therapy

i don’t know if i’m ready
but you’re acting so petty
she said what’s the problem i said there’s too fucking many
i don’t know if i regret it
i wish i could forget it
but if i said i love you then you know i fucking meant it

still beats another night alone in silence 
if i could change myself i’d tell myself to try and hide it
this type of feeling got me feeling like i cannot fight it
make our time together last as we both keep on lying

why am i chasing a feeling i just do not need

catch me if i fall when i’m out of rope
hear me when i talk but you fucking don’t
it’s hard to receive any of my attention
but you’re so god damn lovely i’m distracted

why am i chasing a feeling i just do not need

don’t know why i’ve been so bitter so long after the fact

your memory dug my emotions up they just keep flooding back
and every time im in bed alone i’m running back again

i'm running back again

not looking for guidance alone on the road i still put on the mileage
looking for peace but don't see it inside when i’m closing my eyelids
remember been searching forever so long and i still cannot find it
taking a break cannot make me feel better believe me i’ve tried it

always have issues with not being satisfied i am my father's son
i tried to keep it together but i guess she’s not the one

i am so sorry for the way that i reacted
it takes practice

regret

WAR GAMES GX (side a prod. shinju x deadat18 + side b prod. vinso x shotti)

i cannot compete for bitches man you’re just the saddest bunch
i got them sitting in their bedroom they’re feeling mad as fuck

i used to be so embarrassing
nowadays i don’t say shit
everybody hates everyone but they’re too afraid to say it

i’m just not better than anybody 
i get distracted by pretty bodies 
maybe if i had just taken my time i wouldn’t be trapped in this melancholy 

i watched my friends become enemies
i guess they just weren’t feeling me
look through the rubble of everything
i guess that shit wasn’t meant for me

i love every leaf that grows after me
look down the branch they still mad at me
they think that my grass is greener it didn’t come naturally
they think that my fruit is sweet but they’re never taking a bite of me

dammit i’m living what i wrote 
god dammit i’m living what i wrote

seems i made my heart to mince meat
i just miss the feel when you kiss me
cry in front of my friends in the backseat
i’m so tired it’s not that hard to see

i’ll never know when it’s my turn
search for the feeling that i yearn
won’t be a stone i leave unturned
light all the bridges i’ll let them burn

not sure if it’s fine to still cry about things that i thought i was over with
and you aren’t mine i still wish i could call you and get this pain over with
cause every time that i see you on my phone don’t know if you’re missing me
one thing’s for certain the one thing that matters is you’re not forgetting me

cause i told you that i love you first
nowadays i’ve been feeling the worst
i’m sorry the thought of you doesn’t hurt
just missing the feeling you would return
salt in the wound guess i’ll let it burn
i need my penance there’s more to learn

i’ll never know when it’s my turn

i’m one with the birds again
i’m one with the woods again
i know it’s better off that,
that i did it myself again

penance

wtf is wrong w me

Lyrics:

You know it’s cold here in the winter at night
At night
You know I’ve made some mistakes but I’m still everything he isn’t
All right
Maybe I’ll come hold you when it’s finished
And we can talk it over how we wish that it was different
But I still
Gotta tell myself to breath when I’m alone with you
I know I mess up everything that I get close to
Baby I didn’t mean to fuck it all up
Don’t hate me
Tell me how to fix us

She don’t like it when it rains
I know so I’ll wash it down the drain
(For you I’d do anything, I’d do anything)
I don’t want to be afraid
(For you I’d do anything, your my everything)
That you’ll leave
So don’t leave
Don’t leave
Just stay
With me
Riding round with me
Just stay here with me
Know you can’t forget me
With me
Driving home with me
Just stay here with me
Won’t let you forget me

Gotta tell myself to breath when I’m alone with you
I know I mess up everything that I get close to
Just tell me why you couldn’t tell me all
The whole truth
Everything that I went through with just to hold you
Just to hold you
Just to hold you
Just let me hold you

Tell me why you had to break me down
Just to stay
And don’t you say that you're in love with me
Don’t you say
I gave you everything
You took from me
I behaved
But then you went and ruined everything I became

winter (glasear +  slappy + glxy)

⭐️ new single ⭐️

w/ @ihateshinigami

produced by hiko momoji, nova & yungbuckbeats

cover art by lordofgraphix

www.instagram.com/hikomomoji
www.instagram.com/shinigami/

DON'T TALK! (feat. shinigami)

VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DxJx8B1yhN8

did it myself again
fucked up my life again
feeling so small 20 missed calls
wonder where i have been

fucked up my life again
fucked up my life again
feeling so small 20 missed calls
wonder where i have been

wonder where i have been
wonder how you have been
i haven’t seen your friends
did you fuck him again

life sucks moving backwards
no one meets me standards
done it all it’s just replays
all i see is her face

20MISSEDCALLS

single 3

 video: https://youtu.be/RaNL-QxmCK4

i don't know bout you im tired of the fake shit
tired of the fake shit

i've been trying so hard but i can't seem to win
i'm so fucking sick of being dead in my own skin
razor blades and cocaine are things i never dealt with
but by the time you hear this i hope you think i'm worth it

WORTH IT

drop 2 addys in the pit 
still can’t feel shit
know that she don’t want me
guess im used to it
when the bodies hit the ground
watch me levitate
now my head is spinning round

i can’t feel shit and it’s nothing new
i got bands in bank you wishing that was you
on this shit a second time i’m going 3 for 2
jumped up out the jet they tryna be me too

you know that i don’t really talk shit
but just this year i’ve seen too many get complacent
i don’t do this for the bag

II. PIT

you make it tolerable when i’m losing my mind
say in the end everything will be alright
where do i go from here what do i do this time
is everything i need just deep down inside

and i’ll be right here
reaching in the dark towards something i don’t need
it’s been a long time 
since i wrote about you
i wonder if you still hear me

let the turbulence lull me to sleep
surrounded by people that i’ll never see again
it’s quite depressing that i never dream
even with the world right below my feet

III. EVERYTHING I NEED

i’m in la to make ends meet
lil shawty she plotting on my end
im making sure all of my dogs eat
i’m working too hard but i can’t rest

and if you do tell me you heard this
i’ll know in the end i’ve done my part
lately i wake up i don’t feel shit
cause i just been breaking my own heart

i wearing my heart on my ankle
ball with the chain weighing me down
i know that you don’t like me now
i been on my own too long now

I. A WEIGHT I CANNOT FEEL ANYMORE

i couldn’t be more obvious
it’s just like the reason i can’t smile with my teeth
can you cure my limerence 
i know sometimes that we need some relief

you’re acting like you don’t care
even though you’re saying you need someone there
i’m too old to say it isn’t fair
it’s never going well ive been well aware

always feeling anxious i’m not good enough
i’ve been breaking down guess ive had enough
i know i’m way too nice i’m not man enough
always come in last been through that enough

WORTH IT

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