Love the music man. It's rough out here but I really enjoy what you do and hope you keep making music.

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prod deadfish 
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featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/heylog
socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

lyrics:

(I've kept on fucking up
and that's why
I can't keep it up
But now
I'm left here with no one
I gotta manage here on my own)

it's been so cold now
that I've been on my own now
I never want to wake up
these thought in my mind forever

No, I don't wanna hang out now
cause, too busy hating on myself
Just digging my grave deeper
til I meet the reaper
death to me is peace

I hate myself, all my cuts to prove that
I need a break, isolate from all of that
damn, it causes my mind to break
can you say that you relate?

So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

[heylog]
you don't know
how much u mean to me
i stumble up on my feet
text u and never sleep
i'm happy, this can't be me
cut
me
off
write a song about us
oh numb
i'm hoping ur gone
u caught me a break
recover from loss
but still feel the same

[deadfish]
So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

on my own

on my own (feat. heylog)

prod hiraeth


u gotta stop getting invested
lash out swing my fist where his neck is
swear you wish that i was somebody impressive
chase him cause hes not intrested

no one knows what i been going thru
live or die its getting hard to choose
fucked up, fucked up
fix ur attitude
no love, just sex
he got it outta you

just let me know love 
i’m leaving home 
don’t pretend you know me 
you simply don’t 

i’m so far away from what we built 
i lost composure 
i lost my will 

i always try to be the bigger man
when it’s all in my head and i’m 
tryna be the best i can 
please don’t say a word 
you wouldn’t know what to say 
we’re both on separate roads
waiting for our love to fade 

waiting for our love to fade
nobody said it'd be easy
i hope im on my way
to what im searching for

push me outta line
im sick of feeling helpless
i tried to reason
why tf you being selfish
please let go of me
remove the scars from my neck
swear its blasphemy
shes fucking done it again
i dont know if you care now
are you proud, i cut my hair down
fucked up fucked up fix ur attitude
no love just sex
he got it outta you

hard to feel like i was needed in the first place 
please dont look at me i swear im such a disgrace
im tired of my own face
(hira)
JUST LEAVE ME HERE TO DIE 
(I CANT SAVE MY STATE OF MIND)
IM RUNNING OUT OF TIME 
(NO CONSCIENCE LEFT TO FIND)
ILL GO AND WASTE MY LIFE 
(ANOTHER ENDLESS NIGHT)
IM JUST TOO SCARED TO TRY 
HEAVEN AINT TOO FAR AWAY

disgrace ft. sinxi

prod. me
(capsctrl on acoustic guitar)
<3

lyrics:
what was it like to fall in love with me?
asleep in the morning, awake in the night
i'll take it all, i'll face it all, im in deep.
no saving me now.

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

take your time, take your time
save your breath
its all a lie, all a lie, its a test
waking up, waking up all over again
waste of lungs, wasted lungs i am.

if youd listened to me who knows what we could be
(stop it now its dark in here)
so tied up on things that we didnt even mean
(stop it now i've had enough)
said you know me the best but you dont know me at all
i was depressed and didnt bother to call out to you
so much changed so fast but im right here
please dont give up

what is it like to fall out of love with me?
i feel so annoyed and, i dont know why
i took it all, i faced it all, i was in deep
dont start from the beginning just end it

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

who i was

spotify

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Looking half a mile away to see you face the wall
everytime u look at me my feelings burn 
all the things u wanted and I failed them all
Everytime u Talk to me my stomach burns

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Blood creeping out my window to my yard
All this involvement don’t know who u are 
All this water leaves, falls down where u are 
I don’t seem restless just going too far 
I’ve got no fuel left, you’ve drained all that I have 
Oh I’m anxious as shit, u should look at my arm
Cause I’ve torn it to pieces 
No pieces left
Just a pot that you piss in, now torn to shreds 

this feeling eats me alive guess i messed up my life
i try just to hide that way cant be right
well im just tired, everything is tiring
i stay up all night next day i sleep all the time
dont know what to say so i better stay silent
in my head im with you in fields full of violets

Walk myself to the pier this is life for me 
Pull myself up the wall u can’t carry me 
All this water gets colder crashes into me 
These feelings that I get I must have to leave

pier ft. melon

lyrics//

iv been talking to god
iv been doing my part like you told me

was it always so hard
i know you think you were always controlling
but it was never thay part
i saw a light and it killed me slowly
and now im packing my car
i made you think
you dont even know me


i was lost in the fallout
you pushed me down as i climbed out
or tried to
ivy league to the dog house
wonder what they would say
if they got to?

now my comforters stained out
took it all to the grave like i told you
was i always a let down?
was i always a person that you once knew?

fallout [idly blare]

blame

i can’t forget what we’re missing here
i can’t forget about it
hate how they listen in
and i can’t stop it cos
it’s all for the benefit
they made us powerless
a slave to the cause
and there’s simply no alternative

i can’t fight
i’m just too low
make this stop
god if you knew
how i feel
when u ain’t here with me
time stands still
now that you’re into me

i can’t forget what we’re missing here
i can’t forget about it
hate how they listen in
and i can’t stop it cos
it’s all for the benefit
they made us powerless
a slave to the cause
and there’s simply no alternative

i can’t fight
i’m just too low
make this stop
god if you knew
how i feel
when u ain’t here with me
time stands still
now that you’re into me

i ain’t scared cos life finds a way
you don’t mind that i’ll never wait
for what we never wanted anyway
cos i don’t know why i’d bother wasting my time

u could live forever if u wanted to
i didn’t wanna say it but im wanting it too
i could let them take me if u want that
just say if u want that

fight

hold down
Send
More in
Hold out

This is more than a look that I have 
Send men they’re breaking bad 
So sad you’ve done this before
Head down the aisle 12 bore
In hand I’m ready to fight 
He’s not so keen, don’t look right 

Maybe I’d be better alone
So I don’t intrude
Stare at my phone, cause I need you
Hold me like the worlds on my back
I’m counting curls in your hair
And pray to god that it lasts 

I Don’t have to count no sheep
I just look into your eyes
One moment, fast asleep
I’m tryna stay up all night

Maybe this rain is too heavy 
For us to lay in it 
But we’ll sit out on the porch 
Covered in acid and mould 
Maybe my life wasn’t wasted
Now that you’re a part of it
I’ve never done this before
Everything I touch starts to fall 

(Covered in acid and mould)

This is more than a look that I have 
Send men they’re breaking bad 
So sad you’ve done this before
Head down the aisle 12 bore
In hand I’m ready to fight 
He’s not so keen, don’t look right 

I hate this world so much
I feel my body closing in
Though when I conversate with you, I start to feel complete again

Rushing out to tell him that I’ve found a friend
And though I can’t get a reply i know he thinks you’re the best

bore

storm

wicked thoughts 

wicked memories

you make me mad you make me someone else

entirely

where is all the big shit poppin

lyin for the content

dyin for the validation

you could never stop it

im already off it

i don't need to promise

you already know how the fuck i feel about it

what is there to talk about?

what is there to talk about?

yeah i'm bout this money shit
yeah i'm bout my fuckin chips

yeah i'm tryna dominate the world and im close to it

yeah im tryna dominate you boys like a fuckin kink

yeah i'm tryna tap you till ur purple like a fuckin link

no we cant fuckin link

i dont wanna see you like you don't exist

acting like i dont exist will turn into an issue quick

swear to god i'm booted up like enzo no computer shit

hot on the internet but freezing in reality

surrounded by your lawyers fuck em too it's how it ought to be

toronto winter comin shit it's snowing ash already

talk to me in comments never got on wax no tryin me

the only one who tried quit his whole career im glad to see it go

fuckin with the goat dawg honestly

i made more enemies than friends here 

got no fear in my heart it's written on my
chest here

say it with my chest cuz they won't dare to speak clear

swainesworld forever

bout it

9TAILS - disgraced (prod. beatz era)

Lyrics:
You're happier with anyone but me
Thats how you make it seem
I wish you wanted me 
dont tell me that its true
Cus i cant convince you to stay 
and i cant convince you to want me
so maybe ill push you away
its oh so lonely in the city at this time of year
why cant you take the next flight
the next flight over here

and im just a note in your song 
move me around as you please
and im just some words on your page
that everyone hears but they dont see
i let you play me so easily
i though that you felt the same
youre trying to let me down easy
but i cant get you out of my head

feel the same 

feel the same



push you away

prod by stezzyxl and xav0id 
goodbye 

lyrics:
i need some space
i need a breather 
u wanna break?
i cant believe her
u wanna go?
it dosent make any sense
u were my home
and now u made a mess

take a second to relax 
take a second just for me
i dont
feel alright when i dont fit ur degree
u can
talk all u want
acting like ill never see
all u want
all u want
it wont bother me
take a second to relax 
take a second just for me
i dont
feel alright when nothing feels as what i seems
u can
laugh all u want
acting like ill never see
all u want
all u want
it wont bother me

im 1 step closer to rewind time
and i pray to god just to clear my mind
and i stood up straight, and i left behind
the only girl that caught my eyes

i saw myself
within ur eyes
oh my my
oh my my

xav0id -
take me too
the place u stay
oh i want you
to call my name 
take me too
the place u stay
oh i want you
to call my name 

xav0id -
the love I have for u
its why I need you gone
it'll never be the same
you've become my bane
im sorry for the pain
but this is what u've made
 
Just forget about me
its better that I'm gone
i still wish this didn't end
must I let u go
i can't get over u
heartache's all that remains

our final goodbye w/ xav0id

eden

[Verse 1]
Scrolling screens, painted skies,
Perfect masks, but they’re all lies.
Baby, you don’t need to hide,
You’re the truth that lights my life.

Every scar is a story told,
Every laugh worth more than gold.
I don’t want the polished game,
I just want the realest flame.

[Pre-Chorus]
You don’t need the cover, don’t need disguise,
I see forever when I look in your eyes.
Chemistry stronger than any song,
Show me the love where we belong.

[Chorus]
Show me your true beauty, filters are wrong,
I’ve loved the real you all along.
No edits, no shadows, no pretend,
You’re my beginning, you’re my end.
Show me your true beauty, let it shine on,
The light in your soul is where I’m drawn.
No need to hide, you’ve been strong,
Show me your true beauty, filters are wrong.

[Verse 2]
Every flaw is a masterpiece,
Every tear brings sweet release.
Baby, love is raw and wild,
Perfectly flawed, that’s our style.

You don’t need the world’s applause,
You’re already breaking every law.
Of what they say beauty’s supposed to be,
But baby, you’re truth, and you’re real to me.

[Pre-Chorus]
You don’t need the cover, don’t need disguise,
I see forever when I look in your eyes.
Chemistry blazing, second to none,
You’re the moon, the stars, the sun.

[Chorus]
Show me your true beauty, filters are wrong,
I’ve loved the real you all along.
No edits, no shadows, no pretend,
You’re my beginning, you’re my end.
Show me your true beauty, let it shine on,
The light in your soul is where I’m drawn.
No need to hide, you’ve been strong,
Show me your true beauty, filters are wrong.

[Bridge]
Drop the mask, baby, let it fade,
We’ll build love on the truth we’ve made.
The realest spark is the one that’s free,
And that’s the fire between you and me.

[Chorus]
Show me your true beauty, filters are wrong,
I’ve loved the real you all along.
No edits, no shadows, no pretend,
You’re my forever, not just a trend.
Show me your true beauty, let it shine on,
The light in your soul is where I’m drawn.
No need to hide, we both belong,
Show me your true beauty, filters are wrong.

[Outro]
Yeah, your true beauty all along,
Baby, filters are wrong.

Show Me Your True Beauty (Filters Are Wrong)

prod me :D

i hold myself down
i cant rlly wrap my head 
around whats goin down :<
i found u passed out on tha ground
i have no plans to leave right now

*bleach03*

i hold myself down
i cant rlly wrap my head 
around whats goin down :<
i found u passed out on tha ground
i have no plans to leave right now
why cant u trust me without out doubt

lets just admit it weve grown apart
the feelings we have are spread to far apart

think that ur lying to me as of recently
dont think you understand what you meant to me
i gave up my friends just to spend some fuckin time w you
id give away everything i have to make it up to you

green eyes blue hair i could never forget you
why you gotta leave me baby girl what did i do to you
im sorry i never was enough :<
im sorry that i never held you close when u needed me

.. ill nevr get her back...

i hold myself down
i cant rlly wrap my head 
around whats goin down :<
i found u passed out on tha ground
i have no plans to leave right now
why cant u trust me without out doubt

doubt

A chain is only as strong as its weakest link.  

Everything beyond me is a chain.

I will bend all material to my Storm.    

'Sin-Shi'

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