Here's a song I wrote like 10 years ago. My lyrics don't always reflect how I truly feel, it's just about what I was feeling at a certain point in time - so it's worth noting that I do not, in fact, "love her" anymore

Just another emo ass sad song about something that happened when I was 15. As always recorded hastily with just a few takes and overdubs directly into audacity, so a lot of the harmonies distort and it's low quality and all that, idk I just wanted to record something again after so long so here it is

Life ALWAYS gets better no matter what, and that's why I wrote this song, even if it doesn't seem like it

Anyways, the lyrics

(verse 1)
She was on his mind for what must have been the millionth time that day,
she'd betrayed and walked away, another game to play...
And old blink album, a dozen valium, a bottle of 151
He decided then and there that his worldly time was done.
Gulp and gobble, go full throttle, this Earth was just too good for him,
time to face the other place, it's time to answer for his sins.
Sometimes I pity that poor kid, a week after he turned 15
was when it all became too much, he wanted one eternal dream

(chorus 1)
He loved you, girl, he loved you, more than you could ever know
He only longed to hold you and stroke that hair of red and gold.
He didn't deserve the things you did, so he took a dozen pills...
He loved you, girl, he loves you, and I know he always will.
Always will.

(verse 2)
She was on his mind for what must have been the millionth time that night,
another fight, another slight, so he walked toward the light.
Adam's Song was on repeat and smoke was in the air,
he left a note under the rug and I know 'cause I was there.
He carved her name into his headboard, more telling than the words he wrote,
a three-page, teary, God-forgive-me-I-couldn't-take-it suicide note.
He sank into a place between his happy dreams and times forgot,
and when he woke up in his hurl that girl was his first thought.

(chorus 1)
He loved you, girl, he loved you, more than you could ever know
He only longed to hold you and stroke that hair of red and gold.
He didn't deserve the things you did, so he took a dozen pills...
He loved you, girl, he loves you, and I know he always will.
Always will.

(musical interlude)

(chorus 1)
He loved you, girl, he loved you, more than you could ever know
He only longed to hold you and stroke that hair of red and gold.
He didn't deserve the things you did, so he took a dozen pills...
He loved you, girl, he loves you, and I know he always will.
Always will.

(chorus 2)
He loved you, girl, he loved you, more than you ever deserved.
He only longed to hold you, and lingered on your every word.
He didn't deserve the things you did, no longer cared to be alive...
He loved you, girl, he loves you, but you're lucky he survived.

He survived. (x4)

I survived.

First Try (demo)

The RuneScape prison guy who records sad songs he wrote in prison and isn't a good singer

You're here before I move from "no ground" to "underground." Congratulations

First Try (demo)

Josh Pillault