take my heart <3

www.carlbymusic.com
Featuring @burylilac
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
Rock bottom
Lower than I’ve ever been
Only hanging on for the sake of my friends
‘Cause I got people who depend on me
And a couple bad habits like dependency

I worry ‘bout my mom
How she’d get on without me
I wonder a lot if you’d still think about me
Only hanging on just to spite those who doubt me
So throw me a rope because I feel like I’m drowning

I’m running out of ways to say this
I hate who I’ve been
Need to make changes
I’ve lost all motivation
Along with my patience
Too long I have waited

I’m running out of ways to say
That I hate myself
Wish that I could change
I think it’s for the best
You and I stay estranged
You wouldn’t recognize the shell I’ve become these days

(lilac heart)
Rock bottom
I’m running out of ways to say
I miss the way you’d get under my skin
Breaking bottles broken glass
Is all that’s left of my ‘lil head
I don’t even know where all the time went

I fell asleep in the snow
And woke up burning on the sidewalk
Take this away before I hurt someone
Try to cover the pain
The broken shards are showing through the holes I burnt into my sleeves

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Rock Bottom w/ lilac heart (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

**SOUNDCLOUD TOOK DOWN THIS SONG ALONG WITH A FEW OTHERS BECAUSE OF A BUG, AND REUPLOADED WITHOUT ANY LIKES**

prod. Boyfifty

Lyrics - 

when i walked back home
on that frostbit night
and the wind hit cold
while my chest felt tight

i was so distraught
fixating on your lies
i wrote this song
to get my thoughts aligned

amazed how I
couldn’t see the
truth behind
all your reasons

wait for a sign 
I can breathe
I’ll be alright 
if you keep me

hello?
could you please me help me dear
i know
I’m not the most sincere

below
my failing self esteem
come home
I need you next to me

(peaky blinders scene in the break)

frostbit (prod. boyfifty)

as real as it gets

HYSTERIC

crooks & castles

prod. eeryskies

dream out
what’s that sound

i don’t recognize you baby 
you’re not who you used to be as of lately
lately missing you on the daily
even next to me i’m missing you greatly
not sure what to say
i’m really hating what you putting on display
i dunno what you did but i hate what you changed
and ever since then i haven’t given a bouquet 
new make up an ache of 
someone else did i mess up
am i really with the person that i once loved 
every time i ask you that you just brush off 
you say enough, you say i’m dumb 
ignorant to love, then bite your tongue
don’t cry to me, yeah you have a mum 
i don’t wanna talk now then i go numb 

forget who you once were
i’m sure that you’re unsure
but that is my answer 
i’m nothing more than an actor 
so dance, dance 
you are in my hands
now meet my demands
you are now my man 

forget who you once were
i’m sure that you’re unsure
but that is my answer 
i’m nothing more than an actor 
so dance, dance 
you are in my hands
now meet my demands
you are now my man

dance

Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin
Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin

It's been a long day
I got so much on my mind
So many things I could say
But none of it seems like
It ever really mattered
As long as I see you after
She makes me feel better
She would swallow me if I let her
We can do this night
After night
After night yeah
Watching all the stars in the sky
Shining bright like
She makes all the pain go away
Tell the doctor
I just want to vent to her
I'm afraid that she's an imposter

Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin
Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin

Babygirl
You got me fucked up
Fucked up
Got me thinking about what's love
What's love
Like what's love got to do with this
Cupid and his foolishness
Self sabotaging tendencies
It tends to get ahead of me
Does it stretch beyond horizons
Can I put it in autopilot
Is it really unconditional
Does it seep into your subliminal

Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin
Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin

herloveisadrugfromthefuture

A bootleg of Moonbeam by Goldielocks.

Check out the original here!
https://soundcloud.com/goldielockstunes/moonbeam

as real as it gets

love jai

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