DAY 2 at POP Montreal

From 111 Songs, this is Eddie Helmkay's Custom Song. 

Some info from Nixon about the meaning of this song: 

In August 2014 my doctor told me that I had to have a “quick section”, which is the name for what happens when a surgeon opens up a man’s insides to have a good look at his nuts.  My doctor knew something was wrong (given the size of the lump on my right testicle, I didn’t really need a doctor to tell me there was a problem), and he admitted there was a pretty good chance I had cancer – only, he couldn’t say for sure.  There was also no way of knowing if it had spread to other parts of my body, just that they had to open me up and take a look, and MAYBE remove my right testicle, depending on my diagnosis.    
 
I think I’m a pretty optimistic person.  I can handle bad news.  I can find a silver lining in just about anything.  But one thing I am apparently unable to handle is the level of uncertainty that I experienced in the month leading up to my surgery.  (Because how do you find a silver lining if you can’t even picture the cloud?)  I couldn’t create a picture in my mind of what my life was going to be like after surgery, and it lead to insomnia, anxiety, and fear.  Was everything going to be fine?  Or was I going to have to drop everything and start chemo/radiation therapy to fight the cancer that I potentially had, and maybe go sterile in the process?  (Side note: I had several vials of sperm frozen ahead of time in case this was what happened.  Fun times.) 
 
I became extremely tired from sleepless nights spent worrying.  The feeling that I was barreling towards an unknown fate was psychological torture.  The day of my surgery became a day that I was both terrified of and wanted so badly to arrive to bring an end to the uncertainty. 
 
As it turns out, I did have testicular cancer and I did lose my right testicle.  In its place is a brand new prosthetic ball that is both bigger and harder than the old one.  I quite like it.  But even better than the new nut is the fact that the cancer seems not to have spread to any other part of my body.  For that I am immensely grateful to the doctors and the surgeons for diagnosing me and treating me.  I am SO lucky to live in a country in which someone who would not otherwise be able to afford health care was treated so thoroughly.  (Fun fact:  In matters like this, the urologist who diagnoses you is also the surgeon who operates on you). 
 
Today is world cancer day.  Here is a song that came from my experience with the disease.  Along with my wife, who remained resolute and determined through it all, writing this helped me a lot.  I say this all with the hope that anyone out there dealing with this disease has the kind of support they need.

-Nixon 

Hollerado - 12:01

Off of Still Holding by The Highest Order

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Stare Down The Barrel Of Today

Like A Balloon

art by sham el Ali
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Georgia+Mass

Plan B

I Don't Like Patios

EX EYE - Xenolith; The Anvil(Official Audio)
'Ex Eye' is out now on CD/LP/Digital via Relapse Records
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Ex Eye

Order

EX EYE - Xenolith; The Anvil

Écit par by Scattered Clouds

Mettant en vedette Jamie Kronick (batterie), Michael John Dubue (claviers) et Philippe Charbonneau (basse, claviers, voix)

Réalisé par Philippe Charbonneau et Michael John Dubue
Prise sonore et mixage par Philip Shaw Bova et SC
Mastering par Philip Shaw Bova

Take Away Your Summer

La politique, concours pseudo-érotique

Limited Edition 2LP Vinyl Out Now: https://www.diggersfactory.com/vinyl/312799/oshun-bittersweet-vol-i-ii

from our upcoming album "bittersweet vol. 1"

Parts

A small expression of personal past, Recent History explores how young life influences growth.

Vale Abbott: vocals, synth, keys, acoustic guitar, violin; Shanti Abbott: backing vocals; Greg Markov: bass; Laura Chan: trombone; Braden Sauder: drums; Nathan Hughes-Berry: sitar. 
Recorded by Alf Annibalini at Orange Lounge, and Braden Sauder at Marquee Sound. 
Mastered by Harry Hess at HBomb Mastering.

Wyebridge

Daqa'iq Tudaiq

Bein Ithnein

When I die
I want to feel alive
It's alright
To wanna see the light

Recorded at Studio 2X5 and Golden Ratio
Mixed by Tyler Fitzmaurice
Mastered by Harris Newman at Greymarket
Vocals and piano by Alexia Avina
Piano, vibraphone and cymbal by Nick Schofield
Produced by Nick Schofield 
Additional engineering by Taylor Smith

When I Die

Crickets

01 No, I Insist

©Ⓟ Ushamami

jinx video out on @dazedandconfused 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_ytCWgPLLw

jinx

Music & Lyrics by Sara-Danielle
Produced by Nikolas Benoit-Ratelle, Loukas Perreault-Coderre & Sara-Danielle
Recorded, mixed and mastered by Nikolas Benoit-Ratelle & Loukas Perreault-Coderre

Vocals: Sara-Danielle
Guitar: Karolane Carbonneau
Synthesizers, additional instruments and sounds: Nikolas Benoit-Ratelle & Loukas Perreault-Coderre

Waterfall

GOUCHIE

Portico

Forward and Back

Foward And Back

The theme for Real Love Summer Fest 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TDpElto0J4I

Real Love

Ellis - Colours is out now!

Get it here: https://spinninnext.release.link/colours!SC

Colours

Download / stream

Ellis - Colours [OUT NOW]

Deborah

Dirty Laundry

Festival de musique du 25 au 29 septembre 2024 ✰

POP Montreal International Music Festival is an annual not-for-proﬁt curated cultural event that champions independence in the arts by presenting emerging and celebrated artistic talents from around the world.
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Le Festival de musique internationale POP Montréal est un événement culturel annuel, à but non lucratif, qui encourage l’indépendance artistique en présentant des artistes émergents et renommés du monde entier.