This began as part of a jam with XAW playing drums and SA playing guitar. SA added layers of keyboards, harmonica and melodica, produced.

Breathless

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Buzz

Sunshine

Passage

I Lose You To The Void

Campfire Song

Chaos Waiting

clear bright lines

We Are Made Of Stars And Dust

Hello, my friends! 

Here we are at the end of another year. It has been a huge year for me with the birth of my first child, my son, who is about to turn 11 months old. I want to share the following as truthfully as I can in the hope that it may be of some comfort to anyone reading in a similar situation.

I can not express emphatically enough how ill equipped I felt for parenthood, I have suffered from a long term health condition for 20 years now and overtime this impacted on my mental health to the edge of the point of no return.

Although I am very grateful that I have been able to earn a living from music, it is notoriously financially unstable as a career path and at no point over the last decade have I felt I was in a strong  enough position to bring a child into the equation. This put a huge strain on my relationship with my partner (now my wife). I didn't want her to miss out on having children, but I felt it would be irresponsible of me considering my poor physical and mental health, unreliable income and I also am unable to drive, which is a nightmare living in a rural area.

I can't adequately explain the process of change I have gone through over the last year but needless to say my Son is the light of my life. A beautiful little boy that I just hope with all my heart that I can give him what he needs and be a part of his life for as long as I live.

Thank you all for supporting me this year, I haven't spoken about this publicly because I didn't know how, but this track is about the feelings I had of sadness that my son wouldn't be born to a more strong and stable father. When you feel broken, how do you be strong for someone else? I haven't found any answers but I will fight to the very end to be the best I can for my boy.

Thanks again, my friends!
Take care ❤️🙏

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Oscuro - Where There's Life, There's Hope

Self taught to play piano, bass, guitar / acoustic, and drums by ear, feeling, and emotion. Music is my passion. Though I have played in bands since the age of 15, playing anything from country, metal / rock, blues, funk, disco and pop, my behind the scenes go to music has always been dark, cinematic, melancholy music. It is my escape. During covid, being in a band was almost impossible. in 2020, I began to take composing and producing seriously. working hard to learn everything that goes into composing and producing. What comes out is different. It is art with no limits.  

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Philip Brawley