lyrics: 

Everybody always talking about me
I don’t know why I always get bullied
I never knew life was gonna be so mean
Please god I wish I was happy
I don’t think I’ll ever be happy
Anger issues why I’m always so snappy
I’m a loser, super scrawny and low t
Please god won’t someone help me

I’m a loser
I have no friends
And no life to live

I’m a loser
Please leave me alone
I wish I was dead

Contemplating thoughts of suicide
All I ever do is cry and cry
Feel so empty
Feel so mad inside
Lately I just wanna die

I’m a loser
I have no friends
And no life to live

I’m a loser
Please leave me alone
I wish I was dead

Loser

i feel like im in disguise
im wearing all my lies
but i cant 
escape from you

trapped within my head
the guy i was is dead
and im the only thing thats left

i want you to be 
the last person i see 
everytime i go to sleep

i went right into my head
ripped who i was to shreds
and im the only thing thats left

im the only thing thats left

Official Music Video:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IpJHx6ZHOns


Lyrics:


I’m so sick and tired of your shit
Tired of you bitch
Tired of your lip

You can try to tear me down 
Make me quit
But I’m not stupid
I’m the fire that you lit

I’ll make you hate me more
Watch me win
I’ve been over you since then
Things only beginning 

Suck a dick
And go eat shit
I don’t need you
Don’t need no bitch
Fixed my life
Things changing quick
Camo boy 
Come from the sticks 
I know you hate me
That’s ok
I’m finally happy 
No more pain
Things are better 
you’re away
I fucking hate you
Stay away 

I got these boxes of your stuff
I burned it all
I hate your guts
I’m looking better
You look rough
Im finally happy
You not much (x2)

Boxes

Owen Adamcik - watch me bleed

Lyrics:

im gonna drink until i cant stand anymore
then take a shot or four 
and march out the door
piss in my neighbors lawn
and walk into the store
i need more alcohol
BAC galore

don't remember anything 
from the night before
all i know is that smirnoff
rules more than
any whore

i'm in a drunken rage
i wanna stab you in the face
shoot you with my 12 gage
make sure that you're in pain

im in a drunken rage
smirnoff will make me sane
one more shot to the brain
watch my life go down the drain

oooo

i'm in a drunken rage
i wanna stab you in the face
shoot you with my 12 gage
make sure that you're in pain

im in a drunken rage
smirnoff will make me sane
one more shot to the brain
watch my life go down the drain

Smirnoff

“Tome of Stars” is a 100 sonnet journey, equal parts art, therapy journal, and exorcism, both a celebration and an elegy, a single narrative arc tracing the birth and death of a relationship. All poetry by Stargazer. The verse and accompanying synthetic art and music are public domain, CC0, with no restrictions on use. Nothing is monetized. See below for links on how to access the print, PDF, audio, ePub, video, and music files. 
Website: https://www.tomeofstars.net/

In the classical margam of bharatanatyam, the varnam is the recital’s centerpiece, its longest and most emotionally charged performance. In “Tome of Stars“, the varnam appears as the twenty-nine-poem section “Senescence”. Following the exaltation of Anthesis, the beloved as a celestial goddess, love now descends from the stars into the gravity of human frailty. 

This sonnet recounts a pivotal, emotionally charged episode from the poet’s shared past with his beloved: a clandestine evening visit to her dormitory, guitar in hand, during which he sang “Into the West“, the elegiac song from The Lord of the Rings films. The poem juxtaposes the solemn beauty of the moment with its underlying transgressions—its secrecy, its breach of boundaries. Drawing on Tolkien’s mythology, it frames their relationship through the lens of permanent wounding and unattainable healing, aligning their love with Frodo’s mortal suffering and the longing for a redemptive passage to Valinor.

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Lyrics

I crept the student hall’s fluorescent hum—
A crime in progress, yet my soul sang true.
Guitar slung ’cross my back and heart a drum—
The shrine ordained for me was always you.

The universe tipped sideways as I sighed
Within your doorway. Never should I leave!
Ten thousand days of life with you dreamed by,
Of simple hearth and home, a life we’d weave.

I played for you a song from Elder Years,
Of Mithlond, where the scarred seek Valinor.
Sobs wet your sculpted cheeks; you shook with tears.
Our pathos pled for salves from healing shores.

But passage was denied. Our doom would ring—
Sweet night, the last you’d ever hear me sing.

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Internet Archive
Book of sonnets:
https://archive.org/details/tome-of-stars/

Music:
Item 1, Anthesis: https://archive.org/details/Anthesis/
Item 2, Senescence: https://archive.org/details/senescence_tomeofstars
Item 3, Sporogenesis: https://archive.org/details/Sporogenesis_TomeOfStars/
Item 4, Anemochory: https://archive.org/details/Anemochory_TomeOfStars
Item 5, Quixotosis: https://archive.org/details/Quixotosis_TomeOfStars
Item 6, Scripture: https://archive.org/details/Scripture_TomeOfStars

Bandcamp:

Item 1, Anthesis: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/anthesis-item-1-of-tome-of-stars
Item 2, Senescence: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/senescence-item-2-of-tome-of-stars
Item 3, Sporogenesis: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/sporogenesis-item-3-of-tome-of-stars
Item 4, Anemochory: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/anemochory-item-4-of-tome-of-stars
Item 5, Quixotosis: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/quixotosis-item-5-of-tome-of-stars
Item 6, Scripture: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/scripture-item-6-of-tome-of-stars

Into the West

Рождённый быть жирным

MISCARRIAGE

im so sick of it all
got no friends who care to call
and i am working all the time
its taking a toll on my mind

wake up go to work
come home late is it even worth it
up and repeat the very next day
i am wasting my life away

im so sick of it all
my life is hitting a brick wall
i feel so alone
got no place in this world to call my home

the day will come when im fed up 
and i decide to make the jump
and end it all and as i fall
ill think of my friends who didnt call
to see if im okay
they probably wouldnt care anyway
so lets just get it over with
cuz nobody cares about me shit

im so sick of it all
my life is hitting a brick wall
i feel so alone
got no place in this world to call my home

sick of it

late for my class again
dont care about the shit that im learning
and all the kids here are so uptight
picking fights thinking that theyre so fucking bright

smoking weed binge drinking
so degenerate what are they thinking
its all a big waste of time i hate this place
they need a kick in the face

sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts

late night go out
try to see what the night life is all about
its all stupid drunk ass kids picking fights
trying to get girls to suck their dicks

its just a big adult day care
paid for by their parents its unfair
no one really wants to be here
wasting their time for a shitty career

sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts

College Cunts

This is a rerecord of an old track 

Lyrics:
I needed you with me
But you left me
And you tore my heart out
I thought I could trust you
But I bust you
And you were sleeping with another one
How could you
Make me hurt
How could you
Treat me like dirt
How could you
Make me doubt
How could you
Rip my heart out

You ripped my heart out

Boxes

PopKill