Preorder: https://curlrecordings.bandcamp.com/album/i-hate-it-here
More info: https://bit.ly/3bdZcCQ

The desire for transcendence affects us all. Led by pain and dissatisfaction, the struggles of being alive can only really be overcome in death. Author and writer Steph Kretowicz’s psychedelic audio narrative wanders through a layered and multi-dimensional notion of existence as suffering.

Ben Babbitt and felicita’s unsettling musical compositions lead this sonic trip through the atemporal influence of trauma and experience on a life, at a point where personal and cultural histories collide. Dispersed across London, Poland and Los Angeles, “I hate it here” dissolves time and location into the people and memories of the past that shape a person in the present. It touches on folk traditions throughout eras, and religious and spiritual practices across regions in a sometimes poignant, sometimes absurd tribute to the routines and rituals designed to fathom the unfathomable.

Steph Kretowicz with Ben Babbitt & felicita, 'I hate it here' (2021). Excerpt. Courtesy CURL x AQNB.

Mix by kayla reagan master by hector vega

Royal Blue Walls

Mimosa

lyrics: https://genius.com/albums/Heartstopmiami/Meow-2
this is the Shamu Calamità deluxe mixtape 'meow 2' which is also the sequel to my first mixtape meow. im putting this up on soundcloud as its own seperate thing,, enjoy: the cutest mixtape ever made, #meow2

'i0n feel like r0llin up' vid out now: https://youtu.be/3juIiGg4iyQ?feature=shared

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#TL
............01 tall betty prod miami
...........02 vibe check prod wstdyth
..........03 parentz prod feardorian & zion
.........04 fuck prod miami
........05 next week prod leo reimer 
.......06 i0n feel like r0lling up prod freger
........07 miami prod feardorian
.........08 girlh00d prod dep4rted 
..........09 zkinny betty prod tgwog & litothedon
...........10 an0ther 2 w/ dedenem prod wizardpem
............11 em0ti0n 2 prod bbyazul & inci0
.............12 i'ma wait till it'z a pr0blem
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shoutout 2 everyone that made this happen. and shoutout to whoever is listening. love yall
- miami

meow 2 (full tape) [MV IN DESC]

WRITTEN FOR DISPARATE, FINISHED FOR SPARKLE

lyrics:
what i wouldn't give to be you
what i wouldn't kill to see you
what i wouldn't live through to meet you
what i wouldn't taste to feel you

i would cry a million tears
i would pull out a million hairs
i would burn myself alive
if it meant i could see you standing there

i'd die for you to live
i'd die for you to breathe
i'd die for you to speak
i'd die for you

12 years spent a victim
my first taste of lust was a girl on a screen
it replays in my head
the worst decision i ever made

hours wasted in chat rooms pretending to be a girl on her knees
a girl on a screen for men much older than me
a life wasted obsessed with lust
no matter what i do or try
i never get away from it

i'd die for you to live
i'd die for you to breathe
i'd die for you to speak
i'd die for you

one thought and i'm down the spiral
one word and i'm the worst version of me
years spent trying to stop it
years wasted giving in

i wasted a life that wasn't my own
i look in the mirror and i hate it
someone else's meat on my bones
a suit that traps me inside
a beast locking me in

i'd die for you to live
i'd die for you to breathe
i'd for you to speak
i'd die for you

i dream of being you
i dream of being beautiful
i dream of being forgiven
i dream i deserve it

if i could rip off my skin
if i could rearrange my atoms
if i could do it all again
if i could die for you
i would

i'd die for you to live
i'd die for you to breathe
i'd die for you to speak
i'd die for you to smilie
i'd die for you to laugh
i'd die for you to dream
i'd die for you to sing
i'd die for you to fall in love
i'd die for you to fuck
i'd die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you
i'll die for you

FOR YOU (GIRL ON THE SCREEN)

The 1

XO TOUR LLIF3

I DID THIS FOR US

Demo from like march I cant finish this

Let em get jealous watching us
All alone naked sparks
And when they close ill take u home
Cuz I know who u are
When we walk the line
Head on my shoulder cuz we know its hard
Couldnt change my mind
Im forever dancing in ur heart
And I get jealous watching us
All alone in the dark
Dont need to sell my soul just to know who u are
They want what we got
Ohhhh
Couldnt change my mind
Im forever dancing in your heart

In the dark (demo)

'Point A'
SoundCloud only.

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This one’s for U . . .
		. . . but U gotta look into my eyes first . . . 

I want you to be mad you didn’t think of it
I want you to want to keep the plastic
I want you to extract the acapella
I want you to feel like you can grasp it

I want that Poplife walk right talk nice
I want that first-class New York to Japan flight
I use my God-given name more than the one you call me
I didn’t have a choice， you didn’t earn the right

I’m in six figures of debt to multiple parties
I don’t regret anything more than making Johnny johnny
I can’t wait no more， cut the room in half — 
Girls to the front， boys to the back！ 

I split myself in two，  accidentally gave it all to U
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back

I split myself in two，  I didn’t mean to give it all to U
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back

I . . . O . . . U！ 

I split myself in two，  accidentally gave it all to U
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back
Get your phones out， I like how it looks from the back

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Written and recorded in Chicago IL， San Francisco CA， Los Angeles CA， Brooklyn NY， Queens NY.

FOR YOU (GIRL ON THE SCREEN)

PIPEDRAIN

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