bedroom skramz :3

expectations are set too high
(god, my arm)
i can't erase it
(seems just like we've ran out of time)
yeah, the damage wears off
can't i pull ur skull into mine?
all of you expect more from me and that's nothing close to what i wanna be now
might as well just lay down and die
veins, still sterile
(painted white, white)
the conscience is no longer there
just dissolve my brain x

(sample is from flcl)

haruhara haruko

run in with my damaged sense of self worth
my head is crawling with spiders
pick up the leaves and put them in my mouth
nothing else for you to know, that's just me

coffee stains

im happy! you didn't see that coming!
i know it might seem like a lie
im screaming in my room with all the lights off but i don't wanna die yeah i don't wanna die
i felt your cold hands and i just wanna warm them up
with my washed out grey sweater with some ripped up holes at the top

im dancing in my closet if u wanna join me x2

i cried last night thinking about how we're gonna move away from each other 2 years from now
do u remember when i kissed u in the park?
you said u wanna do it again
well i do too

im dancing in my closet if u wanna join me x2

(superbad sample)

bedroomluvr

ispentsixhourswatchingshockvideosyesterday - it’s not peer pressure, it’s just your turn

youre gonna carry that weight - poorly wrote suicide note

Here is my first ever piece for Brass Quartet, 'Hymns and Things for the End of the World (Part 20 1/2)', written for 'Exit Brass' and featured on their new album 'The Arrival'.

In nine sections that run continuously, the music explores stories from around the internet that I found towards the end of 2012 relating to the coming end of the world.

Four stunningly talented players playing all new music by some of the brass band movements leading composers - you can purchase the album from:

info@exitbrass.com

ENJOY!!

Hymns And Things For The End Of The World (Part 20 1/2)

I began playing the Tuba aged 13 at Beanfield Comprehensive School in Corby, Northamptonshire.  Like millions before, I practised, I got better and I joined other ensembles..... I've been lucky enough to play at all the major brass band contests but at 17 I discovered that I had an ability to write music.  This new found form of self expression was instantly appealing and I happily fell head first into writing; if for no other reason, it meant I could ditch Tuba scales and flexibility studies and go out and look at the world!!

After only two years of writing I was lucky to get into the Royal Welsh College of Music and Drama in Cardiff.  My composition tutor, Andrew Wilson-Dickson, was a massive influence on me as both a composer and a person.  I have to admit that I'm no academic and found the conforming aspects of institutional life rather hard!!  But having four years to write music is an experience I wouldn't swap for anything else in the world.

Music in general is not an easy profession to make a living but you can never grumble, getting by in life by conjuring sounds which have only ever occurred in your head is a great feeling..........

Hymns And Things For The End Of The World (Part 20 1/2)

Paul McGhee