a setting where you feel comfortable.

New Hope

i’m 16 years old, driving an hour and back every weekend, in my moms 2008 honda mini van, to see my girlfriend. ctrl, blonde and trip nonstop. that with a little bit of a complicated religious upbringing and a severely repressed feeling of dysphoria gag. that’s what led to this song, i love u sza! ty for everything always 🧋🧁

Let me be 𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓽𝓽𝔂 ꕥ✿❀

edit: RIP 2 MISS COURTNEY MILLS </3 :'(

@gasoiid x @courtneymillsbootlegs x @zedd x @selena-gomez-official

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New Hope, Chapter I - The Great Divide

I ran home cuz I thought I was fired
And man all these joints are tired
And I said “wait” I was waiting for a serenade
Tell me everything about your damn day
Lay me out front if you threw a grenade
So why?
Do I seem distracted to you?
It’s beautiful to lay awake in my eyes

So watch it all be enough for you to take in
Watch it all be enough for you to let in
I tried to face the great divide
It only tired me out

Date of recording (11.6.23)

The Great Divide

I quit everything today
Old moldy yogurt and exercise bands
In the basement where I know that I can do anything

Follow the signs, I’ve been losing my mind
And these ears are too damaged to hear
I’m wasting your time while you’re waiting in line;
I think you should get out of here

Fairy lights round the window
Tinsel and tassels
I’m warm and I’m sinful

I will hurt you if you try
Give it another

Watch as I calcify
Think I’ll take medicine for the rest of my life
Cut the opening day ribbon and
 
Give me a sign, I’ve been losing my mind
You’re not in a condition to hear
Save me some time, I’ve been waiting in line
But I gotta get right out of here

I quit everything today
I can do anything
I quit everything today
I can do anything
I quit everything today (glue on the carpet)
I can do anything (door off its hinges)
I quit everything today
I can do anything

I am in so much pain
If I take my life find my songs on my hard drive and put them online
Not cause I feel like I need to be heard
But along the same lines, just hope packing my little ideas up pays off in some way
Clearly I’d trade the process for product any day

Any day now

I Quit Everything

https://ffm.to/basalt 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

everything is different now
_______________________________________________

blood it crusts the mantle, sequence in stairs

tephra crests the marrow, applique if she cared

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me i won't open wide
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

and i told you that day, and the rust fell that may,
and the ash coned and the steel groaned saw your visage through the smoke one last time
now it's unrequited, wasn't your onus, thank god you were honest
I'll hull to the harbor i won't surrender what i had promised, won't embed it against you
but nothing can change the fact that i trust you
and nothing can change the fact that i love you

stare at the asphalt, refuse to bloom

won't cherish the basalt, a pyrrhic sige there 
backstitch the petiole, oblique she's the heir 

wading through traft bullaces solely reverie

can't rathe to rue it's ellipsis, who are we?

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me magma hit my eyes
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

faltered all at once the walls i'd woven pylons corrallings,

the fumaroles atoned it billowed oxidized recoiled on hem, i'm still terrified

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me whither watch it writhe
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me whither watch it writhe
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

vain to scrape the tungsten, abjured alloy, but I'm just like them, no I'm just like them




contains vocal samples by https://www.youtube.com/@SouliaSora

basalt

may14

↑⇡◎⇡↑

 lyrics:

your love can be taken away
put your clothes on me we can go to the edge
your love can be taken away
it's impossible to have blind faith

if patience is a virtue would you give me a day
would you have blind faith?
if patience is a virtue would you give me a day
would you have blind faith?
if my words were like an apple would it make you feel safe?
would you have blind faith?
you could write the whole play and i'll tell a single joke
it's called blind faith

your love can be taken away
put your clothes on me we can go to the edge
your love can be taken away
is it possible to have blind faith?

ECHO

music video

i want to go underwater
i want to see all the fish
i want to go meet a mermaid
just to see if they exist

but i don’t know how to swim
maybe i should just go home
eh, i’m happy with just watching
but i’m sad that you have to swim alone

i want to see the big whales
all the sharp teethed eels
swimming along the crust
among plastic bottles and cigarette butts

but i don’t know how to swim
maybe i should just go home
though i’d be happy to be watching
but i’m sad that you have to swim alone

all the fish

i got up
it was cold
i left the window open

beeping so
truck horn shriek
skidding tire track road

lighter up, flick
finger burnt tips
trembling lips
kissing my wrists

and it hasnt snowed yet
think id regret
seeing my breath

tire track road (demo)

New Hope, Chapter VI - Hush

Date of recording (1.9.24)

Hush

New Hope, Chapter IX - muck
Recorded 2.13.24

muck

New Hope, Chapter VII - honest
Recorded 2.1.24

oh, don't let em take my breath away again
oh, I'll live forever if I could, if I could
death only matters anyway 
if you have someone to share it with
promise I won't put you on a pedestal
I'll only love you forever
and the sun's getting hotter, oh
but my hope's getting bright
one day we'll have a baby, my love 
one day we'll have a baby
in each other's arms, I love you still
oh, I could look at those brown eyes forever, and see you still

only I know how to love forever
if I could love you still
and only my friends could catch a glipse of the spark
only from the start
read your funny books
and tell me everything inside them
read your funny books
and tell me fuckin' everything

i know the music ain't perfect yet anyway
what the fuck does that even mean?
i'm recording into a focusrite
to tell you i'll love forever

baby I had a dream that you and I were in a library

-st

hmm? (do it anyways)

honest

New Hope, Chapter V - running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
Recorded 12.13.23

no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt
running through the park
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin home
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
yeah
home
what is this?
what is this?
(runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin)
about me
about me
about me
cause i'm running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
oh i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin through the park
yea im runnin home
runnin through the park yea i'm runnin home

running through the park, yea im runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin

New Hope, Chapter II - Red Spell

spells, we were talking bout spells
oh well, we were talking bout spells
hell, don't talk about hell
oh well, we were talking bout hell

now I see the difference don't you need me to rest
I swear my intuition tells me nothin' but the best
oh I need a good c---
so take your intuition, get your fuckin' inhibition out your mind
I don't need nobody here to see me whine
I'm crying, don't you see that I was only so depressed cause the best of the people that I had in my mind
oh why?

baby this is full regeneration, not the way I ride
I'm swimmin' no regrets and babe I only see the sky
I'm wonderin' bout the
woah, nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah standin' in the way

~

New Hope, Chapter III - Blue Spell

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
still waiting for the day to come when you say no
yeah

~

New Hope, Chapter IV - Green Spell

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"

fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
I'm still waiting for the day that you say you can let me go
I don't wait for the ways that you say "you can let me know"

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

subliminal the way that you would let me go
and the radio is running the show
I care for you I do, I do
but I only have so much for you
and I can't use all my spells


Recorded 11.7.23

Three Spells (Red Spell, Blue Spell, Green Spell)

The Confessionals of a Doll and the prologue to Marianne

Original fadeoutz-full song 2024

Lyrics
The songs in my head are the ones that he likes
I think of his voice
And I changed the way I write
Called me a pioneer
But I don't think I've ever been that real to him
I just wanna get by
I been taking some shit now
Been a dirt road kinda life
I been nobody's bitch but some people's kryptonite
I'm just tryna write my life before they take mine
Just tryna right my life before they take mine
He bought me drinks
I wanna fly him out
I tell him where I'm from but I'm not so sure now
I pray what he's saying is just lyrics from a song
I pray what he's saying is just lyrics from a  song
Sleeper agent girls sweet nothing on his telephone 
I BEEN ON THIS DIRT ROAD ALL MY LIFE
The world is tryna take your pretty ass away from me
Take off your clothes take off your clothes take off your clothes
Take me on the ATV
Wanna wrestle in the dirt before I have to leave
I wanna feel our chains touch when I'm on top of you 
I wanna see your chain swing when you're on top of me
I wanna see your chain swing I wanna see your chain swing I wanna see your chain swing I wanna see your chain swing
They wanna make a hit song
Get off on killing me
I watched the blood get drawn
Testing for a cure
I earned it
They wanna make a hit song
Get off on killing me
I just wanna feel some love while I still can
He's the biggest hater still don't judge me
Biggest hater tell me he got god in his hand
Feel some love while I still can
Biggest hater tell me he got god in his hand
And he scared to say he love me
Sister tell me never put your trust in a man
They all gon find it disgusting
I just fall in love while I still can I just fall in love while I still can I just fall in love while I still can I just fall in love while I still can
Touch me now before somebody else will
Hunt me down
Tell me how the sex feel I spent some digits on some dirty pills
Coming down the ceiling bitch I shoot to kill
Touch me now before somebody else will
Hunt me down
Tell me how the sex feel I spent some digits on some dirty pills
Coming down the ceiling bitch I shoot to kill

Dirt road anthem

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member/cofounder @anythingcouldbehere

muck

patchymate

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