idk how to describe it this beat is giving playing modded minecraft as a kid i love this song sm

this song is what drugs feel like 💜😭 mega slay

breaking the bones in my hands (prod. freger)

Yeah
Back in class
They used to look at me and laugh
Got suspended from my school
And I never went back
Parent's all up in my ear
"you going down the wrong path"
I'm chasin' my dreams
Can't get side tracked

Used to think you were the one
I was so dumb
So naïve, I was just young
Sick of wasting my time
Acting like it's all fine
(Acting like it's alright)

See all the shit I went through
Only made me strong
Burned my whole world down
Then I fucking moved on
Yeah I know the saying's true
They gon' miss me when I'm gone
For now I let em hate
I know I'll prove em wrong

I been flexing and finessing
On the daily
Fuck all that talking
Boy let's do it
Why you scary?
I know you mad
Got you saying that you hate me
Cause your bitch tellin' me
I'm far from ordinary

Far from ordinary
Imma visionary
I got 4K, HD
I can see it all baby
Me and my team play for keeps
And we all crazy

Just some loose screws
What's new?
Yeah we do this all day
So high can't move
I can't feel my heart rate

Yeah
Back in class
They used to look at me and laugh
Got suspended from my school
And I never went back
Parent's all up in my ear
"you going down the wrong path"
I'm chasin' my dreams
Can't get side tracked

Used to think you were the one
I was so dumb
So naïve, I was just young
Sick of wasting my time
Acting like it's all fine
(Acting like it's alright)

ordinary (prod. roxa)

video: https://youtu.be/3kNdFAmxpQw

struggle to maintain the faith
despite this water i bathe
i lost it all in the eighth
when i took it all to the face
so sick of this empty page
stuck in a 6 by 3 cage
it all determines my wage
i must get back to the stage
disarm and disengage
reassess, go forward with change
but that just isn’t the case
blockades i should rearrange
live for your loving embrace
i know the feeling will stay
go to the menu and save
always look back on this day
i’m sick and tired of fake
it changed the game like a plague
the lyric’s getting too vague
cause they’ve got nothing to say
transparent, they’re so opaque
not afraid to display my hate
can’t fight the feeling, i shake
move to my desk to create
i shouldn’t ever take breaks
that was my biggest mistake
no test that i can retake
i take no lesson in vain
there’s nothing left to forsake
i’ll hold it down till it breaks
til the boat sinks in the lake
love you like every day

it’s so hard for me to sketch a refrain
when there’s too much i could say
when every day is anchored in shame
can’t find a way out the maze
but i’m still burying the truth in a phrase
i loop it back it replays
i loop it back it replays
so very deep in my ways

why must i deny confidence, i’m way too lost in the dark
why i must i deny consciousness of getting lost in the art?
external influences threaten to tear it apart
i might not be too inspired but that might change if i start 

i shouldn’t ever take breaks
that was my biggest mistake
no test that i can retake
i take no lesson in vain
i shouldn’t ever take breaks
that was my biggest mistake
no test that i can retake
i take no lesson from pain

struggle to maintain the faith
despite this water i bathe
i lost it all in the eighth
when i took it all to the face
so sick of this empty page
stuck in a 6 by 3 cage
it all determines my wage
and i fucking hate it

it’s so hard for me to sketch a refrain
when there’s too much i could say
when every day is anchored in shame
can’t find a way out the maze
but i’m still burying the truth in a phrase
i loop it back it replays
i loop it back it replays
so very deep in my ways

shame

now, the sky consumes me
it's getting harder to see myself
will my vision ever clear?

water in my lungs
it's getting harder to breathe without you

the other day i was driving down the empty ghosts of the streets where we used to hang around

whatever you're looking for,
i pray it's what you found


never again will i lose myself
in someone else's bone and flesh

put too much pressure on you
can't count the things that i regret

i held you back
and chained you down
there's just no way around it

you're just too gentle to admit it
but i know it's true

the other day i was driving down the empty ghosts of the streets we used to hang around

i wrote this song just to let you know

the other day i was driving down the empty ghosts of the streets where we used to hang around

whatever you're looking for,
i pray it's what you found

the other day
i was driving down
where we used to hang around
wish you could see me now

i want you to see
what's become of me
i want you to see
i'm not who i used to be

swallowed by the sky

mental - angel number (jolst)

So many moments have been lost in time cause I was stoned
Ever since that I got sober, feels like I was cloned
A hallow recreation, I can feel it in my bones
Sealed, then lost in transit with my confidence enclosed
Some days I feel so much disservice I should be disowned
I guess I’ve been taking Too many things in my control
Too much of a load, I just wanna break the mold
It’s an endless cycle It's not something I condone
Sometimes it’s when I make a track I feel like I’m the one
Didn’t like the last song that I made, like what could I have done?
Always chasing greatness but it’s always on the run
I only focus on weakness it’s taking out the fun
This is just an exercise for skills I’m tryna hone
I wasted so much time overthinking, I must atone
I don’t expect to make a hit of everything I wrote
Like how Every plant I try to grow just starts to decompose
Honestly it sounds appealing doing what I’m told
I can’t live that way, I cannot be controlled
I could’ve sold myself for an amount I can’t disclose
Actually it was only like 80 thousand what a joke
Within 2 working years I would end up going broke
I guess I’ll just stay broke, not giving up my hope
I am not a product I swear I won’t break the code
I’m perfectly happy Inside the comfort of my home
I picked up the call the second you had phoned
I promise that I’m sticking To the standards I uphold
I can’t play the victim from the trauma that unfolds
It’s so hard keep my head up I still fold
So many moments have been lost in time cause I was stoned
Ever since that I got sober, feels like I was cloned
A hallow recreation, I can feel it in my bones
Sealed, then lost in transit with my confidence enclosed



control

Too many nights of saying fuck it I’ll fix the problem tomorrow
Everyday I gamble my life but there’s no chips I could borrow
The chance to hit keeps me in but I pull the lever with sorrow
could I stop viewing it as battles Huh, I don’t know
I have no choice when I wake up but just to get up and go
no choice but to make a change when I’m Sick of the status quo
I used to live way too reckless, but I let go
Will I find reason to leave the house today, I don’t know
I chose to give my life, To you I bestow
I chose this to be my quest So long ago
I pace around in a circle, In limbo
Will I ever reach the end? I don’t know
Too many thoughts, too many tasks, I overflow
Try not to go over the edge, I tiptoe
But I’m still keeping to myself, I’m lying low
Will I end up going unnoticed, I don’t know
The hands keep on moving around, but time’s feeling slow
It lies inside what I wrote, the highs and lows
the weight that lives upon my shoulders never lightens its hold
struggle to find a new reason why I dig deeper holes
I try to climb my way out but I’m swallowed by the ground
I try to send out a message But it muffles the sound
It all goes out into the void, I just hope that I’m found
Ran out of gas in the lighter, no rescue team is inbound
But I just wanna be honest, I think my time’s overdue
I know The house always wins but it’s hard to accept the truth
the wound cut deep in my skin it doesn’t seem to close
Will I break or just bend? I don’t know

Every issue with my confidence is products of fear
I can’t take these things for granted, Everything I hold dear
I’m too impatient to watch my own growth
Every night I question fame like what’s it all gonna take
Imagine conquering the ache inside As I lie awake
The tears are falling like rain
The dream goes down in the drain
I can’t keep chasing my own shadow just to prove my own name
I was selfish to try it on my own
Drop the mirror, it breaks
Some wounds you can’t mend with tape
conditions had me displaced
Collect the fragments in case
Every defeat teaches grace
Memories I can’t erase
I have no choice but to embrace Everything that caused me pain
I try to keep up the pace 
But life just isn’t a race
I still wonder how much time i have to find my own place
So sick of hiding my face
And everything I must chase
I still wonder how much time I have until I’m replaced
I’m too impatient to watch my own growth
But I still try to let it all go
Although I can’t see the end of the road
I know wherever it leads I’ll go
I was selfish to try it on my own
I would’ve curled up and died in the snow
But now I’m learning to lean on what’s close
Through every motion I’ll feel less alone

fragments

spirit: encoded in silicon (prod. chinapoet & hallow)

prod. @k4neswagga + @txusey
mix by me

✯ текст: ✯

хочу забыть о всех местах, где мы с тобою были
фотография, где мы с тобой, стоит, но она в пыли
я тебя увидел ебанулся снова, рили
нахуя делаешь вид будто мы все забыли
пишу треки для себя, который тебя любит
моя любовь к тебе и к наркотикам меня погубит
послушай меня лиза — я как андрей губин
снова не могу ей позвонить телефон не доступен


снова не могу заснуть, я паранойю внутривенно

у меня 1000 причин не говорить тебе об этом

зачем мне все драги? хватит спрашивать об этом
я в дерьме конкретно, в говно
я ненавижу трезвость и ты знаешь все об этом
бэй я в этом давно

хочу забыть о всех местах, где мы с тобою были
фотография, где мы с тобой, стоит, но она в пыли
я тебя увидел ебанулся снова, рили
нахуя делаешь вид будто мы все забыли
пишу треки для себя, который тебя любит
моя любовь к тебе и к наркотикам меня погубит
послушай меня лиза — я как андрей губин
снова не могу ей позвонить телефон не доступен
✯ (да блять возьми трубку) ✯

лиза (k4neswagga + txuseey)

сборник демок за весну 0_0 
доделывать их не очень хочу...

spring)demk@mix 00.1 0_0

http://therapy.rip

mgmt.polearm@gmail.com

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polearm

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