I don’t need to stupidly laugh
I’m so numbed I won’t feel death
But I have to feel something
Just fuckin anything

Let me waste my soul crush my head onto the wall
I don’t need the world close it out my fucking curtains

Words don’t even start to describe
My lust for horrid
Feelings ain’t even fairly a word
For the intensity of nothing

Rip my heart out off my chest
Chew it vehemently
Grind it to pieces
Swallow my sense of selflessness

Defecate on the rests poor vexils 
Force me to like this shit
I’m slave to my torture
My torture, my only pleasure

I’m the predator, I’m the victim
I’m a whole nutritional chain

Nutritional chain

The brainwashing machine

fuck no it’s war

day of doom

Mixed like shit on my iphone but i bet you might like this preliminary version

soma/ not on the track

bastard moon

slow..deep..scarred..

Defenseless on an alien plane
Forced to play their game
Faking you’re crying
Cause you would have been the one who’s dying

Never asked a thing
Never had but this
Brain eating trauma bonding

So I should be locked up in jail
Or left to die on the concrete
As a warning to the freaks 
That try to medicate

BUT THE WORLD WAS NEVER LIKE THIS
CURSED BE THE FIRST EVER TRIBE
CURSED BE THE FIRST AND LAST WHO THRIVE
ON THE BLOOD OF OUR BROTHERS/ CALLING US THEIR BROTHERS

CURSED BE YOUR FALSE DOCTRINES
CURSED BE YOUR POISONS, SINS AND KINGS
CURSED BE THE FIRST WHO HOARDED BRICKS
TO SHRINK GOD’S POWER

cursed be

daydreamming

I don’t wanna go away
I’d rather watch them play their game
I’ve collected tears of strangers beneath my skin
Fallen angels weep sometimes through the strings

healers need healing 2

I, I wonder every day
if time, if time will really tell
cause I, I fear that in the end
we'll die, we'll die wondering

I, I wonder if we can
in time, if time is really real
cause I, I know that in the end
we'll die, we'll die wondering

wonder

getting higher
you'll never get me alive
wash in you in fire
you'll say you've never burned
getting higher
you say you've never been

weaving your spell
though noone would get
you've got your eyes fixed 
on where it dwellt
still got those lies fixed
printed all well

anima

scapegoat (you need a)

for the glory for the fame
for your faith you threw it away
manchurian candidate to your shade
mercurian blaze now fade

saturn 9 satellites of pain
follow my halo i'm in pain
saturn i might come home today
saturn 9 satellites of pain/
Satan I’ll set their lives in flames
Set the lights for pain

saturn 9

not ok but it’s ok (lil bo weep tribute cover)

Got shit to say

Can’t face the double face
I’m all spaced out, my pain is drought in tears
I’d take a final take
But shit I’m out, fuck space and clouds, I’m here
Bottle on the left and my benzos on the right
Crying loud for my death but my demons don’t want me to die
So i try it with a knife and i cut cut (cut!)
But I’m so numb and blind; even though the cuts
Spill blood, I don’t feel it.
Pills fucking end, I conceal it with the dropper
I go piss in the garden, suspicious with my scissors
For I don’t want invaders on the burden i created

The bottles end with the dope
Im fucking alive fuck the gods

Got shit to say
Said i got shit to say

And it ain’t all
No

got shit to say

all of you were so okay
all of you in your place
synchronies and faces
I won't ever forget

And I'll miss you all
and now I tell no joke
And you were all my luck
myself I's none

I don't know what made me high
i just know that now I'm just low
I don't know what makes me high
I just know that made me low

paaaaaahh

Suicide Joke note

pyretta blaze (type 0 short cover)

I don’t wanna leave you alone

Medicated, an endless sedation,
meditated on ending my situation
but I don't see no light
don't see no better way.
I just feel y'all lie
and I gotta do as well

My work for you is scorn
my life for you ain't worth

Can't find no destination
the trip's not worth for me
i wanna sleep forever
don't try to save me
i've burnt all the directions:
I cannot live to eat,
I cannot live for passions
for passions ate me

Do you wanna be
possessed?

possessed

We live in a cold age
And age that wants no name
There’s no time for songs here
Cause our songs are all the same
Theres no time for laughters
Cause our tears have filled the lake
Theres no time for tears
Cause they’re all just like the same

Oh our poets forgotten
Our lives devoured
And the world we live in’s 
Lost every meaning
Still we sing
Oh our poets forgotten
Our lives devoured
And the world we live in’s 
Lost every meaning
And we sing it all the same

Oh we live in a damned age
An age that wants no blame
And we’re making it dangerous
Cause are lives are all the same
You kneel to the warlords
While they silently burn your name
Theres no time for prayers
Cause tears are from another age

cold age

Hypnotic Hiss

come in come in (I’m gonna kill you)

You were the purest thing
You were the dirtiest thing
You were the wisest
You were the dumbest 

You were the one
Separate at creation
You were the one
You are the one

And now for another life
We’ll wander alone
Punished by an envious god
‘Cause we could be whole 

And now for another life
We’ll pay to kill ourselves
Until someday
We’ll be unite as then

You visit me in my dreams
Praying me to be happy (but I can’t)
‘Cause now you’ll never leave me
‘Cause now you live in me

Fallen Angel

Slipping Away

Amnesiac

I’m fucking back
I know you missed me
Fucking bad
Can’t stay
Too mich
But I’ll be back
Again
Each time
Cause I’ve been burnt
I’m back
Alive

Try me
You cannot kill me
You cannot win this
You cannot win this fight
Knives cannot pierce me
I’ve died too
Many times
I wouldn’t try me
I wouldn’t try me
I wouldn’t 
I wouldn’t 
Trust

I’m Back

I came back changed
But i’m back, ain’t it strange?
You saw my flesh being ripoed
And torn apart then rearranged
So distant I turned, this world
Smells of sewer stench 
Too near I rot and crook the hollow 
Of my empty strain

I didn’t need you to see
Now I see, I’ve been needing me
Stories are blank sheets
Or it’s you who cannot read

You stuffed my throat 
And I can’t breathe
Through these torns,
You mesmerised my thoughts

And through this haze I lost touch
But never enough

Lost Touch (loop)

Putting myself to sleep when the light comes
Coming again to live when the night comes
When the right time comes
I'll be right back down

Tried to embrace the sun
Shining high
But it began to run
Didn't want me nigh
Tried to face my heart:
"What for's this fight?"
But told me I had to fight
"No, why?" "Oh nevermind"...

Tried to look inside!
It tried to make me die!
But only had me crying
if I had to reincarnate

Putting myself to sleep when the light comes
Coming again to live when the night comes
When the right time comes
I'll be right back down

So I turned in too soon
Seamed understood
I thought I flew
Meantime I thought I knew
Where were my wounds,
Who gave me the cure,
Stuck off the gloom,
Fuck off the doom

And now my pain
Was pain no more
The sufferin
Always lower
I was ready 
For my tomb
Cause I was ready
To let it
Go...

Putting myself to sleep when the light comes
Coming again to live when the night comes
When the right time comes
I'll be right back down
Putting myself to sleep when the light comes
Coming again to live when the night comes
When the right time comes
I'll be right back down
When the right time comes...

Right back down

Right Back Down

U KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME 

I didn’t wanna be - I didn’t wanna go
I didn’t wanna see what you’d turn me into 
I didn’t wanna laugh - I didn’t wanna cry
I didn’t wanna unroll all of that time 

Took mine and inflated
My world has no time 

You know where to find me
Sometimes you just have to look
You know where to find me
Im always around you
You know where to find me
Sometimes you just have to look
You know where to find me
Im always around you

Staring at numbers
The elevator moves upwards
Entering the chamber 
To find out what it was

I feel like dying 
And it’s been years now 
Will i ever be free?

So i took mine and inflated
My world has no time

U Know Where To Find Me

Yeah and I know I know
Took timeless effort but I'm back yo
Not the same but still the same
just to say I ain't changing fondamentals
More words in my cloud
less war-pouring fogs now drive me
More will to be above
less waiting fucking pumping all scenes
And now I know I'm not a character
I wrote this sloppy novel as a testament
Time for clearer steps
instructed by the ether's rest
I rest no more
I'm awake in these spiderwebs
I know I know I've grown old my style's grown younger
move around hide nothing, stumble on some random shit
I told myself I's wrong, I told myself what you told me
Now I taught myself I'm grown, what you tell yourself don't touch me

I'm fucking singing on my way back
I'm fucking singing like a retard
You ain't want me singing like I'm a killer 
I like my killer style-bubble-mumble-whistle

Yeh 'n I 'n I know
2 times as fucked but I'm back yo
not the same, still insane
just to sway - I ain't changing fondamentals
Most wrongs are in doubt
Less room for infectious blamings
More will to fullfill the show
Long cravings but I ain't popping the xenes
And now I know I'm not a character
I wrote this sloppy novel as a testament
Time for bleaching spots
Abstracting to whichever nest
I rest no more
I'm awake in these spiderwebs.
I know I told I've grown old
My smile's born absent
Look around like nothing
Stuttering some random shit

I told myself I's wrong - I told myself what you told me
Now I taught myself I'm grown - what you tell yourself don't touch me

Way Back

I can’t write no rhyme yeah
But a song plays in my mind and
It keeps pushing it forward
I burnt all my flowers

I’ll be searching for a new
Pusher near my basement 
I emptied all prescriptions
Now i know I’m going dry yeah

These thoughts won’t stop from rotting
My bones won’t stop from aching
My head feels it’s exploding
Wish I had a heart attack yeah

But I’m sticking with nothing
-that’s all that I have-
I’m sticking with nothing
-i wish i was dead-

I don’t wanna be here inside yeah
Feels so cold and alien
I’d be okay with a vape pen
Three nights i stayed awake yeah

But who the fuck minds
Kill the junkies
Strip their lives off
Their own rights
We just wanna
Stay high
In your world
I think bout suicide

I wanna live like a did
I never changed for a thing
I’m broke my plug’s an asshole
Last tine he tried to rob me

Lost hope in the hopeless
Lost hope in the confident 
Hope is for crying
Crying’s to attract wealth

But why the fuck’s it got to
Be so hard - ain’t got to
Why the fuck’s it got to
Reap me of my sleep too?

I’m breaking apart
And I don’t know where to start
If i had to collect
The pieces scattered, the hurts?
And why should i heal
To mend unmendeable fears
If i know that I’ll fear
The next thing i still can’t feel?

Feels so cold and alien

I was here long ago
Long before I can recall
Smoking weed and singing songs
Always till darkness would fall

Yeah 
How long?
Yeah
Before?
Yeah 
How ling before
It fades
Away

You should have known it would’ve all be gone
It should all’ve be gone so long ago
And you should not be singing songs
You should have be gone so long ago

No thoughts or feelings anymore 
Can’t even call me an animal
No hopes for living carry on
You should’ve be gone long ago

Prophet of lies

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