1. not sure how u like me over discord 
2. dont know what my life has become w prodii 
3. my family hates me w proddii and creepies
4. just know this song aint abt u w gussi
5. ik its christmas but why are u a bitch


i tired to off myself at the family function

prod me

what's there to talk about
tryna get away from my home for now
driving forty minutes and i look around
i don't think i'm ever gonna turn back now
why'd you talk that way
there's dread in your heart every single day
seems like you've known nothing other than hate
now all you do is give it away
i swear to god i tried
to do what's good to do what's right
still did me wrong but that's alright
cause now i'm driving into the night
and so i think a lot
bridges that i've burned and ones i've crossed
memories that haunt my head
they'll only leave me once i'm dead

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later:
and when i think about it
i think too hard and my mind is crowded
i know you said you cried about it
baby i know that you're lying
so i walk a lonely road
walked passed our spot as i'm coming home
and i remember that you once said
 i'm all you'll ever need and all you'll ever have but
maybe in ten years when we're older
i can see you on the aisle
with your boyfriend turning husband 
that can really make you smile
i was never meant for you and
you know i was in denial
maybe we can talk again some time 
but not for a little while

into the night w/ jacko

#3 - i cant stop thinking about it

Tattoo your name on me, 'cause I know you're not leaving
Without you I'm deleted, and the pain has me defeated
Put that blade right to my wrist, 100 stabs might do the trick
I take it back those cuts ain't shit, look my mom in the eyes and she saw my slits
Codependency is nothing new to me, I need therapy, I need counseling
I guess I'll do the things that they say I need
But I don't really think it'll fix a damn thing
They say just speak your mind and you'll be alright
But if I said what's on mine, I'll be in cuffs tonight
Or maybe I would be fine, my paranoia will kill me
I would kill myself if they learned the real me
I'm a disgusting useless addict, degrading myself is my favorite habit
I'm walking around with a guilty conscience, 'cause I'm a fucking creep and I hope I can stop it
Look in the mirror see my fat body, stop eating food and start doing molly
Nothing matters I'm still useless, horny, manipulative, and abusive

you know too much now you have to die

My little narcissist (prod. casper's pishogue)

y'know it'd be cool if u communicated absolutely anything at all

never goodbye - i just don't understand demo

drop the fucking songs/album or at least give some news

never goodbye - over it

never goodbye - lose it all*

red haired girl

never goodbye - my therapist is dying (acoustic)

I WANNA BE HER JESUS 4

★ based on the 1978 song "Jamie's Cryin'" by US band VAN HALEN ★ more shred here : soundcloud.com/le-slapon/sets/gazed-diffused ★

never goodbye - i just don't understand demo

penumbra