fuck this life ima kill myself
fuck therapists i dont want help
fuck the sun isolate myself
fuck myself cuz i cant show love
fuck your lies you dont mean that shit
fuck my pride i feel like a faggot
fuck that shit i still need love
fuck these pills but i still take them
love my friends but i hate myself
kill myself i should kill myself

iskms (krushes)

don’t chase the white rabbit

i got scammed in 2018

i was high asf when i made ts lmao

smoke in my lungs sky in my eyes
waiting outside while the world just flies
cold on my hands numb in my chest
try to feel calm but im still a mess

smoking outside nothing feels right
watching the day turn into the night
try to move on but i cant leave
all of my thoughts just make me grieve

ash on the ground flick it away
i say im fine but im not okay
laughter inside im stuck out here
fading in smoke fading in fear

one more drag, one more sigh
look at the sky i don’t know why
i keep coming back cant let it go
guess its the only place I know

smoking outside the clinic haha

Im sorry mother for hte things ive done
Im sorry mother I cant hold on 
I know now that lifes not a fucking game
im sorry mother im feeling numb

Im sorry mother you dont understand
im sorry mother ill leave you behind

Im sorry mother for hte things ive done
Im sorry mother I cant hold on 
I know now that lifes not a fucking game
im sorry mother im feeling numb

Im sorry mother you dont understand
im sorry mother ill leave you behind

this is it demo

idk what to think (prod. Bowsa)

shoutout occultxddmoney 4 dis beat <333

stay right here
touch on my skin make the pain disappear
i dont feel love but with you its clear
whisper my name when the worlds not near
late night calls i dont sleep too well
heart too cold but you broke that shell
eyes on you got me stuck in a spell
dont say shit i can already tell
finger trace shapes i cant erase
everywhere u drop needs a trace
smoke in the air, your scent in my clothes
i dont know why but i cant let go

teach Me 2 feel again

I fucking hate October

special thanks to @reinetwork for the cover art
only using cover art cause rei put work into it she sucks LMAO

lyrics:
so wont you tell your story
everything that you worry about
i been lost since the morning
that you told me your love ran out
so wont you calm my worries
now im fainting my visions blurry
im just hoping that somebody heard me
i would cut off my hands to stop hurting
too many drugs but nothing is working
keep fucking up but im sorry im learning
giving all my trust to people thats not worth it
praying up above but i dont know if he heard me

im waiting for you to come back to me
i swear that your love is my ecstasy
i swear its not right when youre not with me
and nothing feels right when youre not at home
home
at home
youre not at home

and it doesnt seem to matter at all
nothing seems to hinder the fall
youre burning the wound youre pouring the salt
and ive been looking for the one
but nothing is certain
and i hope youll be the one
to pull me along
do i deserve it?
you pulled my heart right through the sword
i hope you want me forevermore
ive been running towards your arms
and ive been running through the door so

do
you
want
to
want to have my life
so will it suffice

im waiting for you to come back to me
i swear that your love is my ecstasy
i swear its not right when youre not with me
and nothing feels right when youre not at home
home
at home
youre not at home

home
home
home

nothings right when shes not home

lyrics:

it doesnt matter, like anyway
i went outside today, i smoked a couple joints
i got high by myself and i couldnt even think
why, why did i wait for you to slow down my pace
why did i wait when you spat in my face
its getting longer now
im feeling down and out
write me a letter, i might feel a little better
make me feel lesser, learn a couple lessons
maybe always hate her but im still gonna miss her
fuck i hate her
i fuckin hate her guts
it doesnt really matter cuz i got my loaded gun
or a sharpened knife, i think i hate my life
hate it so much, its like a 9 to 5
i wanna x4

i wanna move away from everything you gave me
its like im tryna escape a never ending tragedy
its like when im alone youre still haunting me
always something wrong but i wonder what itll be
its like im stuck high up somewhere, vibrating like a bee
it doesnt matter, like anyway
i went outside today, i smoked a couple joints
i got high by myself and i couldnt even think
why, why did i wait for you to slow down my pace

why did i wait

pifon