What if you lose your language(s)?
There are parts in the song where different vocals appear at the same time which makes it harder to understand. This is intended. After all the song is about aphasia.

The Aphasic
In this damned town I always walk around
searching for the sign I will never find
cannot give up, cannot go on
I feel eternity, feel it right in front of me

I can’t hear what they say/ the same
express it my own way/ every day
what they don’t understand/ can’t find
they try but they can’t/ the words to say
words slipping through my grasp/the thoughts swirl inside your mind
though I try to clasp/but the words just unwind
the words are in the past/the words out of grasp
they can never last/caught in your mind’s trap
I see it in your eyes/the thoughts…
my words a big surprise/but the words…
it’s all in my mind/the words…
I write a few lines/caught in…
but I can’t understand the sings of my own hand

can’t read a single line, can’t read a single sign
the words don’t reach you, though they try to teach you

I’m caught somewhere in my mind, can’t cross the borderline
I’m lonely in a crowd, and I can’t get out
there’s darkness in the light/the same
and light in the dark night/every day
I’ll get along with it/can’t find 
‘cause I’m too strong for it/the words to say
I’m lost in my speech/ the thoughts swirl inside your mind
the words are out of reach/ but the words just unwind
I would like to break free/ the words out of grasp
hope I can find the key/ caught in mind’s trap
some words cross my way/the thoughts…
but they will never stay/but the words…
the words don’t make sense/ the words out of grasp
out of reach, behind the fence/ caught in mind’s trap
I’ll find a way to shine/ the thoughts…
you’ll see that I’ll be fine/ but the words…
I will find my voice/the words…
it will be more than noise/caught in…
you’ll see it’s not in vain, I’ll find my own refrain

can’t read a single line, can’t read a single sign
the words don’t reach you, though they try to teach you

The Aphasic

November 2023. I removed the cover of my 40 year old Roland U20, blew the dust off the keys and played the first notes after decades of silence. A first glimpse to the past and to the future at the same time.

Cover Artwork: Manfred Besinger (dad)

Demo Songs 2023

First Glimpse

The tone of the saxophone melts away. It is a world of music where humans are not involved. A complex world of melted tones and gathered tones. After I start making music, someone else has the power to make decisions on my behalf.


Am I going to play or who is playing?（256）

Domingo

Cyber Tour

Frozen Moment

After the miasma dissipates, mysterious figures begin to emerge. From a distance, the field of souls appear to be joyful and dance in a uniform formation. Their dance is upbeat and lively. It is mesmerizing to behold. They appear almost elusive, yet they harbor darker motives. They want others to follow down their path…

Available on Bandcamp
https://malevolententities.bandcamp.com/track/field-of-souls

Field of Souls

Step By Step+

E Tumaini, orgulhoso de ser pai, tomou a filha nos braços, e deu-lhe um nome, e a abençoou:

Vê, os homens passam, falham as vontades.
Vê as mãos cansadas, porque nunca alcançam.
Mas tenho esperança que um deus bondoso te encha de alegria,
te dê o seu consolo, luz e fantasia.
E neste chão, onde o maligno vem espalhar maldade,
vais ver crescer o joio, vais sentir saudade.
Mas tenho esperança que um deus bondoso te abra um caminho,
te traga o seu amor, para nunca estares sozinha,
para seres feliz...

And Tumaini, proud to be a father, took his daughter in his arms, gave her a name, and blessed her:

See, men pass by, the wills fail.
See the tired hands, because they never achieve.
But I hope that a kind God will fill you with joy,
give you his consolation, light and fantasy.
And on this ground, where the evil one comes to spread evil,
you will see the weeds grow, you will feel the longing.
But I hope that a kind God will clear a path for you,
bring you his love, so that you'll never be alone,
so that you'll be happy...

Tenho Esperança

Some random Friday afternoon carolling at the Llewellyn's, with my daughter Awen playing the guitar.

We hope you'll enjoy.
Happy Holidays!

God Rest You Merry, Gentlemen (Awen And Rob Carolling)

Mars

Syncopated beats with heavy bassline and acid tweaks

Existence

Pieter Rotthier - Belgian artist, based in Antwerp. He produces electronic music, a blend of techno, house, ambient and experimental electronics. His music has often a darker or more melancholic vibe, often mixing synths with more organic sounds like piano, strings and brass. It is danceable, but it also serves as a soundtrack for movies, that yet have to be made.

Quick on the drawing is also a visual artist, making drawings (hence the name), paintings and illustrations. The artwork of the tracks are exclusively made by Quick on the drawing.

Gear:
Ableton
Garageband
Arturia MK 2
Novation Launchpad MK3

Mars

Quick on the Drawing