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fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

im freaking out
coz i got a lotta shit to think about
and i dont know which of it that i should count
coz theres so much
my body hurts and my brain is fucked 

im out
out of reasons to care
my mind is everywhere
ive got 20 missed assignments
i havent made a new song in like 5 months

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

im out
im out of luck
cuz my brain is full of stuff
stuff which never gets done
cuz i find it fucking dumb
im up til 6 am
staring at my phone, im alone again
ive got no friends, ive got no future
so i spend all day on the computer

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

BRAINSOUP!

I Can't Go Back To Her

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getting fucked up every day
brains in a state of decay
tried to change my ways but i said fuck that
been alive for way too long
i dont think anybody will care when im dead and gone

never getting better
ill be fucked forever
got no friends dont leave my home 
i guess that i am dying alone

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

crashed my car into a wall
no one really cares at all
life has got me by the balls i really fucked up
wake up every fucking day
dont know why its all the same 
i dont like living this way

i really fucked myself
now im stuck in hell
i fucking hate everyone
so i dont care about anything anymore

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

FOR THE HELL OF IT (ft. DethTech)

Pop-Phlodge x Chadpilled

Lyrics:
It's been a bummer for a while
I hardly ever smile
why does living feel so vile
cold heart like a reptile
and I got this dry ass phone
no text, no one, no hoes
wish I'd crash out on the road
and rot and die alone

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

you keep blowing up my phone
with pics of you giving dome
so I'll take the benz out to the road
crash into the lake
and drown there cold
as the water feels my lungs
I'll feel the bliss of a 1000 suns
just how the schizos speak in tongues
cause ill know my shitty life is done

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

I'm killing myself tonight I'll be dead by morning
and all of this fucking time I was shouting out warnings
I was crying for help from you guys and you fucking ignored me
so I'm killing myself tonight that's the end of the story

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

Oh God Why (Feat. Cameron Phlodge & Chadpilled)

Lyrics:

I'm so sick of all this shit
took a knife gashed through my wrist
my heart aches
you're such a bitch
don't know why you act like this

why can't you see
the way you left me
why can't you leave 
scars left me empty

these scars I've made
remind me of that day 
when you took my soul
with the tip of your blade

these scars I've made 
remind me of that day 
I was said and done
no hope to escape

you don't know what I've been through
you're a bitch and fuck you too
the choice was yours, now you could choose
you left me hurting and you knew

these scars I've made
remind me of that day 
when you took my soul
with the tip of your blade

these scars I've made 
remind me of that day 
I was said and done
no hope to escape

Scars

1965

Masters and possessors (sons of Cain)

Blackpilled Again

my brain don't work so good
my brain don't work like it should
people say i'm real thick
things they say just never click

i went to special class
somehow i still couldn't pass
all the teachers in the land
couldn't make me understand that i'm

low iq
i can't tie my shoes
i'm low iq
doesn't mean that i don't need love too

low iq 
my earholes go right through
i'm low iq
i need affection just as much as you

they tell me i'm deep in debt
confiscate all my assets
i feel like i'm being oppressed
i don't understand compound interest

truth is i'm just really dumb
pick my nose and suck my thumb
guess i'll always be alone
cuz no one wants a guy with a head full of stones

low iq
put me in a zoo
i'm low iq
doesn't mean that i don't need love too

low iq 
you know that i'll be true
i'm low iq
i need affection just as much as you

me, well, i'm dumb as rocks
this ol' brain is about as good as penny stocks

if i'm the dumbest in the land
does that mean that no one will ever 
hold 
my 
hand?

low iq
if only you knew
i'm low iq
just how much i wanna be with you

low iq
i need loving too
i'm low iq
dumb enough to fall in love with you

low iq
how badly i want to
low iq
fix this useless brain and start anew

low IQ

late for my class again
dont care about the shit that im learning
and all the kids here are so uptight
picking fights thinking that theyre so fucking bright

smoking weed binge drinking
so degenerate what are they thinking
its all a big waste of time i hate this place
they need a kick in the face

sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts

late night go out
try to see what the night life is all about
its all stupid drunk ass kids picking fights
trying to get girls to suck their dicks

its just a big adult day care
paid for by their parents its unfair
no one really wants to be here
wasting their time for a shitty career

sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts

Scars

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