MY MISTAKE WAS ONLY LEARNING SOMETHING NEW

feeling like i’m 6 feet under better ring the bell 

it’s just another thing you didn’t mention
i guess that was enough to feel out our connection
you can’t ever tell me what it’s like to be a loner
i just wish that i could say that it’s over 

far away from perfect
you know i’m no angel
i’ll be what you need just show me everything that’s painful
i don’t have a purpose
i just watch the days go
you can waste your time again but i can’t ever stay tho

i guess i just didn’t excite you
i guess you don’t want me beside you
all the worst ways that i see myself, they come true
and i can’t do this if it’s gonna be without you


just let me stay with you in portland
take me to the forest forget 'bout your boyfriend
ask me what is wrong i’ll always lie and say it’s nothing
i just can’t relax for you i know it’s always something
it's always something

i feel less hungry on my stomach
toss and turn there’s nothing left to burn 
i put out the match the shadows start to turn
forgot my fucking question when i got my answer

there’s nothing there for me
and i’ve been crying in the shower no ones hearing me
when you burn inside there’s nothing there to snuff it
take a grain of salt cause i can tell you’re bluffin'

portland

too deep in the moment or thinking too far to see
that if she’s falling back, falling back on me
or is she crawling back, crawling back to me
i thought you wanted to be like my enemy
and in my life i can’t tell who’s my frenemy
like is he plotting on, plotting the end of me 
is it only cause he’s afraid me?

i didn’t know that thoughts could make my body ache 
a blow like that, i’m not sure how much i can take 
i thought my skin was tough but this here wasn’t fate

i didn’t have the strength to call you back
what is so wrong with me?
maybe i’m the one that’s falling back
what if she’s onto me?
if i could travel time, i’d roll it back and do everything that you pleased
daily i could feel you pulling back
you still left me on my knees

i can’t see the gains throughout everything that i’ve been through
i pray i’m okay with bailing out and finding someone new
nowadays i think i’m missing you longer than how i knew 
nowadays i’m pacing hundreds of miles inside my room

but i don’t wanna fight the truth
it’s everything that i go through
my mistake was only learning something new
but every time i still think what’s the use?

FATE

there will be blood [prod. cutspace & djh]

video: https://youtu.be/3kNdFAmxpQw

struggle to maintain the faith
despite this water i bathe
i lost it all in the eighth
when i took it all to the face
so sick of this empty page
stuck in a 6 by 3 cage
it all determines my wage
i must get back to the stage
disarm and disengage
reassess, go forward with change
but that just isn’t the case
blockades i should rearrange
live for your loving embrace
i know the feeling will stay
go to the menu and save
always look back on this day
i’m sick and tired of fake
it changed the game like a plague
the lyric’s getting too vague
cause they’ve got nothing to say
transparent, they’re so opaque
not afraid to display my hate
can’t fight the feeling, i shake
move to my desk to create
i shouldn’t ever take breaks
that was my biggest mistake
no test that i can retake
i take no lesson in vain
there’s nothing left to forsake
i’ll hold it down till it breaks
til the boat sinks in the lake
love you like every day

it’s so hard for me to sketch a refrain
when there’s too much i could say
when every day is anchored in shame
can’t find a way out the maze
but i’m still burying the truth in a phrase
i loop it back it replays
i loop it back it replays
so very deep in my ways

why must i deny confidence, i’m way too lost in the dark
why i must i deny consciousness of getting lost in the art?
external influences threaten to tear it apart
i might not be too inspired but that might change if i start 

i shouldn’t ever take breaks
that was my biggest mistake
no test that i can retake
i take no lesson in vain
i shouldn’t ever take breaks
that was my biggest mistake
no test that i can retake
i take no lesson from pain

struggle to maintain the faith
despite this water i bathe
i lost it all in the eighth
when i took it all to the face
so sick of this empty page
stuck in a 6 by 3 cage
it all determines my wage
and i fucking hate it

it’s so hard for me to sketch a refrain
when there’s too much i could say
when every day is anchored in shame
can’t find a way out the maze
but i’m still burying the truth in a phrase
i loop it back it replays
i loop it back it replays
so very deep in my ways

shame

stream

that bad

a memoir of gratitude

gamble

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lyrics:
I'm tryna make you breakfast in bed
Put this gun to my head, let me go
You're tryna tell me you're just depressed
You're head on my chest in the snow
So tell me is it all that bad now? You don't know
Just let me go again
Dont make me go again
Text me and tell me you want it
You say you hate me, I got it

Oh no everything you ever got is gone
You told me run away, let's leave the places that we're from
Like I'm not trying to do it, made the person ive become
Like girl you know I love you honestly, now you're the one
Long gone, I fall apart in the night time
You're wrong, been waiting here, been a long night
So far, I thought of life in a timeline
You're wrong, been waiting here, been a long night

I'm tryna make you breakfast in bed
Put this gun to my head, let me go
You're tryna tell me you're just depressed
You're head on my chest in the snow
So tell me is it all that bad now? You don't know
Just let me go again
Dont make me go again
Text me and tell me you want it
You say you hate me, I got it

breakfast in bed [siemspark & hiidrax]

Production/Mix By @montoya411xx
Vocals By Me @montoya411xx @stairtown
Cover Art By @montoya411xx
Instagram @montoya30pack @stairtown
@dovepressed

Dirt Nap w/@stairtown (PROD. Montoya)

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lyrics:

she just look right thru my eyes
im feelin off tonight
i won't let her fool me twice
i don't think she understand what my life is like
sun sets n i'm outta sight
she got home from college
i'm not on her watchlist
i been grinding hard tho
little 2 her knowledge
nails painted black
move in shadows like my polish
stayin in a house made of cards and its fallin

posted up bnbs
helmut lang from 03
sterling silver on my fingers its like 30 degrees
when im out in the woods im rollin up all the trees
cruising w the windows down
i been making the breeze

we met at a party, sippin bacardi
shawty, rlly hope u not playin me like atari
id buy u anything, dress u up like a barbie
she my vampire queen she my marcy

im all alone again
losing my flow again
i jus think ur rlly cute can i hold ur hand
u dnt understand :/

posted up bnbs
helmut lang from 03
sterling silver on my fingers its like 30 degrees
when im out in the woods im rollin up all the trees
cruising w the windows down
i been making the breeze

vampyre queen (dgen+wstd)

https://soundcloud.com/suckerpunnk
https://soundcloud.com/rosesleeves

Saviour w/ Suckerpunk (Rosesleeves)

http://therapy.rip

mgmt.polearm@gmail.com

FATE

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