Anime

credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

my friends they all hate my guts
and i always feel so fucked up
dont know why i even try
be better off if i would just die

lately
ive been feeling crazy
think theyve had enough of me cuz
im so fucked up
lately
everybody hates me
i should learn to just shut up cuz
im so fucked up

dont know why the things i say
always push the ones i love away
stay inside never go anywhere
get left behind cuz nobody cares

lately 
ive been feeling crazy
think theyve had enough of me cuz
im so fucked up
lately
everybody hates me 
i should learn to just shut up cuz
im so fucked up

so fucked up

They Speak Through The Screens (Bad Takes Only Cover)

I can't smile anymore
I can't sleep anymore
I can't live anymore
I lost my imagination
I got lost in this fucking hole
I blow my head off with a shotgun
I'm sorry for all this blood

i lost my imagination

Cultist Girlfriend

https://soundcloud.com/1heelflip

staying up all night in my room 
i don’t get out much because i don’t want to
everyone fucking sucks except you 
i don’t wanna live unless you want me to 
but do you care about me like i care about you?
i’d let you watch me bleed if you asked me to 
all i could ever want is to talk to you
but i’m in the techclub hoping i see you soon 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 

you’re all that i want and you’re all that i need
when i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
guess i’m just destined to hurt and see shit through  
i’m in the tech club thinking of you 
destined to hurt
destined to bleed 
destined to break is my destiny 
i’m breaking down and falling at the seam
whether i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
i feel i’m too far gone to see my hopes and dreams 
i wanna fucking scream 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 
and i’m really hurt 
you’re hurting me
yeah you’re in my head 
yeah you’re hurting me

bleeding out in front of you (ft. heelflip)

i wake up still unemployed and
make myself a cup of soylent
logon to my favourite website
and scroll through till the end of daylight

you say that i'm
simply wasting my life
oh, all my days are gone
wasted on reddit.com

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me

my cat is so obese
post him on reddit so that he
can be laughed at by online people
dont sit here and try to tell me that i'm evil

i'm wholesome 100
you're probably a normie
who doesn't like big chungus
and browses ifunny
i saw a kid who liked fortnite
so i bullied him to suicide

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me

Kind Stranger

Im so afraid to speak, im scared of everything
everyones watching me, they know that im a freak
im staring at the floor, what am i living for?
i want to be normal, why cant i be normal?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

im staying home again, i dont have any friends
afraid of what they'll think, i shrivel up and shrink
they know im low iq, they know i failed at school
i am a fucking joke, why am i such a joke?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

Too Neurotic

I don’t mean to be a weird guy
But it’s my blood it’s in my mind 
I don’t know how to read social cues
I’m scared to make eye contact when talking to you 

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I feel like a fish up on land 
Im out of control, I don’t understand 
Why you’re laughing, was it something I said?
I’m just gonna shut up, never talking again

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I’m an autism haver
Im fucked forever 
I can never talk to you 
Cuz I can’t take the pressure

Please Be Patient I Have Autism

Pop-Phlodge x Strider 

Lyrics:

Hate my life like Ronnie McNutt
When I get bored I'll grab a gun
I won't see the next rising sun
cause this world is no fun

My life is in a rutt
I dont like when things get tough
it wont be pills 
it wont be cuts
i'll blow my head off like ronnie mcnutt

Im on stream, all alone
got my friends and family on the phone
lost my job I cant pay my loans
No gf im on my own

My life is in a rutt
I dont like when things get tough
it wont be pills 
it wont be cuts
i'll blow my head off like ronnie mcnutt (x2)

Ronnie Mcnutt

PopKill