New Hope is 20 chronologically ordered recordings from the months of November 2023 - June 2024. Made with two microphones and a focusrite, the raw records play with room feedback and tape speed to reflect the sound of grieving while falling in love. Runtime is 90 minutes and gapless playback is recommended in a setting where you feel comfortable.

New Hope

know I can get a bit obsessive,
I know it’s wrong baby don’t mention, something about you makes me wanna go run around, til I
find a place in your heart and if it don’t happen I won’t be alarmed
but I hope u notice that I’m giving up
if it’s hopeless, just let me go

out with u just to prove u wrong
out with u just to prove u wrong

Hopeless

Violence is about a weird feeling I get of being so bored and stuck in routine that you sort of, want something to happen?
like you're sitting there begging for something crazy to happen, negative or positive
most of the time the perspective is negative, maybe forcing arguments or confrontations just for the sake of it?
it's a strange "call of the void" feeling I get from time to time and I thought it would be nice to talk about!

LYRICS

Dispense your disbelief
Guess I'm begging for violence
Hold my breath inbetween

I watched the leaves change in your home town
It's so far from me now

I'm so sick of haunting myself
from the 2nd story window

Guess I'm begging for violence
hold my breath inbetween
guess i'm begging for violence

Did you sleep all day again?
I don't remember being seventeen

well I don't remember being seventeen

(The swindle is insane, the swindle is insane!
wait, oh no no no no do not accept that!
let's go!)

I Don't Know How To Explain To You That You Should Care About Other People

Violence

loneliness and trying to dig myself deeper into it; unhealthy

Emani’s amazing oh
and I’d give her the world
If she want anything, she can call me
If she want anything, she can call me

Before I woke up, you were in my dream
I was in the forest, I was standing by a creek 
And I was really nervous til I heard you speak 
You were standing just a couple feet from me

When the leaves fall down, it just be looking like magic
I’m feeling fixed now, no inspector gadget
it’s like I feel the ground when you’re around
I’d rather leave in silence if you’re my only sound 

Emani’s amazing oh
and I’d give her the world
If she want anything, she can call me
If she want anything, she can call me

emani

New Hope, Chapter I - The Great Divide

I ran home cuz I thought I was fired
And man all these joints are tired
And I said “wait” I was waiting for a serenade
Tell me everything about your damn day
Lay me out front if you threw a grenade
So why?
Do I seem distracted to you?
It’s beautiful to lay awake in my eyes

So watch it all be enough for you to take in
Watch it all be enough for you to let in
I tried to face the great divide
It only tired me out

Date of recording (11.6.23)

The Great Divide

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New Hope, Chapter VI - Hush

Date of recording (1.9.24)

Hush

New Hope, Chapter XIX - waveswept
Recorded 5.22.24

waveswept

New Hope, Chapter VIII - what do you need from me?
Recorded 2.13.24

what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me? (yeah I feel like)
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need? 
(yeah)

what do you need from me?

New Hope, Chapter VII - honest
Recorded 2.1.24

oh, don't let em take my breath away again
oh, I'll live forever if I could, if I could
death only matters anyway 
if you have someone to share it with
promise I won't put you on a pedestal
I'll only love you forever
and the sun's getting hotter, oh
but my hope's getting bright
one day we'll have a baby, my love 
one day we'll have a baby
in each other's arms, I love you still
oh, I could look at those brown eyes forever, and see you still

only I know how to love forever
if I could love you still
and only my friends could catch a glipse of the spark
only from the start
read your funny books
and tell me everything inside them
read your funny books
and tell me fuckin' everything

i know the music ain't perfect yet anyway
what the fuck does that even mean?
i'm recording into a focusrite
to tell you i'll love forever

baby I had a dream that you and I were in a library

-st

hmm? (do it anyways)

honest

New Hope, Chapter V - running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
Recorded 12.13.23

no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt
running through the park
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin home
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
yeah
home
what is this?
what is this?
(runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin)
about me
about me
about me
cause i'm running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
oh i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin through the park
yea im runnin home
runnin through the park yea i'm runnin home

running through the park, yea im runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin

New Hope, Chapter II - Red Spell

spells, we were talking bout spells
oh well, we were talking bout spells
hell, don't talk about hell
oh well, we were talking bout hell

now I see the difference don't you need me to rest
I swear my intuition tells me nothin' but the best
oh I need a good c---
so take your intuition, get your fuckin' inhibition out your mind
I don't need nobody here to see me whine
I'm crying, don't you see that I was only so depressed cause the best of the people that I had in my mind
oh why?

baby this is full regeneration, not the way I ride
I'm swimmin' no regrets and babe I only see the sky
I'm wonderin' bout the
woah, nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah standin' in the way

~

New Hope, Chapter III - Blue Spell

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
still waiting for the day to come when you say no
yeah

~

New Hope, Chapter IV - Green Spell

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"

fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
I'm still waiting for the day that you say you can let me go
I don't wait for the ways that you say "you can let me know"

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

subliminal the way that you would let me go
and the radio is running the show
I care for you I do, I do
but I only have so much for you
and I can't use all my spells


Recorded 11.7.23

waveswept

patchymate

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