8/23

lyrics:
you only call me when you're drunk
you only text me when you're high & all alone
and after all these years i'm stuck
and i'll come over with the message from my phone
cause you told me
it's not what it seems
but it could be
you're pulling the strings to control me
just a puppet and the master
and i'm wrapped around your fingers
is it obvious, i'm falling for you
need no audience to tell you the truth
i'd do anything just to make you mine
oh, this time
oh, this time
and it's obvious i live in a dream
where everything is not what it seems
and i'd do anything just to make you mine
oh, this time
oh, this time
oh, this time
oh, this time
you told me
it's not what it seems
but it could be
you're pulling the strings to control me
just a puppet and the master
and i'm wrapped around your fingers

puppet master

produced by me
written/mixed/mastered by me
cover illustration by server (https://serverxyzz.carrd.co)

[lyrics]
~verse 1~
i like to keep things close to the same
got personal problems adapting to change
i always plan things so far away
but when i get started its far too late
i like pretending i know what to do
like if i really feel at home then itll all come true
i like pretending ive made it on my own
when it could all end with a phone call home

~bridge~
god, its so hard
to juggle all the things that have been handed to me
but i cant stop
ive got to get back up

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

~verse 2~
i try to sleep well, but every night
i cant shake the feeling im wasting time
ive gotta sink before i can fly
but im still afloat and i dont know why
maybe its all gonna slow way down,
thats all i can hope for, but i still dont know
i roll with the punches, i live in the now
i take a step forward and i double back

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

Steps

happy new year, enjoy this slop... i'll be back w some new music soon :3

i haven't showered since last year,, AND IM STILL FRESH AS FUCK!!!

im gonna be who i wanted

prod. me
yes i recorded the live instruments


lyrics:

can you see me?
can’t you see what i’ve become?
no, it’s not easy
know exactly what needs to be done
packing up again 
and nothing’s making sense
on the run again and it’s hopeless

you treat me like i’m dead
as if i am the one who killed h̶i̶m̶
i’m not the one you want 
and i can’t ever bring h̶i̶m̶ back
but i’m still here
but i won’t ever be enough 
but i’m still here
i couldn’t pretend forever

you said you loved me
until you knew who i am
we grew together
but you just took it all back
you said forever
forever’s all in the past
and i still can’t bring h̶i̶m̶ back
and i still can’t bring h̶i̶m̶ back

you were never by my side
so this is my last goodbye
to you
i’ll say this just one time

you always act like it was all my fault 
but you know i tried to get away from you
tried to get away from you
i watched you take all of my choices away
and try to shift all the blame 
now i can’t see you the same again
and i’ll never be
the person that you loved or rather
the person you tried to make me into
and you’ll never hear from me again
i’ve broken your curse
you have only gotten worse 

i just wanted to be me
all you wanted was to hurt me
did you want to hurt me?
well i won’t let you anymore
no i won’t let you anymore 

this is my body
the only one i’ll ever get to live in
this is no longer your body to control
to bend to your will
no longer your mind to manipulate and subdue
for the first time in a long time i feel finally free
free from your heavy, rusty shackles
free to love and be loved in return
and free to learn to love myself 
this is what i deserve, what i’ve deserved all along
and i’m not going to let you take it away from me
i’m not going to let you take it away from me anymore.

i’m
i’m done
i’m done
i’m done i’m done i’m done i’m done

i’m done with your nonsense 
i’m done with all your violence 
i’m done 
i’m so done
i’m done with all your violence

if you can't love me for me
let me go

i’ll never be what you wanted (let me go)
i’ll never be who you wanted me to be (let me go)
i’ll never be all you wanted 
from now on 
im gonna be who i wanted

im gonna be who i wanted

all you wanted

prod me

lyrics:
(again)
stuck in the future tense and you're not looking back
i try to look up but my eyes are made of glass
cant even try you fossilized me in the past
wish i could crack
wish i could crack

i dont compare you're holding everything i lack
with one hand open hold it tight behind your back
said it was late so youd prefer it if i crash
again

even if i fall again and break my head
you tell me that it's all the same it wouldnt change
so even if im caught hanging on your wall you would never stop and complain
you tell me that it's all
all
okay
okay

(again)
so ill just waste away stay here looking through glass
i know youll hate it so ill stay here on my back
my company of wilted flowers that you grabbed
you left me here surrounded

came from the ground got my tears all around me
weird coming out it was weird when you found me
fears that i found i dont know im still counting
while froze in the state that you found me

even if i fall again and break my head
you tell me that it's all the same it wouldnt change
so even if im caught hanging on your wall you would never stop and complain
you tell me that it's all
all
okay
okay

fossil

Ariana grande flip

Vocal samples:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2sCuAUTCWsE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=npiLJLEpPhE

Keys and drums: casio wk-1350
Synth: tal noize-maker
Bass: tal bassline

recorded on reaper,

!enterprise
https://soundcloud.com/poisonedcheeto/sets/enterprise

Into you / Gas station

Clairo flip

Vocal samples:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LK8BepIkI28
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uFZZxmcpEZA

Guitar: squier strat-o-sonic, fed through DI
Keys and drums: casio wk-1350
Bass: tal bassline

recorded on reaper,

!enterprise
https://soundcloud.com/poisonedcheeto/sets/enterprise

Sofia / One margarita

Do I keep you up

its sounds nice slow innit
https://soundcloud.com/c0zybru/gossip-prod-morph

gossip (prod. morph) (slowed)

https://soundcloud.com/janeremover/buzzcut-daisy

sixteen

waaaah flip (luvian)

Composer/producer
https://ffm.bio/poisonedcheeto

"malibu (onyourlips)" out now everywhere

Into you / Gas station

simon m (poisonedcheeto)

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