sorry for the late upload out on spotify now

https://open.spotify.com/album/4igXLiY4esguSrOa2WHLMx?si=37FLOWh9SQWWTnm7_zRtNg

recorded by me
mixed by @everettlatte

lyrics:
Memories are fading
Memories are fading
Memories are fading
Memories are fading
Memories are fading
Memories are fading
Memories are fading
Mom Jaidens making hyperpop again

Our memories are fading
I don't wanna wait and
You tell me you love but I know you don't
I wake up sick and shaking
Sometimes I cry from breaking
I think i'm the only one ill let in real close
And girl I take the blame
Girl I take the blame

Don't regret a single thing that I said that night
We'll move onto better things when the time feels right
I heard you got a new man
Don't wanna know what he's like
I hope he's making you smile
I guess ill never know
Yeah and honestly it kills me
That you wont know the real me
Its why I put my pain and heart inside the songs
But go ahead girl put the blame on me
I don't understand why they hate on me
I show love more than I get it that shit puts a toll on me
Im so tired of feeling weak
I wake up sick its killing me
I know I said its all for you but now I do this shit for me

I'm so tired of feeling weak
I'm so tired of
I'm so tired of
I'm so tired of feeling weak
I'm so tired of
I'm so tired of
I'm so tired of feeling weak
I'm so tired of
I'm so tired of
I'm so tired of feeling weak
I'm so tired of
I'm i'm i'm i'm

BLAME

spotify

BLAME (p. lilbiscuit)

out everywhere 
@plslovejai socials
lyrics below

You say that your done with me again
I don't wanna run or play pretend
You wanna hold me down
Cause i'm coming up
Girl I hate this town
It's just not enough
I keep on falling short
But i'm reaching far
And i'm so damn high
They all say ima star

You really changed me
Can't tell if it was for the best or for the worst I know
I can feel my heart sink from my chest I hope that it still work
I don't know if this is really everything I wanted
I fell apart as soon as you left my apartment
Oh you know I won't let it go
I think i'm fucked up
I cant feel a thing when someone tell me that they love me
It's when I started doing me everyone acted funny
I'm running
I think i'm up to something
Oo whoa
Tell me that you need me but I know damn well you don't
Oooo
Tell me something I don't know
Oooo

You say that your done with me again
I don't wanna run or play pretend
You wanna hold me down
Cause i'm coming up
Girl I hate this town
It's just not enough
I keep on falling short
But i'm reaching far
And i'm so damn high
They all say ima star

FALLING SHORT

FALLING SHORT [number48+northeast lights]

I'll waste my time if it's wasted on you
I don't wanna sink alone
And your not mine but you're so damn fine
Why does it feel right when it's so wrong
I'm stuck inside my head again
Think I need my medicine
Ashing on your windowsill
I'm hardly making any sense
Saying things I never meant
And you're so filled up with regret
Tell me what the fuck is next
Cause your someone I can't forget

Ooo
Ooo
Guess I gotta let you go
But tell me why the fuck is it always my fault
They always break my heart
And I never know the cause
I can't handle new scars
So I'm always running far

I'm always running from
Those things you say you want
Picking up again
I got a brand new scar
Got a brand new heart
Come and take it all
Leave me hurt again its probably all my fault
It's always all my fault
I fucking hate those songs
I'm losing everything i'm breaking
I don't want you gone
Tell me anything that I can do to make it stop
I been waiting here alone for fucking way too long
So tell me all about how you been waiting for it
I wanted innocent love you wanna leave me damaged
So tell me all about how you been waiting for it
I wanted innocent love you wanna leave me damaged

Ooo
Ooo
Guess I gotta let you go
But tell me why the fuck is it always my fault
They always break my heart
And I never know the cause
I cant handle new scars
So i'm always running far
Don't know what I need but I know what I want yeah yeah
Still feel empty nothings enough gotta get it all I know

ALWAYS MY FAULT

ALWAYS MY FAULT w/ ghoul_001 [lilbiscuit]

Hop in that whip and I go
Sorry not sorry I don't know ya
It's a cold world need a coat
Cant say I aint warn ya
I get high til the sun up
Like Mario I got the one up
Tell me something that I don't know
They be bugging bout a follow
I don't care for tomorrow
Shawty suck and then swallow
Swerve and dodge all the potholes
I don't wanna go back broke
This that time I been waiting on
This that shit they been waiting on

Uh
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Hop in that whip and I go
Sorry not sorry I don't know ya
It's a cold world need a coat
Cant say I aint warn ya
I get high til the sun up
Like Mario I got the one up
Tell me something that I don't know
They be bugging bout a follow
I don't care for tomorrow
Shawty suck and then swallow
Swerve and dodge all the potholes
I don't wanna go back broke
This that time I been waiting on
This that shit they been waiting on
I'm boutta blow I'm really gone
Tell me what you want yeah
I'm going coast to coast
Gotta baddie on me and I hold her throat
Too much pressure on me I won't overflow
I cant sink so I guess ima buy a boat
I work hard for this
I lost my heart got scars for it
I started with my brothers but now we just on some other shit yeah
People change things too I can't be mad at you
Fuck it though ima get it all and I know its true
Ima do what you do I won't pick up your call
But that don't mean I don't want you at all
I'm too busy from summer to fall
I look ahead so I won't ever fall
They want me dead so I smile and awe
I see your fake I don't need you at all
No no no
No no no

Mario I had to one up
I'm getting coin bitch I gotta big sum
Like it I gotta get one
I'm counting blues all night til the sun up
Big bag gotta chase it
I had to dub I think that she basic
Big blunt gotta face it
Headshot got blood on my Asics
I been coast to coast I might hit New York for a night or sum
I been in LA stepping out in Christian Louboutin
Jai just hit my phone and new hopping out a foreign car
Rolled up in the whip and now we in the strip smoking tar

ONE UP

ONE UP w/ ghoul_001 [greentop]

(: <3 lyrics below

I know you see me
You check up on me now and then we're stuck in repeat
One week we're fine the next we're not you love to break me
I don't feel good right now ooo
Right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Oh right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Oh right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

I don't feel good now
But baby ill put it behind me
She just pulled up to the party and i'm in the corner where no one can find me
I'd rather would keep to myself
I'm not the type to be following blindly
I don't need anyones help
Fuck it I lied man i'm practically dying
And I know she never cared
She just wants a couple dollars
I don't know why the fuck I bother
And to be honest girl i'm scared
If I keep going down this path then ill end up just like my father
And I know she never cared
She just wants a couple dollars
I don't know why the fuck I bother
And to be honest girl i'm scared
If I keep going down this path then ill end up just like my father

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

I don't feel good now I hate it by myself
And my mom is telling me that I should get some help
Couple pills to start I learned to play the part
And lately I been thinking I might break apart
And I know he never cared
He was all that I needed and i'm just taking the bleeding and I
Wanted to tell you it ain't fair
I hope it hurts when you see me
I won't be there when you need me and I

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

i dont feel good

i dont feel good (feat. kennedyxoxo & skele) [p. irby]

i jus wish i cud go back //: (p. recycleBin)

And
You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

Moral of the story everyday I'm on the same shit
I don't wanna talk about a thing it aint gone fix it
Oh no
Tell me what the fuck is going on cause I don't know bro
I keep holding on just by a thread this shit a tight rope
The voices in my head said ima be dead no matter where I go
So that's why I get high it help me balance out my lows
But if you ask me why ima tell you I don't know
I don't know yeah yeah

You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

I'm just doing me
Could give a fuck what they think
Paranoid in public
Dropping E in my drink
Yeah I'm rolling now
Rolling round not coming down
I don't fuck with people
Always falling out
I can see your see through
Oh you think I need you
You must be confused
I just need the chemicals
Tweaking in the restroom
I hope that it ends soon
Stacking money staying true
That's like all I can do

You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

highs & lows

spoitfy

highs & lows w/ hamilton (p. methboiswag+frevel+roxa)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNKk6XIzsdA
mixed by me 
produced by king theta

lyrics: 
I'm still holding on to everything you left
Watch where I go I'll watch my steps
Like an angel hanging on your shoulder
Watch the time go by until your older
I won't rest till you really get the message
I'm a mess but I hardly ever stress it
You can do better if you just give it a second
But I don't got a second

Yeah Ooo
It's always the back and forth and I'm so fucking over it
I hate the fact I'm far from home it's hard to stomach this
If you don't wanna leave me alone then why ya do it then
I'm not even sad this time I already knew how the story end
But I still wish this shit would never end
I won't act like I'm not hurt cause I don't like to play pretend
I got used to losing friends but you was like my best friend
I won't give another girl my all it's just a lesson
Yeah

Yeah Ooo
It's always the back and forth and I'm so fucking over it
I hate the fact I'm far from home it's hard to stomach this
If you don't wanna leave me alone then why ya do it then
I'm not even sad this time

like an angel on your shoulder

like an angel on your shoulder (music video out) [p. kingtheta]

if we died, would our ghosts fw each other?

this city is a monster

this city is a monster (feat. hamilton) [p. stay woozy]

written/recorded/mixed/mastered by me
produced by 1wayza

if we got a problem then say that
look me in my eyes we go way back
look me in my eyes
see whats real, lotta shit i need
wont know how close i am til its done lets get it

im like okay man just say we got a problem
dont beat around the bush you know that aint got solve none
she step inside im counting big blues whoa
bitch step aside if i dont know you oh
okay okay
yeah lets talk about for a second
i been going hard all year i dont think that they got the message  
cant say that this not impressive
i got the world all on my shoulder 
dont feel pressure
she wanna love me now
first she suck den wipe me down
boy keep up i wont slow down
i was playing nice at first i dont care if they like me now

switch the chapter
change the story
dont care for happy ever after 
oh they wanna tell me this and that but it dont matter
and once i leave the room i bet theres hella chatter
i dont wanna talk about him or her my bitch is so much badder
okay heres a fun fact
i been half assing this shit for so damn long im done wit that
thats on my mother on my soul i wont go out bad
always stressing bout the shit i dont have or never had
thank god im done with that
oh this shit insane yea
all this shit the same oh
how you claim to put me on
if i aint even fucking on
oh they cant do the shit i do i guess that means im 1of1
and i got some more shit to prove ill put the hook back wen im done
this shit is as real as it gets i wouldnt lie to you
everybody showing they true colors they got different sides
momma say im super wise stop letting all this shit slide
everybody think they him i promise youre not that guy
when he talk tough on the net we get him minimized
and i dont know whats next but im unimpressed with everything in life
i been touchin money
since a youngin
like its nothing
i can tell whos fake
from a mile away
i know yo ass bluffing and
if im not getting paid for dis
i swear theres no discussion
i wont question if im made for this
i know that i got something
bitch i run it up
i run it up
i could save the world
and ill still feel like i aint did enough
this shit aint adding up
2+2 bitch i swear im not 4 everyone
who is you 
i told bro go head and get my gun
i just wanna touch a million
i dont really give two fucks for how these niggas feeling
yea

fuck ur feelings i need this more than ever [p. 1wayza]

mixed/mastered by me 
produced by everestdidthis

lyrics:

you built a wall up made of stone
ill break it down one by one girl you know i would 
oh yea i would
you're pretty little mistake i always love to make 
just wanna catch my breath i hardly ever catch a break
i'm always running in the circle never give or take 
its all or nothing and right now you know i'm on the way

I cant help it
Im going psycho
ripping out my skin to cover where my eyes go
cross my heart and pray to end i never die slow
we all get whats coming in the end don't be surprised hoe
I cant help it
i i i i 
I cant help it 
Im going psycho
Im going Im going
Im going psycho psycho psycho

Ill see you when in a coffin
Holding back why are we fighting
Truth be told I never liked it
You are so conniving 
come on lets get piping
Run on and on
Con another pawn
Off my chest 
Girl if i'm cold you're common cause
Burn me up tonight
We're all meant to die

I cant help it
Im going psycho
ripping out my skin to cover where my eyes go
cross my heart and pray to end i never die slow
we all get whats coming in the end don't be surprised hoe
I cant help it
i i i i 
I cant help it 
Im going psycho
Im going Im going
Im going psycho psycho psycho

i cant help it

i cant help it (feat. jomie) [p. everestdidthis]

MV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zs4pvuT55i8

recorded, written, mixed & mastered by me
produced by my good friends @back2thapast & @user-551713846

the feeling isnt something i cant get over
u keep bitching bout some muhfuckin closure
think its hard now just wait until ur older
i couldnt tell u the last time i had a shoulder
oh oh oh 
they wanna lean on me
circle tighter than a bitch there aint no between
say she love me and cant take it dont know what it means
i only do this for momma me and my team
And the sun keeps going down every time that I wake up I hate it now
I keep having these nightmares I never get my dreams
They keep saying I feel you but its not what it seems
You dont want no one to hear you but I just wanna scream
Every night I pray to god im getting scars on my knees
Okay im done im knodding off
there aint really that much here for me not at all
ooo
ay ay ay
one step
whenever i take one  
its like two back 
couldnt give a shit about 
if i dont need dat 
looking for yo girl 
she here in knee pads
oh i got problems but this money isnt one
she say omg you changed 
i dont know who you done become
need it all i want it all
no I aint talking about some
ha and I know that im wasting time bitch im dumb
and wen she talking too damn much i put some cocaine on her tongue
money comes money goes bitch ill spend it while im young
i feel like im not me bitch I dont know where im from
pissed off walking in the street arms crossed
if lifes a game im at the part you fight the big boss
i left my mom and dad for something i might never get
and you wouldnt understand this shit unless you in the mix
said the sun keeps going down every time that I wake up I hate it now
whoa whoa yea

VitaminD

vitaminD (music video out) [p. back2thapast+noahmadethiss]

recorded by @hammy & I 
mixed by @hammy
produced by @remghost & @irby314

in my sleep i toss n turn
pressure what i burn
i stay on the edge but i dont like to wait my turn
all the lessons that i learned dont really mean a fucking thing
& no matter where im at i always seem to come around to you
to you
bae lemme take a lil more im not having fun yet
i always say some shit i didnt mean to get you upset
if thats the way it is im sorry that im such a mess

was it something that i said
or was it just me
try to play me like im dumb you might end up six feet
cause i dont play nice you cant walk all over me
now im stepping out the door you gonna miss me when i live
but i wont miss you burning bridges fall through
mixing medicine inside my cup its who i talk to
cause i know that i aint perfect i got plenty lose screws
plenty trust issues i dont know whats true

in my sleep i toss n turn
pressure what i burn
i stay on the edge but i dont like to wait my turn
all the lessons that i learned dont really mean a fucking thing
& no matter where im at i always seem to come around to you
to you
bae lemme take a lil more im not having fun yet
i always say some shit i didnt mean to get you upset
if thats the way it is im sorry that im such a mess

toss n turn

toss n turn (feat. hamilton) [p. remghost+irby]

thank you to everyone that had a hand in this and for everyone who has been listening and showing support. I didnt know what to put for the genre since its a bunch of different ones so i chose pop idffk lol.

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Love Jai

life sucks but at least you make it fun (feat. spookybands) [p. king theta]

You light a cigarette and sit at your desk
Im always tripping over something they don't know i'm a mess
I hate the fact that I can only fall asleep on my chest
And I would try to save us both but I would run out of breath
And i'm pacing back and forth I hate my bad decisions
Just talked to the devil about the way that I been living

He said i'm sorry that you feel this way
You keep on talking to the sky what else can god say
But what about a little break or two that I really need
It doesn't feel like I been breaking through like they all see
I cant stand a single sight of me inside of the mirror
I don't know whats got inside of me the x ray aint clear yet

You can throw my blood on the wall
Hate these fucking withdrawals
I wanna spill my fucking brain until my thoughts dissolve
Im hiding skeletons in closets bet you'll never find it
OCD I stack em up real neat and then I climb it
Oh yeah i'm hot & cold one sketchy move could change my climate
She said I done lost my mind I told her help me find it whoa

i lost my mind :0

i lost my mind :0 [p. saint mike]

<3 

tilting over like the pictures on your wall
i didnt wanna meet your mom and dad they didnt like me at all
somehow they liked me oh
down the line its you and me now that dont get along and
somethings arent always better than nothing
your love is like the ocean and i just wanna jump in
relationships and me they hardly ever work
im tryna keep my balance i just keep slipping first

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

oh oh oh
so is it important to you cause god knows this shits important to me
and i lost every part of me trynna be what they want me to be
theres a war inside my head lately i just want peace
so is it annoying i keep falling cant stand on my two damn feet
i tried a thousand of times im at a thousand and one
i wanna blow my fucking brains but i dont own a gun
none of this is fun

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

<3

disgusted with myself

DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF [p. king theta]

out everywhere. thank u 4 the support. lyrics below<3

Yeah
It's a new me but i'm still the same without you
Yeah yeah
Can you hold me
Oo whoa
It don't even matter what I do
I try and try and try and try

Yeah and I know you better than that
You're hiding your phone from me now
Girl tell me who's that on your snap whoa
I guess i'm the bad guy
Can you stop the game I need a halftime
I can't feel a thing i'm boutta flatline
She keep running round inside of my mind
Yeah whoa
In a room full of friends I still feel alone
Don't know who I am don't know where to go
And when I build you up you break me down
It's hard as fuck to keep you round
Don't know who I am anymore I don't know where to go
She tell me i'm changing
Baby I feel like i'm falling apart
Bitch I keep on breaking
You can't fix this with conversation no
Wake up it's the same shit oh
Go to bed and then i'm pissed off
I don't wanna be the bitter one but it's hard around everyone

Yeah ooo
Yeah ooo
Oh no no no
No no no no no whoa

Girl I still feel the tension
Stop saying shit you never meant then
Going one way down the wrong way
This time I think I learned my lesson oh whoa
And no I won't deny the way you looking in my eyes
You got me going crazy all night I won't lie
Oh no no no no no
No no no no no no
No no no no no no

<3

The Bitter One

the bitter one [p. king theta]

<3

MV: https://youtube.com/watch?v=qowJksscrsU&feature=share

ill take a step back
before i take two
scott & romana 
when i look at you
6 in the morning 
you look at me confused
i wipe the crust out from ya eyes
before u leave wit no goodbye
this life of mine
ooo 
ooo
i wipe the crust out from ya eyes
before u leave wit no goodbye

i dont have faith in myself
dead flower plant on the shelf
i scream n shout fucking belt
u know i dont want ur help
she hates the sound of her voice
i hate the way i look
nevermind the way that i talk
im overlooked from the start 
theyre quick to judge my big heart 
im quick too shut myself off
and you said
ill never find someone like you
is that supposed to hurt me
i just hope one day you see my pov
oh yeah yeah
hope one day you see my pov
ooo whoa
if im the worst then youre the best
if youre the best then im the worst
sit at the disk from day to day
i swear to god itll never work
yeah shes the blessing
im the curse
i got some lessons
i should learn
this life of mine
aint coming first 
ill start again 
to try and make it sure
oh ooo
ooo whoa

<3

this life of mine

this life of mine [p. king theta] *MV in bio*

thank you lyrics below<3

Chops
I see you reaching out
You cant help me
Can you tell me where we going baby I cant read a sign
My fingertips are turning blue I cant hold on longer to you
And you keep telling me your mine but baby I don't think its true
She like whoa oh oh yeah this a different side of you
Im like whoa oh yeah girl your true colors are bleeding through
Oh oh oh
I wish it wasn't how it is but I cant take it back
Remove myself from everything i'm somehow still attached
I don't want no wedding ring and I cant deal with that
Always lying to my face when I just want the facts
Feel like dancing with the devil but we just playing tag
Walking with my head down
Im missing my friend now
Some nights I just cry myself to sleep when theres no one around
Don't want no one to notice me or think that i'm the clown
I already know it I don't need yo ass to help me out
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Ah ah ah oh oh oh oh oh
Im boutta crash out
I don't wanna crash out
Im boutta crash out
I don't wanna crash out

Chops

Yeah zip tied, keep my heart together
You like to waste time when I get over obsessed
Get high to forget about a flight I gotta take next
Get a rush when you hate on me and send texts to my friends
Yeah I like when you fuck up and lose all your connections
Its just how it happens baby
Sit on the rooftop watch the cigarettes crush hours
You only five seven how the fuck could you get more shallow
Plus your anemic so you really gotta keep your shit balanced
Out of control now
Breaking shit in your own house
Pretty face with a bad mouth
With your friends getting blacked out
It don't matter what we say now
My phone at like eight percent now
I hope it die and you freak out
I got your texts turning green now

bad mouth

BAD MOUTH (feat. spookybands) [p. methboiswag]

thannk u <3

She said check my pulse rate baby its a mistake
I only feel the good thoughts on a bad day
I can't find whatever the fuck I need to make me happy
Chasing highs to remember feelings I lost

It's okay if you hate on me
I get paid either way you see
Shawty wanna act like she chosen
She don't even know where she going
I mind my business I'm bout all my digits I just wanna get to the racks
Yea the game is a marathon it's not a race
But I promise yo ass I ain't coming in last
Sorry my bad
Need to get off yo ass and go get u a bag
Go put ya foot on the gas
You don't wanna be that person sad as hell when they looking back
Ooo

You better catch up
Boy you better catch up
Next one to play with my heart I swear to god gonna be on a stretcher
Huh messed up baby I'm so messed up
Sick inside the brain like I'm fried
She don't even know me wanna

Gimme the sauce
I got the recipe
Give u my all
Until I rest in peace
Can't feel my jaw right now
I can hardly speak
Yeah she take what she from me
Depending on her day and mood
Lost all my privacy
I ain't trying hard to be no wannabe
Don't matter what I want
Girl thats just the way it's gotta be
I keep losing my mind every time you try n talk to me
The only time you hit my line
Is wen u think I got something for you
That's why you wanna waste my time
And thats not something I got left to lose

until i rest in peace

UNTIL I REST IN PEACE [p. methboiswag+insoo+silver]

<3<3<3

*fire movie quote* (if u know it ily)

okay
broken on the inside
i been looking for somebody that i wont find
help me
yeah only if you dont mind
think the only thing im good at
is jus wasting time
its okay smoke a blunt on a bad day
i got problems with this bitch that i wont ever say 
im so tired of all the shit you do
itll be a cold day in hell when i talk to you

yeah buckle up
lifes a rollercoaster ima sitting duck
just like a chicken wit no head
lil bitch i run amuck 
and i got the same kicks from highschool
aint change much
im jus speaking my heart
they all tryna be cool
we dont do it for the same reasons
i want different outcomes
you want money cars clothes
i wanna feel good alone
only child tryna make his momma proud
oh
everybody here from time to time they let me down
yeah
thought i told yo ass before dont call me
waking up on the floor like a zombie
waiting on her to go ghost and come and haunt me
im convinced that no one here really wants me
and thats a problem of my own dont think ill ever fix
sick inside my fucking head im boutta make a wish
as of lately i dont think that i could ever miss
tongue tied hearts fried
blame it on the past times
ohhh
time been moving slow
and i dont know where to go 
yeah ooo
and thats a problem of my own dont think ill ever fix!

okay
broken on the inside
i been looking for somebody that i wont find
help me
yeah only if you dont mind
think the only thing im good at
is jus wasting time
its okay smoke a blunt on a bad day
i got problems with this bitch that i wont ever say 
im so tired of all the shit you do
itll be a cold day in hell when i talk to you

COLD DAY IN HELL [p. back2thapast]

feat @kennedysucks lyrics below<3

Oh yeah
I can be alone if i want
It'll only take a second i can tell you when i'm done
Shawty too conceited oh hell yeah i mean it
Can i get my heart back really i don't need it
Swear she drive me crazy til my tank on E 
Take what you want from me
Fuck it
Focused on the bigger picture large amounts
Soon as i get that bitch i swear to god i'm cashing out
Hop in that whip i start that shit and throw the key yea
I need a spliff i'm rolling straight up out the bowl
Boutta dive inside the water head first
Geronimo 
They cant tell which one is harder
This or the last idk oh oh
Bitch i'm sick as fuck i feel like i'm Kim possible
I race to the money and i break down every obstacle
Bitch ill make you next to go
Don't play with me go play with bro
You can cross the line but after that 
The shits a tight rope 
Tight rope tight rope
You can cross the line but after that 
The shits a tight rope 
Yeah yeah oh
You can cross the line but after that 
The shits a tight rope 

She can cross the line i swear to god there aint no happy ending
Does she love me does she love me not you really had me guessing
Was it worth it
That shit hurt a lot before i learned my lesson
No ones perfect but i'm working hard to not lose your attention
What is love
I'm just sick of always feeling broken hearted
I need to toughen up
She asked me whats wrong don't even get me started 
Suck it up
One day ill have everything i ever wanted
Run it up
For every single time i was disregarded
Cause honestly if i was superman you'd be my Lois lane
I'm constantly writing love letters to you this is so insane
A sign of Kennedy hugs and kisses
Swear one day they gonna know his name
I'll make it better we'll be together
I don't want you to go away

I can be alone if i want
It'll only take a second i can tell you when i'm done
Shawty too conceited oh hell yeah i mean it
Can i get my heart back really i don't need it
Swear she drive me crazy til my tank on E 
Take what you want from me
Fuck it
Focused on the bigger picture large amount
Soon as i get that bitch i swear to god i'm cashing out
Hop in that whip i start that shit and throw the key yea
I need a spliff i'm rolling straight up out the bowl
Boutta dive inside the water head first
Geronimo 
They cant tell which one is harder
This or the last idk oh oh
Bitch i'm sick as fuck i feel like i'm Kim possible
Bitch i'm bitch i'm bitch i'm sick as fuck I feel like oh oh oh
Bitch i'm sick as fuck i feel like i'm Kim possible
Bitch i'm sick as fuck i feel like i'm Kim possible
Oh oh oh
Hop in that whip i start that shit and throw the key yea
I need a spliff i'm rolling straight up out the bowl
Boutta dive inside the water head first
Geronimo 
They cant tell which one is harder
This or the last idk oh oh
Bitch i'm sick as fuck i feel like i'm Kim possible
I race to the money and i break down every obstacle

KIM POSSIBLE (feat. kennedyxoxo) [p. ayeitsnate]

<3
i cut up our pictures
theyll never last
and even tho i miss you
im never coming back oh

she call me im insensitive
i never mean to hurt tho
she say ima hermit
whatevers coming
i deserve it bro
i smell something burning
the bridges down
and the tables turned
i feel so uncomfortable
no matter what its head to toe
i still got her pheromones
i keep putting her jacket on
ask me how im feeling
i jus fake a smile and knod it off

so im tossing and turning our bridge burnt down
can you gimme one good reason i should stick around yeah
no i wont give you one goodbye
dont know whats ahead of me
so i wont take no ones advice
dont project your shit up onto me
i dont know what i wanna be
and i dont care whos that fond of me
this shit right here is my everything
i need a pen and paper to tell you
all the things i sacrificed in my life for this
itd be a long list with a lot of bullshit right now that i really miss

so tell me what the fuck you mean
i wear my heart all on my sleeve
i open up to everyone i ever meet
and then they always fucking leave
except the last one yeah thats all my fault
i wont blame anyone but myself
i cant drag you down with me if i dont make it outta this fucking hell
that dont mean i dont miss your smile
or the way you looked in my eyes
how the fuck you calling me selfish i was worried bout you the whole time
dont put your faith in me
im a bad bet to gamble with
dancing with the devil at your door with the candle lit woo
issa cold world tell me what your living for
i see the signs everywhere its too hard to ignore
and i hate myself enough for the both of us
just let me go
i swear to god this is never what i wanted
hit my phone i let it ring
sabotaging everything
yeah i lost my best friend and a part of me
i wont see again
still holding on to the last bits
ill make sure the last pieces fit
fucked up in my head but i know one day it wont mean shit

the good the bad and the ugly

THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY [p. recyclebin+irby]

think sum wrong wit me >.< 


I don't want my heart back it aint what i need
Tryna stay off my phone this shit feel like a disease
And i hate it when i'm home baby i feel lonely
Even when im with my friends I don't feel right
Think somethings wrong with me
Me me me me me
Ooo whoa
Me me me me me
Yeah yeah
Me me me me me
Ooo whoa 
Yeah yeah
Think somethings wrong with me
I cant love myself enough
I been trying for forever but forevers getting tough
Tough tough tough
Yeah yeah Ooo 

Yeah I dont 
Feel okay when im by myself
And you wont
Change a thing i been trying for forever but forevers getting tough
Okay this feeling isnt that new
I dont like my body so i fill it up with tattoos
She like oh my god jai youre so damn mean
Really i just have a hard time tryna tell you what i mean
We just did a show last night that shit was packed out
I just met this hoe a bit ago and now her ass out
They keep tryna steal some swag from me
And you can try your hardest but this fabric isnt cheap omg
Dont think i need what i want
Dont think. i want what i need
I think im starting to go numb
Keep on waiting for her texts 
And in twiddling my thumbs wtf 
Cant keep her eyes off me
I been high for seven days i been high all weak yeah
Play it cool
You couldnt walk a mile in my shoes I bet you wouldnt move

I don't want my heart back it aint what i need
Tryna stay off my phone this shit feel like a disease
And i hate it when i'm home baby i feel lonely
Even when im with my friends I don't feel right
Think somethings wrong with me
Me me me me me
Ooo whoa
Me me me me me
Yeah yeah
Me me me me me
Ooo whoa 
Yeah yeah
Think somethings wrong with me
I cant love myself enough
I been trying for forever but forevers getting tough
Tough tough tough
Yeah yeah Ooo

DISEASE

DISEASE [p. methboiswag+kacie free]

PUNCHING BAG album soon<3

working like i got a twin
in this life all ik is sin
bitch so bad i can say tht she a ten
idc for this n that im tryna c us all win
dont mind me im just doing what i can
oh im her plan A this bitch dont want a plan B
keep my circle tight tight so im sticking to the family
u gonn need a shovel in this bitch to understand me
its not in my blood to be like anyone else
i guess we raised different 
i want that crib for my momma
i want that whip for my dad
oh i might do ya slimey
i might jus take what ya have
dont give a fuck if ur proud of me
im not satisfied with anything 
the pressure surrounding me
i can feel behind the closed doors
they talking down on me 
hows it my fault that i want more
i hope you never count on me 
for all the times they doubted me 
and counted me out 
you needa push ya pride away
and get ya ego in check 
i cant wait ona better day 
i dont know whats come next
dont hit me with no bullshit
ion give a fuck bout respect
i can make yo ass a full list 
of all the ways u a bitch
everytime they hear my lil voice
they like here he go again
hot hot hot hot
u needa stop cuz u getting played
wen i met her she was fanned out
nowadays shit changed oh

HERE WE GO AGAIN [p. ugly beats]

put some smoke up in the air
i already know that life aint fair
she keep asking why it seem like i aint never care
say you love me now u dont know when i want be here
only thing i fear in life
is dying broke thats on my momma
i dont have to think bout that twice
i know that this is all i want
i dont give a fuck bout playing nice
for the game or the image
or to god damn flaunt
keep on talking from my heart
came a long way from the start man
i keep getting high jus to balance out my lows
she keep asking why and i tell her i dont know

you can miss me with all that he say she say
baby pullup on the weekday eat me oooo
and you know it you know it you know it fasho
i pull up big bag on me like ho ho
i couldnt ever go switch on my bro
yeah she love me all and never jus some
ahhh she lemme hit cuz she know im the one
you can get her back wen im done
chasing this money only time i run
crushed up on top of my tongue
fucked up jus tryna have fun
and my eyelids weigh a ton
baby i do what i want so i

put some smoke up in the air
i already know that life aint fair
she keep asking why it seem like i aint never care
say you love me now u dont know when i want be here
only thing i fear in life
is dying broke thats on my momma
i dont have to think bout that twice
i know that this is all i want
i dont give a fuck bout playing nice
for the game or the image
or to god damn flaunt
keep on talking from my heart
came a long way from the start man
i keep getting high jus to balance out my lows
she keep asking why and i tell her i dont know

LOVE ME WHILE IM HERE

LOVE ME WHILE IM HERE [p. janekbueno]

You can catch me in our messages
Where she don't reply
I shoulda seen this coming I'm a pessimist
And I don't know why
So baby hold on
Don't let me go too soon
She wont believe anything that I got to say
So I got more to prove
All the silence kills me slowly
Can you be honest for once do you still want me
Cause you don't seem to care at all
Would you pick up if I called
Cause its not easy giving up on you the way that you give up on me

Oh oh
I'm not sorry for the way that I am
I'm fine being an idiot for you
I had you in my hands but you slipped right through
It wasn't part of the plan but what else can I do
Except wait and wait and wait and wait and wait oh yeah
Except wait and wait hate waiting on you

You can catch me in our messages
Where she don't reply
I shoulda seen this coming I'm a pessimist
And I don't know why
So baby hold on
Don't let me go too soon
She wont believe anything that I got to say
So I got more to prove
All the silence kills me slowly
Can you be honest for once do you still want me
Cause you don't seem to care at all
Would you pick up if I called
Cause its not easy giving up on you the way that you give up on me

THE AWKWARD SILENCE IS SO LOUD

THE AWKWARD SILENCE IS SO LOUD [p. backyard]

prod. silver+methboiswag

Cant get you out my head
Was it something that I said
I know I can be too much sometimes
Sometimes less is more
You keep talking all that shit but I'm not hearing it
She pointing fingers at me I'm not feeling it
Oh whoa
Baby I'm about to switch the pace
And I'm way too high to talk bout dinner ill let you pick the place
Don't pay no mind no really don't pay no mind
She got some expensive taste and tastes better as time flies
Baby you don't remind me of anyone else I know
She got more money than me its hard to impress her
I think outside the box
Really I just love to plot
I like it when you take control I let you call the shots
Wait a minute baby don't cry can you hold on
You keep looking at me expecting to do wrong

How I'm supposed to save a part of me and you I'm not strong
It shouldn't take that fucking long to see what I'm on
Oh baby don't hit me with another episode
You look like everything I want you the perfect epitome
I cant see behind me
I think she tryna line me
Whatever goes around will come back to you in the long run
I got tired of running what do you want from me
I turned nothing to something don't want your company
I'm a wise mf smart ass douchebag
Hard to give a fuck when you get all this cash oh
I don't think I wanna fuck she moving fast on me
Ima go ahead and pass her to my big homie
I already know the world is cold
I'm just waiting for you to tell me something no ones told me
My lifestyles a waste of time I'm tryna kill the old me
You can say you love me now but you still got to show me

Cant get you out my head
Was it something that I said
I know I can be too much sometimes
Sometimes less is more
You keep talking all that shit but I'm not hearing it
She pointing fingers at me I'm not feeling it
Oh whoa
Baby I'm about to switch the pace
And I'm way too high to talk bout dinner ill let you pick the place
Don't pay no mind no really don't pay no mind
She got some expensive taste and tastes better as time flies
Baby you don't remind me of anyone else I know
She got more money than me its hard to impress her
I think outside the box
Really I just love to plot
I like it when you take control I let you call the shots
Wait a minute baby don't cry can you hold on
You keep looking at me expecting to do wrong

LESS IS MORE

LESS IS MORE [p. silver+methboiswag]

All my words dont mean much
I can tell by yo eyes and yo mean mug
you dont wear no disguise you dont need one
you got your head up in the sky with a big rush
nicotine backwoods and some pills crushed
she got a problem with herself like the rest of us
oh oh yeah
dont trip dont slip dont run baby
she a baddie let me hit it when i want lately
problem after problem popping up
baby i roll with the punched toughen up
i love you for who you are
aint no switching on this side hell nah
you and i we stuck together like some velcro
hit it from the back pull her hair hold her elbow

twist it pull it bop it
twist it pull it bop it
twist it pull it bop it
twist it pull it bop it
ima let it rock
oh oh yea oh oh oh
oh ooo oh lol

no im not a knight in no shiny lil armor
So baby please lower yo guard
we can move slow 
we can keep it were we are
with you its easy 
without its hard
and i rolled a spliff in the back of the whip
she all on my dick
doing that doing this
wanna know bout my past
told her ignorance bliss oh 
i can make another hit baby i wont miss 
charge it to the scoreboard
and add it to the list
i could write a book 
with all the shit that i did
got his babymomma 
in the crib tryna suck dick
i can get petty 
already know that im him 
big 17 bitch stuffed in my pants
dont play with me baby go play your mans
youre not the one that id call ina jam

TWIST IT PULL IT..

TWIST IT PULL IT.. [p. methboiswag+silver]

i think she the baddest bitch
get her what she wants
im tired of leaving my heart out
all on my sleeve
i told lil mama to call out i want her all to me
yeah i wanna put in that work
jump in that whip counting money like the first
shawty tried to do me bad
lucky i dont do yo ass a lil worse
im the type to let karma do her work
baby who ya call on when youre feeling all alone
i know now that im gone i was right and you were wrong

she caught herself a lil vibe yea
im tryna get a lil high
no you dont gotta ask me twice or why
im stacking money watch it multiple
yea im fucked up she fucked up
we dont know who to trust
im for the win yeah its never them its always us
tell em talk nicely or dont talk at all
when she piss me off i get mad and walk it off
and we all know that i cant let her go
i dont know what it is but she special tho
hold up wait

i think she the baddest bitch
get her what she wants
im tired of leaving my heart out
all on my sleeve
i told lil mama to call out i want her all to me
yeah i wanna put in that work
jump in that whip counting money like the first
shawty tried to do me bad
lucky i dont do yo ass a lil worse
im the type to let karma do her work
baby who ya call on when youre feeling all alone
i know now that im gone i was right and you were wrong

i was right and you were wrong
i knew it all along
i thiught you where on my side
you left me all alone
i want you to love me now dont love me when im gone
baby tell me are you down
are you on what im on
are you on what im on
are you on what im on
cause i dont gotta lie
you got my heart racing every single night

love jai

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