New Hope is 20 chronologically ordered recordings from the months of November 2023 - June 2024. Made with two microphones and a focusrite, the raw records play with room feedback and tape speed to reflect the sound of grieving while falling in love. Runtime is 90 minutes and gapless playback is recommended in a setting where you feel comfortable.

New Hope

did it again

i hate when soundcloud lowers the quality
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ETERNAL

New Hope, Chapter I - The Great Divide

I ran home cuz I thought I was fired
And man all these joints are tired
And I said “wait” I was waiting for a serenade
Tell me everything about your damn day
Lay me out front if you threw a grenade
So why?
Do I seem distracted to you?
It’s beautiful to lay awake in my eyes

So watch it all be enough for you to take in
Watch it all be enough for you to let in
I tried to face the great divide
It only tired me out

Date of recording (11.6.23)

The Great Divide

prod @zzjay
cover art by @camdenn + @zzoos

@qxi + @zzoos +@kinsleygrey

@qxi
felt it in my heart
felt it in my head
felt it in my heart
now i want you dead
you wont tear us apart 
cant hear what u said
feel my heartbeat in my arm
im crashing out again

it aint over
yet
is it over
is it over
can you tell me if its over

@zzoos
im in the wrong place
i cant think straight
i cant walk away
can u tell how i feel lookin at my face
i kno u dont feel the same
its better off this way
cut n bruised all over again
i cant never switch bitch im w my bros till the end
i cant fold
i cant forget and i never let it go
im used to it
n im always on my own

@kinsleygrey
wake up, it’s a new day
it's the same shit, copy paste
it’s the same fakes, in my space
i’ve been wasting, day after day
and i'm losing my composure
heart beating fast, i’m not sober
everything we had, damn it’s over
lying to my face, do i really know you?
i just need some closure

@qxi
felt it in my heart
felt it in my head
felt it in my heart
now i want you dead
you wont tear us apart 
cant hear what u said
feel my heartbeat in my arm
im crashing out again

heartbeat prod zjay

Hi guys high school music club produces another track with friends but we didnt put vocals on

Giant Realistic Flying Tiger pops 2 ashwagandha

i gyastt school in the morning but fuck shool

1:38 Am

Made in 2023 - never finished - never will finish

Insomnia (demo)

New Hope, Chapter VI - Hush

Date of recording (1.9.24)

Hush

New Hope, Chapter XIX - waveswept
Recorded 5.22.24

waveswept

New Hope, Chapter VII - honest
Recorded 2.1.24

oh, don't let em take my breath away again
oh, I'll live forever if I could, if I could
death only matters anyway 
if you have someone to share it with
promise I won't put you on a pedestal
I'll only love you forever
and the sun's getting hotter, oh
but my hope's getting bright
one day we'll have a baby, my love 
one day we'll have a baby
in each other's arms, I love you still
oh, I could look at those brown eyes forever, and see you still

only I know how to love forever
if I could love you still
and only my friends could catch a glipse of the spark
only from the start
read your funny books
and tell me everything inside them
read your funny books
and tell me fuckin' everything

i know the music ain't perfect yet anyway
what the fuck does that even mean?
i'm recording into a focusrite
to tell you i'll love forever

baby I had a dream that you and I were in a library

-st

hmm? (do it anyways)

honest

New Hope, Chapter V - running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
Recorded 12.13.23

no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt
running through the park
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin home
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
yeah
home
what is this?
what is this?
(runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin)
about me
about me
about me
cause i'm running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
oh i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin through the park
yea im runnin home
runnin through the park yea i'm runnin home

running through the park, yea im runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin

New Hope, Chapter II - Red Spell

spells, we were talking bout spells
oh well, we were talking bout spells
hell, don't talk about hell
oh well, we were talking bout hell

now I see the difference don't you need me to rest
I swear my intuition tells me nothin' but the best
oh I need a good c---
so take your intuition, get your fuckin' inhibition out your mind
I don't need nobody here to see me whine
I'm crying, don't you see that I was only so depressed cause the best of the people that I had in my mind
oh why?

baby this is full regeneration, not the way I ride
I'm swimmin' no regrets and babe I only see the sky
I'm wonderin' bout the
woah, nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah standin' in the way

~

New Hope, Chapter III - Blue Spell

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
still waiting for the day to come when you say no
yeah

~

New Hope, Chapter IV - Green Spell

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"

fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
I'm still waiting for the day that you say you can let me go
I don't wait for the ways that you say "you can let me know"

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

subliminal the way that you would let me go
and the radio is running the show
I care for you I do, I do
but I only have so much for you
and I can't use all my spells


Recorded 11.7.23

Three Spells (Red Spell, Blue Spell, Green Spell)

Another ambient and electronic experiment with the Teenage Engineering OP-XY. Great device!

Timeless

re-edit of my remix of CITYSPROBLEM - Through Time xxx ambient drumless slowedddd

through time (𝓽𝓪𝓴𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝓫𝓪𝓬𝓴 𝓾𝓷𝓻𝓮𝓺𝓾𝓲𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓻𝓮-𝓮𝓭𝓲𝓽)

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