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goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

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made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

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Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

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goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

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field notes

spotlight
coming in hot
a yellow flash is all it takes I see you when i meditate ’til you beeline
you always do
there’s no rational for you staying
so irrational for you to think I wouldn’t

go for all the second dates the morning after
I wonder what the fuq i said
to make you get up and leave

take my place
for now i need a minute

take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away

well I’m not gonna force it
telling horror stories
i couldn’t show you love in a purgatory now i see it
it’s all transitory
if its a yellow-white flash, it’s an allegory i wonder what it takes
i’ll settle for my fate
but i wouldn’t let you wait
you sighed from my mistakes


i wonder what i would be doing if it wasn’t for you
hiding from the truth is all i’ll ever do
ah fuq! i wish i said to you
‘no please don’t get up and leave’

take my place
for now i need a minute
take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away
yeah

and i stay lit
just a little bit
too long cause i wanna catch a glimpse of it you said you didn’t know me anymore no you said you didn’t know me
it’s my fault you let me go

It's my fault you let me go

New Hope, Chapter I - The Great Divide

I ran home cuz I thought I was fired
And man all these joints are tired
And I said “wait” I was waiting for a serenade
Tell me everything about your damn day
Lay me out front if you threw a grenade
So why?
Do I seem distracted to you?
It’s beautiful to lay awake in my eyes

So watch it all be enough for you to take in
Watch it all be enough for you to let in
I tried to face the great divide
It only tired me out

Date of recording (11.6.23)

New Hope

The Great Divide

sleeping by the lake on the shore, i got my sheets on the floor
spiral down, cursed to explore what i just couldn't ignore
yea you've got some shit you won't show, i've got a bit of my own
i hate the way you broke down the door, as if i wasn't alone

and something bout the way that you touch my shoulder makes my blood cold
i wouldn't have admitted i hate myself until we got close

late night, bad dream
what a fuss, whats it mean
i'm in every scene, don't wanna talk about it
call me, every day
spit it out, run away
i can't replace what you've been lost without yeah
i'm a paper stevia packet
you're cocaine wrapped in plastic
who wants another line?
don't you think that it was so tragic
remembering the things that we laughed at
or did you wanna cry?

something bout the way that you hold my gaze is like a knife fight
like every single word is a firework caught in a bush fire
something bout the way that you touch my shoulder makes it alright
lower my defense and you stab my back like you're a vampire

vampire

Take In 'Reality'

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uh oh
got glitter on my cheekbones looking for the way things go
like tangling timelines
control
call that something to relinquish, you dont wanna break no bones
cause you know the choreo
you go dumb check one 
dancing in the kitchen all alone piss drunk
crossing out the promises you wrote last month
to spill those guts again
i'm falling out my skin
my hips keep shaking like
boy you pull me down again
blue candy skeleton
your lipstick tasted like gum
stuck to my mouth again
part three
fool reversed, you're giving it back to me
getting down in all my dreams
so let that sugar rush delude me
peel my face away, pollute me
got me walking kinda goofy at you know
i go dumb check one 
dancing in the kitchen all alone piss drunk
crossing out the promises i wrote last month
to spill my guts again
i'm falling out my skin
my hips keep shaking like
boy you pull me down again
blue candy skeleton
your lipstick tasted like gum
stuck to my mouth again
dont go
off to who knows where again
you know
what i think about, please dont make me say it now
i'm falling out my skin
my hips keep shaking like
boy you pull me down again
blue candy skeleton
your lipstick tasted like gum
stuck to my mouth again


gum!

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letra:

eu venho a observando a muito tempo
eu sei q cê n me quer, mas nunca me rendo
nego n desisto fácil, então pode aceitar?
pense duas vezes, n pense em recusar

ela postou nos storys o seu namorado novo
n sei como reajo, talvez eu esteja louco
n, n posso aceitar, como assim meu bem?
se eu n posso te ter, ngm vai poder tbm

eu sei onde é sua casa, melhor vc terminar
não é nada pessoal, mas vou fazer isso acabar
mas que droga, cê não se importa?
eu seria melhor, pq vc não me suporta?

(4×)
eu vou fazer você correr, vou fazer você sofrer
vc morta do meu lado, é o jeito q posso te ter
foge sem parar, n adianta gritar
tipo Michael Myers meu extinto só pensa em matar

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