You're not answering my texts now
Got me feeling stressed out
Thought that you were different
But you're just like all the rest now
I never said that I was perfect
Yeah I know I got my own shit
Told you that I'm working on it
But you're making me feel worthless
I just needed you to love me
Please don't fucking judge me
Spit right in my face and I still tell you that you're lovely
Let's pour another cup I don't want to give a fuck
All I think about is love and I think I've had enough

How many times can we pick up the pieces
How many lies does it take to believe it
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
That you're leaving
How can I forget how it felt when you loved me
How many shots till I stop feeling empty
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
So when are you leaving

We went on a heart bender
But I know that you'll push it till we break
Cut you off like I'm a bartender
But you're thirsty and I'm easily replaced
I can't be the only one who sees it
Just know I never asked you to believe in me
Your feelings changing with the seasons
So change your colors in October then you're free to leave
And I don't want to fall in love ever again, I'm too afraid
And no I won't put you above none of my friends
So you can stay away

How many times can we pick up the pieces
How many lies does it take to believe it
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
That you're leaving
How can I forget how it felt when you loved me
How many shots till I stop feeling empty
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
So when are you leaving

How Many Times (ft. Day Dreamer)

It's 1 in the morning
Outside It's pouring
And I've been thinking about you
Too many nights alone
Been staring at my phone
Trying to find a reason to call you

Trying to find a reason to call you
If I hit your line would you come through
I just got to know you won't leave me all alone
You won't leave me in the cold
I just need to know that you love me when you're sober
Call my name and I'll be right there anytime
Call my name and I'll be right there any night
Any night
Any night

It's 1 in the morning
Outside It's pouring
And I've been thinking about you
Too many nights alone
Been staring at my phone
Trying to find a reason to call you
It's 1 in the morning
Outside It's pouring
And I've been thinking about you
Too many nights alone
Been staring at my phone
Trying to find a reason to call you

I need to feel your touch on my skin
Nothing's been the same since you let me in
Did you get what you needed
Satisfied so you're leaving
I need you to tell me the truth even if it'll hurt me
Try to distract but that shit is not working
Lately I feel like nobody deserve me
Thought you were different but you're like the rest
Feel like you ripped my heart straight out my chest
Can't help feeling like a wreck
Left me lonely and depressed
I'm a mess

It's 1 in the morning
Outside It's pouring
And I've been thinking about you
Too many nights alone
Been staring at my phone
Trying to find a reason to call you
It's 1 in the morning
Outside It's pouring
And I've been thinking about you
Too many nights alone
Been staring at my phone
Trying to find a reason to call you

A Reason To Call You

I can't make you stay
I can't change the way you feel
Can't seem to numb the pain
Can't seem to find a way to deal with
Losing my escape
What was my mistake?
Did I push you away?

Nothing seems to matter
When you're not here by my side
When you took your love
You stole the color from my life
Just look me in the eyes
Leaving all these cuts before you're leaving me behind
You were my addiction
Now I'm going through withdrawals
I just want to overdose and let go of it all
We're toxic and codependent
I can't defend it
Just know that everytime I said I loved you I meant it

I can't make you stay
I can't change the way you feel
Can't seem to numb the pain
Can't seem to find a way to deal with
Losing my escape
What was my mistake?
Did I push you away?

Took a couple shots to try to show you the real me
I need a conversation
Yeah you need to speak clearly
Like what's the point of love
If we have different motivations
And what's the point in us
If we don't got communication
And when I'm vulnerable I beg don't throw it back at me
You shut your heart
I needed love, I needed empathy
You were so quick to throw me out and treat me like a stranger
Now I'm just a stranger

I can't make you stay
I can't change the way you feel
Can't seem to numb the pain
Can't seem to find a way to deal with
Losing my escape
What was my mistake?
Did I push you away?

Can't Seem To Numb

I guess I'm not your first choice
But I was good enough to use
Gave my everything
But it's never good enough for you
I stay faded
Tryna get you out of my head
But it only makes it worse
I'd rather see you in my bed yeah

Tell me that it's only for the best
Tell me that you'd rather stay instead
I don't think a bottle can replace you
But maybe with enough, I can erase you
Is it really easier this way
Is it really worth all of the pain
I thought I loved you the way that you wanted
But I guess you wanted him

I'll keep my lips shut tight
They don't got to know a thing
I'll do it the way you like
Nobody's got to know a thing
Do you do it cause you're lonely
You only call me when you're rolling
I'll be yours for the night
We both know it's not right
But you go live your lie yeah

Tell me that it's only for the best
Tell me that you'd rather stay instead
I don't think a bottle can replace you
But maybe with enough, I can erase you
Is it really easier this way
Is it really worth all of the pain
I thought I loved you the way that you wanted
But I guess you wanted him

Cold-blooded
You got me fucked up
And you love it
Now I've got deep cuts
I just wanted to feel some real love
I just wanted to feel some real love
Was I fool for you
Thinking you loved me too
Thinking I had a clue of anything
I think I'm better off on my own
Don't hit me on my phone
You'll leave me all alone anyway

Only For The Best

lyrics:

Ride the sound wave girl I give u soundbites
No one in this world gonna feel what u might
Slept the whole day so I could stay all night
We aint waste a minute girl im feeling so right 
Up tight up tight
Why u acting so tight
I could the second u approached u my type
Lets lay it down for a second take a look at both hands
I could play the fool but its a devils slow jam

Taking me for my word that’s a gift and a curse
Bridges i had burnt line the mist oh it hurts
Oh it hurts
I wish I could purge at least reverse
To the very moment
I know shit now I wish I had known then
I cried at every open
But now to rain is frozen
And now my clothes soaking
And now the pain will soak in
And now the path is chosen
The only one that’s open
I build up plenty motion
And blast up into orbit
If u could feel what I feel
I promise u would be the first one to ask me for help
But just as life had planned it u gon have to fend for urself
Of course I cant help but laugh
Oh This shit worked out too perfect
I really spoke it into fact

Ride the sound wave girl I give u soundbites
No one in this world gonna feel what u might
Slept the whole day so I could stay all night
We aint waste a minute girl im feeling so right 
Up tight up tight
Why u acting so tight
I could the second u approached u my type
Lets lay it down for a second take a look at both hands
I could play the fool but its a devils slow jam


Know I got some impressions of an asshole
And I know I could be one when the mood goes
U know I regret it when the lights low
They gas me but u shouldn’t believe the hype tho
Fuck the gala I aint even got the right clothes
Nose blind to the kush ion got the right nose
Tongue tied I cant even keep the mic close
I never been a fan of the tight rope
Said I love it but I think it was a typo
I just need a weapon and ill turn to something like Michael
Gimme an ear and im gon turn into Mike
They hear sounds that they like so they bite
Ya I think I must be an old man
World had changed to something I dont see myself in
Oh its clipped
The faces might have changed but the earth still spins
And frankly how im living I would’ve done this shit again

Ride the sound wave girl I give u soundbites
No one in this world gonna feel what u might
Slept the whole day so I could stay all night
We aint waste a minute girl im feeling so right 
Up tight up tight
Why u acting so tight
I could the second u approached u my type
Lets lay it down for a second take a look at both hands
I could play the fool but its a devils slow jam

soundwave (jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

Here i have compiled my first hand accounts of the events i've witnessed throughout my time spent in the Otherlands. i assure you they are very real. The details of such atrocities have burned their mark on my brain and singed my understanding of what exists in my realm of origin, and what exists here. This expedition into the unknown has personally brought me nothing but my own damnation. I hope these writings allow my sacrifice to be not in vein, but at least grant knowledge to the people of my homeland i so penitently long for.

OF THE OTHERLANDS (ERIC GODLOW)

lyrics:

All stand beneath his tongue
What has this world become

Jet black eyes line the mists of the bog
Feel ur skins too tight u should fucking rip it off
Bathed in pale moonlight stand the force employed to cull
And In the flare of mage light u can see their slack jaws
Bleed the crown a stuck pig 
The scream is turned to bird song
Paint the fleets face
With the blood of raid rot
Everything is torched upon completion of the job
Even in the midst of war i hear them laugh and make love

Pikes of kings guard
Atop a desecrated throne
They say the royals will bleed blue
But here im covered in its rose
I punch out fragments of his bones
I dug so deep I touched his soul
Drag him to the boat
Burn his carcass in our cove
Feed his pieces to the wolves
Yah I need to see him ripped
They tear his trachea out his throat
All those teeth had got a grip
Ill be damned
Spread this plague through out these sands
Break down everything by hand
They dont get the fucking depth
Of what will happen when we land

Jet black eyes line the mists of the bog
Feel ur skins too tight u should fucking rip it off
Bathed in pale moonlight stand the force employed to cull
And In the flare of mage light u can see their slack jaws
Bleed the crown a stuck pig 
The scream is turned to bird song
Paint the fleets face
With the blood of raid rot
Everything is torched upon completion of the job
Even in the midst of war i hear them laugh and make love

All stand beneath his tongue
What has this world become

CHAPTER1_WARBOYS (BRANWEN)

lyrics:

It is clear to me pain has been granted rule over these lands. It seems even on the quietest of nights here, the woeful shriek of tragedy consumes all.

Just stay still and let the web hold the weight
It’s just love beneath a cantrip of hate
My 8 legs will wipe the tears from ur face
The silk spun is meant to savour the taste
Their long guns had blown a hole in my chest
I’m wrapped up to stop the leaking of breath
My teeth punch the funnel webs of the nest
Its just love so cant the world let us rest

The first time you’ve seen me hunger for blood
I cant lie I feared id lose you to man
But u stayed inside the cold of my clutch
And showed me the heart is more than a pump
The Hourglass that paints my back
Is nothing more than reason to separate me from flesh u said
And I burned that deep into my head from then on
Oh so deep The thought of u is all ive got to go on
Make this easy
Cant you make this easier on me
Yet they punch And they kick
And they budge And they shove
And We fight And make up
Then We fuck And lay up
When its all Said and done
Ur still all That ive got

Just stay still and let the web hold the weight
It’s just love beneath a cantrip of hate
My 8 legs will wipe the tears from ur face
The silk spun is meant to savour the taste
Their long guns had blown a hole in my chest
I’m wrapped up to stop the leaking of breath
My teeth punch the funnel webs of the nest
Its just love so cant the world let us rest

CHAPTER2_AN ARACHNIDIAN HYMN (NICO NORTH)

lyrics:

This realm has effectively become haven for deception. intruders who feed upon the human desire for normalcy. Evolved to capture the essence of our entire being only to use this mirror image against us. many a man here have suffered at the hands of what they have come to call "The mimics".

underneath pristine estate
basement depth where dirt meets clay
tears were shed within this place
boxes leak of flesh remade

savagely he steals ur face
worn atop his ancient skin
in tongues forgotten by eons past
he word imbued his new favourite mask
forced to speak of all summers past
he will steal ur life in this you shaped cast
confidence is what put u here
and now confidence is what leaves u last

did they really love u if they never even noticed
your wife is cuddled up next to whatever inside the mold is invited
its exciting
she looks into its eyes and
sees nothing but her husband looking back its not surprising
beware the boglands curse
the graveyard nurse
its called by many names
but only one name works
and that names urs
then that names hers
it runs in the family until the family is hearsed
the old bones
of the house creek and give way
for a bridge to the grave
the walls pulse and bleed grey
into his limbs
where dirt meets clay
where eyes meet brain
where push meets shove
and pressure meets pain
when its all done
you will faze out
somewhere in the beams
of the house we came out
you recognize the voice coming out of its mouth
once upon a time it was urs it came out of i know
but she doesn't
its really a spitting image
they lay down in ur bed and she gets fucked by a mimic

watching as the vows fall flat and break down
replaced in the worst way thought you shout
words turn dust only halfway out
muffled by the drywall packed in ur mouth
plague turned sap for the family tree
children to be birthed none resembling thee
abomination follows and the curse must feed
the mother is consumed by what she thought was her seed

savagely he steals ur face
worn atop his ancient skin
in tongues forgotten by eons past
he word imbued his new favourite mask
forced to speak of all summers past
he will steal ur life in this you shaped cast
confidence is what put u here
and now confidence is what leaves u last

CHAPTER4_BEWARE THE MIMICS (SORROWBRINGER)

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