My track from 2016. I know it is rather funny to listen to it in some moments, not sounding professional and so on, but apart from that I hope that some parts of this song are nice and bringing some excitement.

You are not alone (ATB Cover)

i dreamt of a world of fire
with embers floating in the sky
i saw a man with eyes of fury
each breath, a molten haze

i saw a girl, a frigid void
from a feeling she did not know
a hollowed shell
from the blaze that left her cold

i saw a boy, a tempest untamed
yearning to fight a beast he's never seen
scorched soil
and mountains of ash
and a vulture, ever so famished

i knelt down and prayed
that someday the flames will settle
the embers will die
and cold winds will rush
where heat did lie
and silence will settle
on the icy fog left behind

A World of Fire

I've tried to express my constant tiredness that is overwhelming most common emotion in my life. But I hear also sad vibes after Niuta our shedog that has been gone 1.5 months now but it still hurts me so badly. I cant cry and feel depressed everyday. I miss her so much. I hope she is fine wherever she is. Im also stressed out and tired because there's gonna be a very big important day in my workplace and Im not even sure what is happening to me. Also I think that people just dont like me and dont wanna be friends with me and its overwhelming too. Well, that's it. Everything is in my music.

Tired and I miss Her (07/03/25)

I dedicate it for three people. My friend who is so far away and thank you for the inspiration for the title and how to start that song. The first melody was your idea not mine even if it was originally but a bit different on the guitar. I still find it so good, loving, and I hope you gonna play it more in the future. Please do it. My second friend, I've been sticking my phone with this song by your head l when you slept days in hosp drugged, and later after being conscious back, you said that heard that song through the sleep. I happily recollect your face when listening to it for the first time without sleeping. It made us feel so happy. And at last, @sk4di - I know you get it. 
You three understand the nuances I crave for in music. I'm happy that you exist, so much. But I'm craving for more people getting it. Looking forward to get to know you and that you like it, a lot. 

Cradling Rain (18/06/24)

This song is about my experience with misophonia, meaning sound oversensitivity. I recorded it because Ive heard annoying sounds through the door, flashbacking me into school kid who everyday over and over was tormented by kitchen sounds at home and not only that. It contributed to my hateful attitude towards humanity, that appears randomly when the sounds are again there. The most frustrating part is that they are invisible. It makes me angry at I dont know what, something very abstract. The feeling is like something is making me insane and my sanity is gone. The world is attacking my nervous system and some people are surprised and dont believe this is true. Some do know. We are not alone in this.

Frustrated (04/03/25)

Inspired by Georg Friedrich Händel & Wilhelm Kempff. The lyrics are an abstract poem I wrote in Finnish. The title approximately translates to "The Fading Death". This is how I've always wanted to hear this minuet.

Minuet in G (Haihtuva Kuolema)

It happened to be created after I've listened to one particular song of Sk4di that I can't remember the title. It was in the day when her songs appeared in Czech Radio. It was so much fun and so random to do it and I didn't know it conveyed my feelings from that time I've been escaping from. Later came Niuta my dog pass away and this song started to feel devastating and I couldn't have listened to it. Now I have another grieving after loss of friendship - maybe lost or maybe not, it turns out later. This song just suddenly haunted my heart again, in between that timing. I've started to draw a pic for it but then the idea of posting it just began feeling like a burden. But when I let it go, I got some of my closures and I needed to finish off that pic so badly and I covered it with black rain. That's it. 

The Anime Sky (30/08/24)

The Violet Grief

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