produced by frost'd and thislandis

lyrics:
keep our memories in a photograph
all the lies i said, i fucking take em' back
never meant to hurt you, but i always did
by your side i wanna die
fuck it, break down and cry

i've been lost in the motion way too long
taking all my emotions to write my songs
always been in the background, since i was young
never had any friends to keep me strong

she wanna smear my blood, all over the walls
fuck my life baby
put it on pause, record
all calls, ignored
i'm dead, not bored
fuck pause, restore
i wanna

i wanna break your heart
give me ecstasy
i wanna take your soul
cause your fuckin' with me
yeah my life's been over, fuck our memories
i see the last few texts i sent, were left on seen

so fuckin' tell me the truth
are we done, yeah are we through?
i need you to choose
otherwise i'll forget about you, oh-oh

blood on my white tee
dead people like me
psycho, yeah i might be
knife in my right hand
pistol on the nightstand
cuttin' off the loose ends
bodies grab the noose then
startin' to fuckin' lose it

all these motherfuckers be looking down on my grave
try your best, but you can't put a smile on my face
wasted, shit facing
pop another pill, my bodies achin'
i'm cravin', to o.d. anyday
why live when we're all gonna end up dying anyway?
i don't remember when i gave a fuck about what you say
antisocial fuck a mask, hide my face
drawing circles, put the knife to my veins

i wanna break your heart
give me ecstasy
i wanna take your soul
cause your fuckin' with me
yeah my life's been over, fuck our memories
i see the last few texts i sent, were left on seen

so fuckin' tell me the truth
are we done, yeah are we through?
i need you to choose
otherwise i'll forget about you, oh-oh

break your heart

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break your heart w/ dawsin

Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/youngburial
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(Lyrics)
stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this 

she just wanna see me when I’m down 
questioning what are we I just frown 
getting messages from other people
can I ask are you evil?
and I just wanna set the mood to winter 

stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this 

and every time we hanging out you don’t speak 
you question all the love you have for me I can see
I can see through this facade protecting me 
Hurting me give me more 

she was out too much 
she would stab me in my back
I know you didn’t care about me 
and I just wish you could love me 
the way I want you to 
and it’s been aching me

stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this 

on your way your back that is not true 
you said that you care but that’s all lies
girl I miss you 
you know that I’m selfish girl 
I just wanna settle down 
I just wanna stay around 

and I just need a second to breathe 
I just wanna live here in peace 
no one fucking bothering me 
and I just need a second to breathe 
so please don’t go 

stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this

what are we (fats'e)

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

1 (jolst x caves)

mix. @ztope

(prodnxku) 

-non profit-

lyrics -

aye sinking
help me find my meaning
your the only one in
my life not deceiving
girl im barely breathing
i cant fight this feeling
why does everything feel
so fuckin unappealing
everyday i wake up
starting at the ceiling yeah its
just another day i wont cope
with these feelings i
ant fuckin healing i
need time to my self
how appealing never mind
ima die can feel it?
tell me do you feel this?

cuz no one cares
about whats going on
yeah i need help
why cant you tell?

deceive (prodnxku)

https://soundcloud.com/irby314

https://soundcloud.com/decksmusic


you said it too many times 
to everybody else it’s got no meaning left 
I don’t wanna close the distance 
I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this 

(Decks)
i’ve been having a hard time adjustin
i don’t want it to amount to nothin
you unravel the spite and corruption
i know im stuck, whats the point in reduction
i, been holding on
nothing falling past the point
i took too long
i saw the problem with the story
all along
i wouldn’t have done that if i knew
how i was ending up
why? a troubled thought
gotta leave this fuckin town
i been here too long
if i heard what u had said
i wouldn’t be movin on
all the stars are burning out,
all my wishes gone
its far too often
my conscience
makes me regret the topic
i’m too anxious
over nothin
is this why im still stuck here?

murder the man but not the memory
east coast, now i know thats where they’ll bury me
far along the shoreline
i cant sit and waste my time x2


I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this

unabashedly bashing my head in ft. decks (Irby)

[+ loverboybeats]

@navyxower
@dylaanlotus
@noxious-nights
@souldfadexo
@emptychest
@northshoremusic

(navy)
gotta black tee
some would say its green
baby i gotta lay down
baby im feeling weak

wandering through the streets
heartbreak on the seames
ima travel cross the sea, i wonder what it means

party you party, lets party you talk in ur sleep, i need to get outta here again
why do you wanna get down with him, i heard you talking im sick

when we met by the water
would you think of me differently, if i had a daugher
i watch all these aniamls go to slaughter
its cause ur all selfish, what did they do wrong

(dylan lotus)
i’m burning up, i been hellbound
i’m leaving this earth cuz you hate me
so fuckin lost, i been spellbound 
i’m under the curse that you gave me
fuckin it up til you break me
all of these drugs that i’m taking
lace a few pills and i’m soarin off
lovin a thrill yeah i’m pouring up
fucked up; i’m worthless 
constant soul searching 
am i really worthy of love? i’m not perfect

(noxiousnights)
why am i so hard on myself ?
my goals are too big it's ruining my health
i could really make it easier
but all the summer i make it feel like winter

I distort my mind to help me cope
the world is spinning i'm out of control
sometimes it feels like there's no hope
i'm lost in my thoughts i can't let go

(soulfade)
Surely hate the way you talk to me
When things around fallen downward
In sense I never wanted this
Things would never happen way too soon

Always talking to myself at the noon
Always staring blankly at the moon

(emptychest)
different day different rolls
u know how the story goes
u know how to keep me close
i know how to keep u warm
its my responsibility
to keep u warm..
i never thought id live, endeavor!
never thought id see forever!
i didnt think id find my home
I really thought id die alone 
die alone.
nobody knows whats in my head.
ive been counting down my days
so i can finally get some bread
ay, see my, be my, mind
you'd die in a second!
its crazy to think im the same as you

(TNS)
Take the path that’s in front of me 
Feel the rhythm inside of me 
Tired of just playing hide n seek 

Where you really at girl, I don’t wanna leave 
Self esteem aside, girl I need you with me 
I just did a full 180

Hide & Seek w/ NAVYXOWER, dylan lotus, noxiousnights, soulfade, emptychest & The North Shore

pull me closer *recycleBin + garasu*

prod. metlast x 5head
w/ teddyboi 
master: teddyboi  (@yoimn3ver)

lyrics:

i forgot on these lonley nights
that i won’t see you by my side
not anymore 
but you’ll still find me holding onto your
memory
but i won’t let this be the end of me

so cold, she knows 
i’m out here growing mold 
ashes floating in the air burned up from a story that went untold
but where did this fire come from?
it’s not in my soul
my desires are coming undone
i’ve lost control

teddyboi:

everybody telling me i’ve lost control
frankly i don’t wanna believe that no, no
girlfriend yelling at me over the phone
god damn, here we go again
arguments, wanna fight like that?
i don’t text back no, not like that
and even though i wanna kill you, girl i still say it back
yeah you push me away but forget i’m attached 
and maybe 
maybe that shit is the problem 
keep a bottle and a 9mm finna solve ‘em
too lonely babe it’s suicide when you’re calling
you know i don’t like to talk at all
or even think
so why’d you leave me here alone 
coping with this drink
woke up, you left, i died in a dream
percocet got me worried bout the way that i breathe
you tell me that you’re scared you don’t want me to go to sleep
you put me in this position where i can’t even breathe


i forgot on these lonley nights
that i won’t see you by my side
not anymore 
but you’ll still find me holding onto your
memory
but i won’t let this be the end of me

so cold, she knows 
i’m out here growing mold 
ashes floating in the air burned up from a story that went untold
but where did this fire come from?
it’s not in my soul
my desires are coming undone
i’ve lost control

epitomeoffailure & teddyboi - these lonley nights (metlast x 5head)

In this life I'm pouring up, I gotta think about it
Think about it
Nothing felt so like this, I can't get sick of it
I love the way that you talk to me, I'm indifferent
I hope you stay and I don't weird you out 'cause I'm different

Popping 20 Benneys, get this high, I'm having fun
This because my ex just messed me up, but now I'm done
I don't wanna fight you, but I'll fight you when I'm done
So I don't think about it
This DPH has got me flying to the sun

I got my friends so worried
They're coming back, coming 'round town
I'll see you out at night, looking back as I frown
Don't you worry, baby
If I can call you baby
I'll be okay once I acquire fix, it's definite, a sanctuary

Clouds in the sky and my heart, it aches when I sigh
And I think back, why did you lie?
I keep going back and forth, why do I cry?
*and, still*
I want you to be mine

In this life I'm pouring up, I gotta think about it
Think about it
Nothing felt so like this, I can't get sick of it
I love the way that you talk to me, I'm indifferent
I hope you stay and I don't weird you out 'cause I'm different

Popping 20 Benneys, get this high, I'm having fun
This because my ex just messed me up, but now I'm done
I don't wanna fight you, but I'll fight you when I'm done
So I don't think about it
This DPH has got me flying to the sun

I could never sleep
Doing all these drugs while I weep
It's not fun
Pour another bottle till the sun is coming up
Wait a couple hours, couple days for you to come
I don't know if you got attitude or love for me at all

I guess it's how it be
Guys are all the same, we only want a damn thing
When we're alone and we find someone who appears to be
A loving soul without a lover on my phone screen

dph (prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick)

~2300~

Lyrics:
Eye's on my back
I wanted that
Moments lapse
And I collapse
So you can run and tell your friends
That i'm mental
All the words they use to keep it simple
Paranoid they're watching through the window
Hard to quantify the times I've missed you
Sift through the gore
Red on the floor
Beg me for more
Learned to sleep through the violence now
You let me down

Lot of old friends they don't wanna shake up
When I walk in all I get is fake love
Cut the grass saw the snakes on the way up
Try to code switch on me when the light's off
Lot of new friends hit me when they want sumn
Fake an ego trip i'm really on one
Was it dumb luck
Fell in with the wrong ones
Know why i'm still hung up on what it once was

And if you really bout it you can show me
One foot out of the door in case you're right
No use trying to force it i'll be fine
It seems you've finished your portion of my life

break your heart w/ dawsin

pneuma

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