i'm feeling useless and mechanical
crawling to the bathroom floor
nowhere to be found and no
i won't answer if you ring my phone
purging cynical vomit on the emotions i once had
drowning in my ruin i will drag you by the hair

some say it's depression
some say it will kill you
though some say it's different now
i bet it migh kill me for sure
nodding in my bedroom
warm blanket and teaspoon
i won't see tomorrow
sorry for the blood, oh

i just wanna sleep i don't wanna see
what the fates will bring
if there's something there
sure it ain't for me

it makes me laugh no more i'm no more inspired
layed to lie couch-locked waiting just to die

everyone says you should be
the very last thing it's for real
and though some may seem kind, see,
remember they've always been acting
nodding in my bedroom
warm blanket and teaspoon
i won't see tomorrow
sorry for the blood, oh

i just wanna sleep i don't wanna see
what the fates will bring
if there's something there
sure it ain't for me

it makes me laugh no more i'm no more inspired
layed to lie couch-locked waiting just to die

vicodin don’t make you dr house

We came to this world alone and naked
Crying and covered in dirt
You can’t say you didn’t know the pain
You gave us prayers and stupid names to distract us from

The shame you didn’t have the right to impose
And it’s a shame you didn’t take your time to grow 
Still you mock me cause I just would live oh like i should
Unlike machines that live producing die consuming

Your children hate you

But your children they pray for you

we won’t fight your wars

not ok but it’s ok (lil bo weep tribute cover)

all of you were so okay
all of you in your place
synchronies and faces
I won't ever forget

And I'll miss you all
and now I tell no joke
And you were all my luck
myself I's none

I don't know what made me high
i just know that now I'm just low
I don't know what makes me high
I just know that made me low

paaaaaahh

Suicide Joke note

pyretta blaze (type 0 short cover)

I don’t wanna leave you alone

We live in a cold age
And age that wants no name
There’s no time for songs here
Cause our songs are all the same
Theres no time for laughters
Cause our tears have filled the lake
Theres no time for tears
Cause they’re all just like the same

Oh our poets forgotten
Our lives devoured
And the world we live in’s 
Lost every meaning
Still we sing
Oh our poets forgotten
Our lives devoured
And the world we live in’s 
Lost every meaning
And we sing it all the same

Oh we live in a damned age
An age that wants no blame
And we’re making it dangerous
Cause are lives are all the same
You kneel to the warlords
While they silently burn your name
Theres no time for prayers
Cause tears are from another age

cold age

call me an angel

Thank you
For picking me up
When I was down
When I was down

Thank you
For feeding me hope
When I had none
When I was down 

Thank you 
For singing your song 
For it saved my life 
When I was down

Thank You again for saving my life

Hypnotic Hiss

I don’t mind
Of your wounded head
If you take what’s mine
Then you just take what you get

Take what you want from me
Say what you need to me
Take what you want from me
But take! Take! Take! Take!

It’s not like anything you see you can take it
Was it that easy anyone would have made it
It’s not like anything that hurts you can escape it
Uh, would I be here? Uh, would you be with me

Everyday you’re closer
Everyday we’re closer to the
Source of being that spat you like puke
Putrid scenes await ‘fore the tomb

Tears fall, wet the floor,
Clear forms of terror
Constrain me to clean it all
While bleeding uncapable
To rise

I don’t mind
Of your wounded head 
If you take what’s mine
Then you just take what you get 

I lie dead gone
White sky above,
Crying “why’d u abandon
Mine eyes, dead god?”

It’s night 
Another bottle won’t save
This tortured soul, this
Tortured skull 
Breezing, ‘cause it’s night again
And I’m breathing
Cause it’s night again
And i realised
All others 
Are simply just another
Side 
In this mad world
Is there another way to live?
Another bottle
And I’m craving
Another bottle of whisky and I’m..

Another bottle (where’s mine?)
Another bottle (I’m dead )
Another bottle (I’m craving, it’s bleeding)

Where’s mine? (I’m dead)
Just save me
Just save me from myself

It’s no reason to live
No reason to live at all

No reason to live
No reason no reason
It’s no reason to live at all.

Prison

What is your hurt Live Take

I woke up
I was dreaming
Tried to slap myself
Back to living
Tried to choke oh
Wasn’t working
Just can’t seek air
While I’m drowning

Why shall we 
Give our lives away
Pretending to be better?

We’re just this
Human thing you see
Lost in awe and wonder

Lost in awe, we wonder why we’re here
Lost in awe we wonder why we’re here

I never needed anything 
Never asked to be here
Found myself in your phantasy
Just try not to think about me
Let me be

I don’t fucking care
Of the years that have passed
And the brewed yeast gone for waste
And the aches and pains that last

And why shall we
Give our lives this way
Pretending to be better?

We’re just this
Human thing you see
Lost in awe and wonder

Lost in awe, we wonder why we’re here

Living in someone else’s dream (Let me be)

come in come in (I’m gonna kill you)

You were the purest thing
You were the dirtiest thing
You were the wisest
You were the dumbest 

You were the one
Separate at creation
You were the one
You are the one

And now for another life
We’ll wander alone
Punished by an envious god
‘Cause we could be whole 

And now for another life
We’ll pay to kill ourselves
Until someday
We’ll be unite as then

You visit me in my dreams
Praying me to be happy (but I can’t)
‘Cause now you’ll never leave me
‘Cause now you live in me

Fallen Angel

Slipping Away

Amnesiac

I’m fucking back
I know you missed me
Fucking bad
Can’t stay
Too mich
But I’ll be back
Again
Each time
Cause I’ve been burnt
I’m back
Alive

Try me
You cannot kill me
You cannot win this
You cannot win this fight
Knives cannot pierce me
I’ve died too
Many times
I wouldn’t try me
I wouldn’t try me
I wouldn’t 
I wouldn’t 
Trust

I’m Back

I came back changed
But i’m back, ain’t it strange?
You saw my flesh being ripoed
And torn apart then rearranged
So distant I turned, this world
Smells of sewer stench 
Too near I rot and crook the hollow 
Of my empty strain

I didn’t need you to see
Now I see, I’ve been needing me
Stories are blank sheets
Or it’s you who cannot read

You stuffed my throat 
And I can’t breathe
Through these torns,
You mesmerised my thoughts

And through this haze I lost touch
But never enough

Lost Touch (loop)

Putting myself to sleep when the light comes
Coming again to live when the night comes
When the right time comes
I'll be right back down

Tried to embrace the sun
Shining high
But it began to run
Didn't want me nigh
Tried to face my heart:
"What for's this fight?"
But told me I had to fight
"No, why?" "Oh nevermind"...

Tried to look inside!
It tried to make me die!
But only had me crying
if I had to reincarnate

Putting myself to sleep when the light comes
Coming again to live when the night comes
When the right time comes
I'll be right back down

So I turned in too soon
Seamed understood
I thought I flew
Meantime I thought I knew
Where were my wounds,
Who gave me the cure,
Stuck off the gloom,
Fuck off the doom

And now my pain
Was pain no more
The sufferin
Always lower
I was ready 
For my tomb
Cause I was ready
To let it
Go...

Putting myself to sleep when the light comes
Coming again to live when the night comes
When the right time comes
I'll be right back down
Putting myself to sleep when the light comes
Coming again to live when the night comes
When the right time comes
I'll be right back down
When the right time comes...

Right back down

Right Back Down

U KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME 

I didn’t wanna be - I didn’t wanna go
I didn’t wanna see what you’d turn me into 
I didn’t wanna laugh - I didn’t wanna cry
I didn’t wanna unroll all of that time 

Took mine and inflated
My world has no time 

You know where to find me
Sometimes you just have to look
You know where to find me
Im always around you
You know where to find me
Sometimes you just have to look
You know where to find me
Im always around you

Staring at numbers
The elevator moves upwards
Entering the chamber 
To find out what it was

I feel like dying 
And it’s been years now 
Will i ever be free?

So i took mine and inflated
My world has no time

U Know Where To Find Me

Yeah and I know I know
Took timeless effort but I'm back yo
Not the same but still the same
just to say I ain't changing fondamentals
More words in my cloud
less war-pouring fogs now drive me
More will to be above
less waiting fucking pumping all scenes
And now I know I'm not a character
I wrote this sloppy novel as a testament
Time for clearer steps
instructed by the ether's rest
I rest no more
I'm awake in these spiderwebs
I know I know I've grown old my style's grown younger
move around hide nothing, stumble on some random shit
I told myself I's wrong, I told myself what you told me
Now I taught myself I'm grown, what you tell yourself don't touch me

I'm fucking singing on my way back
I'm fucking singing like a retard
You ain't want me singing like I'm a killer 
I like my killer style-bubble-mumble-whistle

Yeh 'n I 'n I know
2 times as fucked but I'm back yo
not the same, still insane
just to sway - I ain't changing fondamentals
Most wrongs are in doubt
Less room for infectious blamings
More will to fullfill the show
Long cravings but I ain't popping the xenes
And now I know I'm not a character
I wrote this sloppy novel as a testament
Time for bleaching spots
Abstracting to whichever nest
I rest no more
I'm awake in these spiderwebs.
I know I told I've grown old
My smile's born absent
Look around like nothing
Stuttering some random shit

I told myself I's wrong - I told myself what you told me
Now I taught myself I'm grown - what you tell yourself don't touch me

Way Back

I can’t write no rhyme yeah
But a song plays in my mind and
It keeps pushing it forward
I burnt all my flowers

I’ll be searching for a new
Pusher near my basement 
I emptied all prescriptions
Now i know I’m going dry yeah

These thoughts won’t stop from rotting
My bones won’t stop from aching
My head feels it’s exploding
Wish I had a heart attack yeah

But I’m sticking with nothing
-that’s all that I have-
I’m sticking with nothing
-i wish i was dead-

I don’t wanna be here inside yeah
Feels so cold and alien
I’d be okay with a vape pen
Three nights i stayed awake yeah

But who the fuck minds
Kill the junkies
Strip their lives off
Their own rights
We just wanna
Stay high
In your world
I think bout suicide

I wanna live like a did
I never changed for a thing
I’m broke my plug’s an asshole
Last tine he tried to rob me

Lost hope in the hopeless
Lost hope in the confident 
Hope is for crying
Crying’s to attract wealth

But why the fuck’s it got to
Be so hard - ain’t got to
Why the fuck’s it got to
Reap me of my sleep too?

I’m breaking apart
And I don’t know where to start
If i had to collect
The pieces scattered, the hurts?
And why should i heal
To mend unmendeable fears
If i know that I’ll fear
The next thing i still can’t feel?

Feels so cold and alien

I was here long ago
Long before I can recall
Smoking weed and singing songs
Always till darkness would fall

Yeah 
How long?
Yeah
Before?
Yeah 
How ling before
It fades
Away

You should have known it would’ve all be gone
It should all’ve be gone so long ago
And you should not be singing songs
You should have be gone so long ago

No thoughts or feelings anymore 
Can’t even call me an animal
No hopes for living carry on
You should’ve be gone long ago

Prophet of lies

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