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Suicidal - Single

Suicidal

Suicidal (feat. Wav.Gang, VegasxCesar, Lil Red & The Big Hash)

About H3llywood Blvd 
My journey and career as an artist has given me the chance to travel to some of the places I’ve been dreaming of going to all my life. Funny that my trip to LA came at a time when I was in a very volatile state of mind, and didn’t really care about my life. Really I was just living one day at a time. The only thing that gave me some form of comfort was living for the thrill, finding situations, living unbound to any form of responsibility. I found myself lost in LA, and I mean mentally. Hollywood was one of the best places to be lost in… There are no angels and sin is permitted. A playground for any hedonist. I lost track of what was important to me, my vision and purpose was swayed by the constant temptation. I think back at that time and try take lessons from my actions so I can be more mentally prepared to battle myself when the time comes… 

Written by: PatricKxxLee
Produced by: PatricKxxLee
Mixed & Mastered by: PatricKxxLee

LYRICS
[Intro] H3llywood Boulevard / H3llywood Boulevard / H3llywood Boulevard

[Verse 1] No guilt, mind killed, blood spilled in / H3llywood Boulevard / Make a mill, no skill, still will in / H3llywood Boulevard / Can’t tell what’s real, no feels in / H3llywood Boulevard / Oh in H3llywood Boulevard / H3llywood Boulevard / What did I do last night in / H3llywood Boulevard / Can’t tell my wrongs from rights in / H3llywood Boulevard / Getting fucked up all damn night in / H3llywood Boulevard / Might lose my soul tonight in / H3llywood Boulevard

[Verse 2] Straight from the World Wide Web / World wide wasted / Inside my head / Heart still pacing / My life move fast / And I’m still shit faced and my iPhones cracked / Fuck, / Feel so alone, I do / Not wanna feel so alone, I flew / Out to be here all alone, ayt cool / I come alive in the night time too / I been around but it felt so different, / Sin all around and the angels missing, / Right in my ear where the snake stay whispering, I don’t wanna do this shit, feel different / And my mind gotta mind if its own / Take me to places I don’t wanna go / Hate that I love all the things that I know in the end will unfold me again in

[Chorus] H3llywood Boulevard / In H3llywood Boulevard / In H3llywood Boulevard / In H3llywood Boulevard / H3llywood Boulevard / In H3llywood Boulevard / In H3llywood Boulevard / In H3llywood Boulevard

[Outro] So sad but I’m alright in / H3llywood Boulevard / Got kicked out the crib last night in / H3llywood Boulevard / Talk slick, my guys might fight it / H3llywood Boulevard / In H3llywood Boulevard / In H3llywood Boulevard

Nowhere Child

H3llywood Blvd

About Can’t Tame Morgan 
This song is about how my habits combined with my favourite substance of choice spun my life into a completely chaotic playground. The constant feeling of wanting to numb my thoughts and regrets drove me into a crazy cycle... Sometimes there are sides to your personality that show themselves, and the more you try and suppress these feelings, the more they come out... and at some point you can’t tame yourself any longer.

Written by: PatricKxxLee
Produced by: PatricKxxLee
Mixed & Mastered by: J.Smallz/TinismDotc0m

LYRICS
[Verse 1] Slumped out on the couch I’m blacking out but I’m awake / So you already know I was rambling about what I can’t take / Thought that I was ideal but all the confidence was fake / I just drank to appeal, trying to be someone you could take / But it took all my feels and made me someone you would hate / Thought I could keep it real but all this Morgan I can’t tame / It’s been taking control, now I’m just mumbling again / Taking shot after shot / I’m out my mind I killed my brain / Born to die like Mr Meeseeks and I’m blue too / Suddenly we don’t connect like I’m an iPhone Bluetooth / Ten shots back we bonded now I’m a loose screw / Anyone can get it, unfortunately that means you too / Blaming everyone while I’m sitting atop my high horse / But the horse was high as my self-respect on a slow course / Journey down the bottle my GPS on a fast route / Now you look at me the same way we would look at that dude ––[Bridge] One two / Many times I’ve / Played my / Fucking life like / I can’t / Even recall / I’m trapped in a free fall

[Chorus] Run from the run or run to the gun / One shot two shot / Now we’re having fun / Three shot four shot / Now I want more / Double that
and double that I’m crawling on the floor / Captain Morgan I’m sailing on your ship / Drowning in myself thought I only took a dip / I can’t tame Morgan I’m off the fucking rip / I can’t tame Morgan I’m off the fucking rip

[Verse 2] One bottle down now I’m heading to the store / Asking myself how the fuck can I take more / My liver taking beatings like my dick when there’s no bitches / My temper overheating that mean someone can catch stitches / “Don’t go behind the wheel” is what the voice in my head would say / But I’m so under water I can’t even hear what it’s saying / I’m laughing I’m in a game / Two x’s between my name, if I’m not careful X’s over eyes on my picture frame / Oh wait I should grab my phone and drag somebody down with me / If you take this drink then whatever happens is 50/50 / Remember back when the only thing was the sticky icky / Now my lips stick to liquor, bring the Belvy and Henny Henny / My funds deplete but I leave notes around my apartment / An early morning give me 15 minutes till my departure / Barely alive but live enough for straight shots like an archer / I tour de bottle a cycle that never ends until I’m dead, my friend

[Bridge] One two / Many times I’ve / Played my / Fucking life like / I can’t / Even recall / I’m trapped in a free fall

[Chorus] Run from the run or run to the gun / One shot two shot / Now we’re having fun / Three shot four shot / Now I want more / Double that and double that I’m crawling on the floor / Captain Morgan I’m sailing on your ship / Drowning in myself thought I only took a dip / I can’t tame Morgan I’m off the fucking rip / I can’t tame Morgan I’m off the fucking rip

Can't Tame Morgan

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About Bermuda Triangle 
These are thoughts that were going through my head after checking myself into rehab for depression. It’s while in rehab that I wrote almost all of Nowhere Child. I had all the time in the world to figure myself out, and ever since then I somewhat understand parts of myself that I neglected to face. I realize where my anxiety and fears of love ultimately stem from. I came to the crossroads of having to decide whether I would carry on blaming my actions on my past or move on. I am indeed a product of my chaotic past, and my actions are a product of me, but essentially I should release myself from the ties that bind me to my past, as it shouldn’t define me and my future…maybe I should let that side of me be lost at sea… maybe in writing this I might have found the answer to my new beginning.

Written by: PatricKxxLee
Produced by: PatricKxxLee
Mixed & Mastered by: J.Smallz/TinismDotc0m

LYRICS
[Verse 1] I let you take over / I let you convince me I could not handle this sober / The demon that took my life with a knife to my throat but / I let you inside and lied to myself I ain’t stronger / Begging for help stupid as fuck / Damage I dealt, playing victim but who would have thought / Killing myself with a bottle, I couldn’t get enough / I let you win took my life I was begging for luck / I sold my soul for a good time / And with your assistance I could double up on six lines / Left my body shaking for the 6th time in two months / Couldn’t see it coming, I was too blind, you were too tough and / You could never catch me calling whose bluff this too much / Mind too blurry to even know what I’m running from / Glad you didn’t fall when I pushed you mom / I’m sorry mom / Maybe it’s because I feel so alone / Thought we were friends, hold my hand / You were just taking me closer to the edge / That’s not who I am, I feel so possessed by my fucking past / Begging all my friends for another chance, what about the last / Substance in my system I’m less depressed, I’m free at last / Then I sober up to the consequence of every act

[Chorus] What am I running from? / Escaping all my failures / I’m just so sorry Mom, I gotta see you later / What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off Patrick Lee / I’m trying to find myself but he’s just lost at sea, where could he be / What am I running from? / Escaping all my failures / I’m just so sorry Mom, I gotta see you later / What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off Patrick Lee / I’m trying to find myself but he’s just lost at sea, where could he be / Lost at sea where could you be / You can’t trust yourself, so trust me / No no no no / I gotta let go / No turning back / I’m off that boat / No no no no / I gotta let go / I gotta let go / No no no no no no / No no no no no

[Verse 2] You gotta kill the dark side to see light at the end / When life is short then why you waste this shit trying to pretend / See I don’t call him God but ask it for a hand it could lend / Carving the scars in my arm, wait for a sign to be sent / Mind in a straight jacket / Fuck it I hate asking / I’m traumatised I hate my eyes / And I can’t wait passive / Fuck a natural cause, if pain never knock at the door / He’s breaking in to leave you bloody all over the floor / Pressure between my ears / I live my life in fear / For inner peace and a release I’ll do eleven years / I’m fading through this life / And even though I wouldn’t change a single thing / I swear on mine I wouldn’t live it twice / Don’t need your pity, I’m in the pit with a “50” and me not pulling the trigger is me / Fighting off the inner demons / Just need a fucking reason / My mind committing treason / I am my enemy / I fight to keep breathing 

[Chorus] ...

Bermuda Triangle

About Idle Minds
You know how they say an idle mind is the devil’s playground? I’m constantly going through the motions because I love my solitude but the more time I spend on my own, the more idle my mind becomes and that’s when my worst habits show themselves. My consumption of substance goes hand in hand with my need for female company, never to really make a lasting connection, more just to pass the time and feed my ego. The reason I stay to myself is because I actually struggle to communicate with people I’m unfamiliar with, this might be a false belief... I guess I’m still figuring it out.

Written by: PatricKxxLee & J Molley
Produced by: PatricKxxLee
Mixed & Mastered by: J.Smallz/TinismDotc0m

LYRICS
[Chorus: PatricKxxLee] Idle minds / Oh how they love to play / I let you waste my time / For now I’ll let you stay / I guess she like it how I live / She just a name on a list / I get so fucked up then I forget / Why the fuck you came over here / I get out my mind when I’m alone / Then I fucking hate that I’m alone / Late night sleeping right beside the phone / Break of dawn tryna get you out my home ––

[Verse 1: PatricKxxLee] And I’m getting trapped by my every escape / I lay faded awake, but I’m lost inside / I hit her up to come take it away / Till I’m done, then I feel like I changed my mind / We sip an ocean, you talking and talking, / You think that I’m here, but I’m lost inside / Coz I don’t love you, I just wanna touch you / I keep it a 100, you caught the sign / All this coming to me / Reason that she choose me / But she thinks I can’t see / Now she wanna use me / Never wanna lose me / But I set her free / Heard it through the grape wine / Niggas wanna take mine / Paranoia my mind / Sipping help me stay fine / If they wanna take mine / They’re gonna have to take lives

[Chorus: PatricKxxLee] Idle minds / Oh how they love to play / I let you waste my time / For now I’ll let you stay / I guess she like it how I live / She just a name on a list / I get so fucked up then I forget / Why the fuck you came over here / I get out my mind when I’m alone / Then I fucking hate that I’m alone / Late night sleeping right beside the phone / Break of dawn tryna get you out my home

[Verse 2: PatricKxxLee] Now I can’t / Recall my actions / I hate to ask her but she love to answer / She is a no name and I’m not her master / She can leave now, and another come after / No it’s not you, I’m the source of the problem / Funny how you think that you can just solve ‘em / Time keep on going my feelings dissolving / Breaking the hearts of the girls I’m involved with
/ Can’t feel a thing when I’m trapped in the dirty / I’m off the pill I swear nothing can hurt me / Money get longer my pockets are scurry / Might lose it all when my vision get blurry / We in the sec with like ten bitches flirting / This is much better than tossing and turning / Ghost rider living my head is still burning / Same old mistakes like I don’t do no learning ––[Chorus: PatricKxxLee] Idle minds / Oh how they love to play / I let you waste my time / For now I’ll let you stay ––

[Verse 3: J Molley] Too many countless times sleepless nights counting sheep in my holy night / Fuck her hold her tight focus right I ain’t focused / I took a thousand for granted thinking there’s thousands more / Crowding round me like with crowns of thorns / It’s a lot to just take in / Get what you give, suicide in the making / I fucking hate them / This what you get when you try dance with Satan / I fucking hate them / If you see me jump off of a building then know that I caved in / You would think I’m Jesus / Sacrifice all my feelings to keep fighting all of these demons / Wait wait wait / I just wanna be the book they never pick up off the shelf / Can I run away / So nobody else can hate me but my own self / If we speak bout that one time it’s one time and only that don’t mean nothing / Nothing is free and when I’m doing nothing I’m still doing something

Idle Minds [feat. J Molley]

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About Poison 
This song is based on the events that took place right after getting back from the US. I had the opportunity to be on a huge artist’s tour and wasn’t just in the right mind state to do that... Honestly speaking, going on tour on my own was the last thing someone in my state should’ve been doing; I let myself go and my environment was any hedonist’s dream. That’s why this song is simply called “Poison”.

Written by: PatricKxxLee
Produced by: PatricKxxLee
Mixed & Mastered by: PatricKxxLee

LYRICS
[Intro] Popped a pill to feel real, what’s the deal / I been swerving on the wheel, if I kill will I feel / Drunk driving through the night / Don’t do pints, bust the white / You can see it in my eyes, now my mind’s in the sky

[Chorus] Bitch I’m poison, what’s your poison / Drowning out the noise and it’s my choice and / I don’t know my limit, do you feel it / Voices that I’m killing, I’m so willing

[Verse 1] Brought that coke no cola, in that Rover / I hate being sober, my bitch do nosedust / Penthouse we got big bucks, pick a whip brah / Rari, Jag like which one, I can’t pick yeah / I don’t talk to hoes / They love me, I already know / And if her man got problems bro, / We jump him just like Mario / My feelings still inside a coma / I can’t control ‘em / This Evil taking over / Leave me alone yuh / I just can’t O.D. / Touch my wood bitch, you should sit / Right on top of me, this some good shit / You should sip / Hoes all on my sofa / Hoes all over / Bang em, feel like Sosa / Then it’s over

[Chorus] Bitch I’m poison, what’s your poison / Drowning out the noise and it’s my choice and / I don’t know my limit, do you feel it / Voices that I’m killing, I’m so willing / Bitch I’m poison, what’s your poison / Drowning out the noise and it’s my choice and / I don’t know my limit, do you feel it / Voices that I’m killing, I’m so willing

Poison

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About Never Paradise 
Growing up, you think life gets better and better, and once you’re finally out of school, the grass will be at its greenest… The biggest lie I convinced myself of was that life was some paradise, but also I always had doubts that things really aren’t as they seem at all, and when you do your own research you’ll soon find that it was never paradise, and that you’re just a pawn in someone else’s ever so elaborate social experiment. That’s what I believe this life is, one big fucking social experiment. Trust me, a lot of things you do are really out of your control, the corny word to use would be “programming” but as soon as someone hears that word, they start to say things like “Conspiracy Theory”… what a great automatic response… almost like you’ve been prog… So take the power of your mind back into your own hands.

Written by: PatricKxxLee
Produced by: PatricKxxLee
Mixed & Mastered by: PatricKxxLee

LYRICS
[Verse 1] No fear in the heart of a sharp spirit / I’m leaving my art, clear / and believe in the heart / peer really deep in the ark / Safe from the war and beyond / Hate that was birthed from the start / Came from the skirt in the stars / Someone perverting the cause / You gotta follow the laws / Just to work for something that’s naturally already yours / Can’t take a second to pause / Thinking’s the cause of the war / Coz someone’s really scared of the shit you can do with your thoughts / Tryna connect all the dots, truly revealing the plot, spoiler alert, when you’re woke, really we pissing in pots / You gotta work till you drop / Then we’re erasing your mark / You can’t move forward in park / And don’t go to class if you’re smart / Can’t teach a bird how to fly / Cant teach a bird how to land / You can show man how to die / When you’re controlling the plan / One brain, two legs and two hands / Know what you could do with that? / Enjoy the illusion and stay asleep / Like you already have. 

[Chorus] Couple of lives left but not enough soul / Nothing ever seems to make me feel whole / All the burning trees but my heart still cold / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Lives left but not enough soul / Nothing ever seems to make me feel whole / All the burning trees but my heart still cold / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Never Paradise, Paradise no more 

[Verse 2] So I took the L and turned it to a 7 / Living in the 5th, I switch between hell and heaven / Curse my fucking genes, hear my screams in the distance / Funny you can tell my past from a fucking piss test / What have I become, I don’t recognise my own reflection / I can tell you all about self-deception / Sick of all the lies they televise, mind-fucking your perception / Sell us demons in a store / Like they possessing your perspective / I’m a fucking living martyr, dead inside for you learn from / Don’t make my mistakes, but use the chemicals to burn something / See the snakes, play for keeps and see what you can take, be the beast they hate / This game is chess, you better check your mates / In a place where, you get thrown when evil plans succeeded / Cause they want you dead but if not they’re fine to see you bleeding / And I wonder why suicide hides behind the human eye / Cause death’s the only thing separating you and I 

[Chorus] Couple of lives left but not enough soul / Nothing ever seems to make me feel whole / All the burning trees but my heart still cold / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Lives left but not enough soul / Nothing ever seems to make me feel whole / All the burning trees but my heart still cold / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Never Paradise, Paradise no more / Never Paradise, Paradise no more

Never Paradise

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About Cliff or Hang 
With all that I’ve been through this year, it has brought me to a bit of a cliffhanger in my life. Like yeah, I did all the soul searching and reflecting to kind of figure myself out and why I feel I have so many mental barriers and obstacles - but it’s like combining all that I’ve found out with my environment just leaves me at a paradox: How does a person with such bad anxiety deal with all the attention, the feeling of always having to look like I have it all figured out when at the end I still feel as lost as before? The same things I use to cope are the same things that leave me emotionally drained and depressed but they will always be around me in this industry. I want to be the greatest artist to have ever lived, but I’m stuck with this feeling that the fame might just be the death of my psyche… All in all, these are things that will forever be a learning curve for me… I try not to beat myself up over some of my actions and mostly my regrets. I think the title of the song might make more sense now, but really and truly it’s what you make of it. I’m glad you made it to the end of this project, it’s truly been a journey getting to this point in my life. I’m glad I’ll always have you to share it with, and who knows where we go from here?

Written by: PatricKxxLee
Produced by: PatricKxxLee
Mixed & Mastered by: PatricKxxLee

LYRICS
[Bridge] Too many loose ends / That still wanna pretend / Can’t take back what I said / And I don’t have defense / You know ‘bout my story / And every day is a weekend / Don’t know what you’re looking for when you dive in the deep end / Don’t know what you’re looking for when you dive in the deep end / Don’t know what you’re looking for when you dive in the deep… / Don’t know what you’re looking for when you dive in the deep end / Don’t know what you’re looking for when you dive in the, dive in the… / Too many loose ends / That still wanna pretend // Can’t take back what I said / And I don’t have defense / You know bout my story / And every day is a weekend / Don’t know what you’re looking for when you dive in the deep end

[Chorus] Took some time out / To figure life out / These regrets that I count / The things that I’ve found / Hollow my heart / Flaming my crown / Nothing testing me now / This the ninth round / I could never ever be your one / I been more concerned with having fun / I could never ever be your one / I been over love I’m having fun / I could never ever be your one / I been more concerned with having fun / I could never ever be your one / I been over love I’m having fun

Bermuda Triangle

PatricKxxLee

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