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featuring @xona
produced by heylog & xona

lyrics:
(heylog)
in the winter my hair turns dark and the tips curl
when can i learn how to meet a girl
hurry back need to defend the available angles
i swear i've made contact with monsters and angels
in the winter my skin dry's after a shower
don't care for the sun but i love all the flowers 
you missed my call now she thinks she has the power
do what you want just know that you are a coward
oh hi, 
didn't see u waving by
its not like ur wasting my time
finding out what its like
to be the light
cause you
um
don't know where i'm coming from
your life's only just begun
i can show you what its like
to feel numb

(xona)
cause I hate when i'm alone 
I’ve witnessed what she honed
it burns me through my core 
so tell me what’s-
and I don’t wanna waste my time
see a blur of image that I like
seeing nothing but girl who tries to lie
and you wish that I’ll fall again 
just to show your other friends
but I know I’m adamant, toxic is your finest edge
day by day it’s on myself
feeling weaker on my guilt 
told no one I needed help 
It’s on myself

(heylog)
need to get my life together climbing up steep hills
enjoying the sunset under the windmills
i cannot stand here nor can i sit still
i'm not on anything nor do i take pills

(heylog & xona)
i'm done with everything nor do i even care
do you want attention?
laugh all u want i'm just tryna be nice here
and i don't know why
i think i'm normal, maybe a little weird
do you think i'm here? maybe something's not clear
i got my morals, tryna meet my peers
don't need a sign on why i need you right?

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animus ft. xona

produced by: @freveltrothy
happy halloween (even though by the time I drop this it'll probably be like fuckin 2037)

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in 

so i cry
till my eyes swell up
and i can’t fall asleep 
think i’m too fucked up
room spinning think i’m gonna throw up
and i guess im old news 
your new man look tough 

i wanna bleach my eyes but im way too scared
so i just stare at the sun 
wanna close myself
cus you were never there
at least you’re having fun

i don’t know why i’m like this 
how the fuck could i take another man from his family? 
so i go and wash the knife quick,
think i went overboard 
violence charge my battery 
no point tryna fight this,
know i’m gonna go to jail
insane
yeah i had to be 
when i cut him, kinda liked it 
need to go home now
hope my moms not mad at me 

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in

killer (frevel)

Self prod :) 

LYRICS 

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Break me take me leave a little more for me desire
Cannot tempt the fate of one that meddles with his heart
Iron melts like gold and I cant stand it when you're hot
Leave me on the phone for like hours til you're gone
I don't want this love I wanna break into your heart
Clearly nothings there all your empathy is gone
Maybe you're just scared and all this time im wrong
I don't really care I just wanna see you gone

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Throwing nothing but stones
Oh why she tell me that she love me
When she hate me the most
I get im ugly I can't handle 10 degrees in the cold
thats why im always at home
Leave you with the best time that I ever had
Wish I had the best life that I ever had
Tripping in the next life what we never had
I don't really care I just wanna see you gone

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

THIS TOWN SHOULD BURN IN FIRE

i'm not gonna bother you ever again

@heylog

heylog - repeat (nevrfall remix)

prod @jakkyboi
guitar @rjpasin  
mix/master @youngburial

URDEAD2ME w/ jakkyboi

and i can’t do this by the book
they tried to bring me down but i just left them shook 
i’ve gotten my respect, but i’m still overlooked

how can i catch a fall from grace?
i know i can’t predict the change
why could i channel only hate?
what will i gain from my mistake?

like everybody else i’m only tryna make the rent 
and i can’t even imagine all of the money that i spent
all the moments i’m spending stuck in one place like i’m cement 

when my confidence had bested me
i’m what you want but you’re not what i need
put any other organ on my sleeve

when my confidence had bested me
i’m what you want but you’re not what i need
put any other organ on my sleeve

how can i catch a fall from grace?
i know i can’t predict the change
why could i channel only hate?
what will i gain from my mistake?

and i can’t do this by the book
they tried to bring me down but i just left them shook 
i’ve gotten my respect, but i’m still overlooked

ORGANS

storm

wicked thoughts 

wicked memories

you make me mad you make me someone else

entirely

where is all the big shit poppin

lyin for the content

dyin for the validation

you could never stop it

im already off it

i don't need to promise

you already know how the fuck i feel about it

what is there to talk about?

what is there to talk about?

yeah i'm bout this money shit
yeah i'm bout my fuckin chips

yeah i'm tryna dominate the world and im close to it

yeah im tryna dominate you boys like a fuckin kink

yeah i'm tryna tap you till ur purple like a fuckin link

no we cant fuckin link

i dont wanna see you like you don't exist

acting like i dont exist will turn into an issue quick

swear to god i'm booted up like enzo no computer shit

hot on the internet but freezing in reality

surrounded by your lawyers fuck em too it's how it ought to be

toronto winter comin shit it's snowing ash already

talk to me in comments never got on wax no tryin me

the only one who tried quit his whole career im glad to see it go

fuckin with the goat dawg honestly

i made more enemies than friends here 

got no fear in my heart it's written on my
chest here

say it with my chest cuz they won't dare to speak clear

swainesworld forever

bout it

9TAILS - disgraced (prod. beatz era)

Lyrics:
You're happier with anyone but me
Thats how you make it seem
I wish you wanted me 
dont tell me that its true
Cus i cant convince you to stay 
and i cant convince you to want me
so maybe ill push you away
its oh so lonely in the city at this time of year
why cant you take the next flight
the next flight over here

and im just a note in your song 
move me around as you please
and im just some words on your page
that everyone hears but they dont see
i let you play me so easily
i though that you felt the same
youre trying to let me down easy
but i cant get you out of my head

feel the same 

feel the same



push you away

prod by stezzyxl and xav0id 
goodbye 

lyrics:
i need some space
i need a breather 
u wanna break?
i cant believe her
u wanna go?
it dosent make any sense
u were my home
and now u made a mess

take a second to relax 
take a second just for me
i dont
feel alright when i dont fit ur degree
u can
talk all u want
acting like ill never see
all u want
all u want
it wont bother me
take a second to relax 
take a second just for me
i dont
feel alright when nothing feels as what i seems
u can
laugh all u want
acting like ill never see
all u want
all u want
it wont bother me

im 1 step closer to rewind time
and i pray to god just to clear my mind
and i stood up straight, and i left behind
the only girl that caught my eyes

i saw myself
within ur eyes
oh my my
oh my my

xav0id -
take me too
the place u stay
oh i want you
to call my name 
take me too
the place u stay
oh i want you
to call my name 

xav0id -
the love I have for u
its why I need you gone
it'll never be the same
you've become my bane
im sorry for the pain
but this is what u've made
 
Just forget about me
its better that I'm gone
i still wish this didn't end
must I let u go
i can't get over u
heartache's all that remains

our final goodbye w/ xav0id

I don't want
I don't want
I don't want anything but you
Time goes on
I know what it is that I don't want
It's anything but you
Anything but you
And all I ever ask is you better see it through
Whatever we would do
Your all I ever had and you never even knew

It seems so simple
High
Above the temple we love
Your arms they reach out mine
While I sink deeper in mud
You're like the apple in sight
That kind that Eve couldn't run
I might stay in for the night
But I can't leave you for long

I don't want
I don't want
I don't want anything but you
Time goes on
I know what it is that I don't want
It's anything but you
Anything but you
And all I ever ask is you better see it through
Whatever we would do
Your all I ever had and you never even knew

You're all that I want and you're all that I need
The image of you is like a movie to me
Most people purchase a ticket go on they way
But you're something special I had to meet you some day
Wait
Wait
Wait
Got my heart breaking every time you're not around me
Wait
Wait
Wait
If this is what love is you got me falling for you

I don't want
I don't want
I don't want anything but you
Time goes on
I know what it is that I don't want
It's anything but you
Anything but you
And all I ever ask is you better see it through
Whatever we would do
Your all I ever had and you never even knew

saffron feat. Spaceman Zack

this EP is mainly about the darkest thought someone can have in the back of their head and how much of a desperate attempt they'll do to feel "love" / it depicts how someone's thoughts can get if they don't get what they want / in this case it's some sort of affection or love that they wanna feel.

soul bound

lontalius ~ sleep thru ur alarms [cover]

Lyrics:

Many things make the man that you see today 
Living room raves, deep seeded rage 
Silence never says what i need to say 
Now I speak out and get put in chains
Music is my bitch I just wish she made me feel better than she does 
As the memories fade 
I reminded by the screams of my previous song 
Calling you telling you I’m in my grave 
And that I’m sorry baby I did wrong 
Now I’ve us trapped in with lyrics I admit I might of said too much 
But I can’t keep shut I’ve bled too much 
Crying in my bedroom where you said you were done
I’ve become everything I said I’d never become 
Get ready to run cause baby I’ve been away with the stars
Never Present in the moment always away in my thoughts
No one knows what how dark it is here

melancholy (prod. truth)

If I died you wouldn't know
always see me smiling so
I don't blame you, it's my fault
my life is moving so slow

message me and I'll pretend that I am out of range
call me on my phone yea, nothing's gonna change
laying on my own is something I am getting used to
I would love to talk about it but don't want to bother you

On the inside I am falling apart
Ain't feeling no more, you can take away my heart
I am over the pain, I am fed up with lies
Imma take em again, maybe 3rd time's a charm
x2

I am not okay, I am not okay
yea
And I hate the way, I just hate the way
I am
I can't get it out, I can't get it out
of me
Imma hide my face, hide away the pain
til the end of me

my heart has stopped beating
because of the coldness
that I spread around me
and I haven't died yet

but my feelings did
time is frozen in place
everyday is the same
nothing has changed

and even tho i'm not okay
still you don't hear me cry every other day
maybe someday I'll open up
so at the moment i'm not givin up

On the inside I am falling apart
Ain't feeling no more, you can take away my heart
I am over the pain, I am fed up with lies
Imma take em again, maybe 3rd time's a charm
x2

I am not okay, I am not okay
yea
And I hate the way, I just hate the way
I am
I can't get it out, I can't get it out
of me
Imma hide my face, hide away the pain
til the end of me
x2

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i'm not okay pt. 2

Did a fun little remix to Charli XCX's beautiful new track, "forever"!
Hope you enjoy!

Charli XCX - Forever (Glitch Gum Remix)

say that we good really wish that you would yeah that shit really mess with my head...

Pretty Blue Eyes (feat. Vallin) [prod. TunnaBeatz]

prod me :D

i hold myself down
i cant rlly wrap my head 
around whats goin down :<
i found u passed out on tha ground
i have no plans to leave right now

*bleach03*

i hold myself down
i cant rlly wrap my head 
around whats goin down :<
i found u passed out on tha ground
i have no plans to leave right now
why cant u trust me without out doubt

lets just admit it weve grown apart
the feelings we have are spread to far apart

think that ur lying to me as of recently
dont think you understand what you meant to me
i gave up my friends just to spend some fuckin time w you
id give away everything i have to make it up to you

green eyes blue hair i could never forget you
why you gotta leave me baby girl what did i do to you
im sorry i never was enough :<
im sorry that i never held you close when u needed me

.. ill nevr get her back...

i hold myself down
i cant rlly wrap my head 
around whats goin down :<
i found u passed out on tha ground
i have no plans to leave right now
why cant u trust me without out doubt

doubt

guitars were done by SADisfying & heylog

lyrics:
and i try to run from u but i end up right back where i begin
her waist is skinny young face may i borrow u just for one sec
and there's this place we'll stay where the fire burns, it's nice and quiet
ill be by your side i swear take care of u until i end
i'm in the mud cut up god forgive me for i have sinned
i pull out the nails and heal i guess that's what i get
and i'm pullin out my hair and i'm still learning how to control it
but i'm still doubting me to this day i'm really tryna fix it
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon

i write this song i'm scared to death no one will even like it
and i dump my thoughts to the world i'll probably regret this
and i can't sleep if ur rent free in and out of my head
so basically i'm starting to think i'll be like this for infinite
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon
and you're halfway across the world i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess and my hairs a nest and im too ashamed to look
and i fell for u and i recommend that u fall for me too
and u left me but i left u first i hope we'll meet again soon

there's this place we'll stay

A chain is only as strong as its weakest link.  

Everything beyond me is a chain.

I will bend all material to my Storm.    

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