Name: HaveYouLookedInTheMirrorLately? (ushankaboy) by Poseidon's Drowning
Duration: 2 min 29 s
Description: Alternative Melodic Trap, deep the lyrics though <3

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

everything's a blur
what a fucking mess
my heart is never sure
'cause i didn't take my meds
and even if i'm wrong
at least i got to see you
you're a work of art
you're divine in every move

but you could make me spiral just like that
yeah i can make mistakes
but i'm not all bad
i know that i'm a lot
i just wish you understood
if i could trade my heart
for another brain i would

and i don't wanna come off
like i'm obsessed with you
but would it be so crazy
if you felt it too?
i know i got my doubts
i even tried to leave
but every time you text
i find it hard to speak
and even though you're right there on my screen
it feels like you're a thousand miles away from me
i just want us to cross paths eventually
but when you don't respond
it gets hard to breathe

and even though you're right there on my screen
it feels like you're a thousand miles away from me
i just want us to cross paths eventually
but when you don't respond
it gets hard to breathe

they don't know what i been through
i'm glad you know
all about my cracked skin and fragile bones
i just wanna make sure that we take it slow
i don't wanna ruin our one chance to grow
i'm a mess
i don't care bout what i need
i just need to know that you still want me
i know i need constant reassurance
i've earned this
i worked too hard on myself
so it's time i cause a disturbance

and i don't wanna come off
like i'm obsessed with you
but would it be so crazy
if you felt it too?
i know i got my doubts
i even tried to leave
but every time you text
i find it hard to speak
and even though you're right there on my screen
it feels like you're a thousand miles away from me
i just want us to cross paths eventually
but when you don't respond
it gets hard to breathe

so take my hand, we'll be alright
you rain check for another night
splitting headaches, they beckon me
just like a lighthouse across the sea 

hold me closer now
i feel like i'm so lost in this world
i'm just tryna figure you out
i'm so inadequate to my core

for nothing

mixed by me
mastered by Ally Holloway
produced by metlast
artwork by my gf <3

constantly looking towards the sky
and wondering why i’m even alive
i can never begin to fathom
why i was even put here on this earth
was it just suffer?
beyond what i could imagine?..
i’ll let gravity, grab me by the feet
to pull me 6ft deep

(oh underneath 
their decaying bodies still haunt me)

dragging me under the ground
slowly suffocating so i can’t make a sound
it seems i’ve found a new home
with the ghost around im less alone
hoping i could find a better way
to rid the world of my lunacy
looking for any opportunity
to fade away and ameliorate this world…

of me
so cold
and empty

so i solidified the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that were telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you said to me
6ft deep is where i fended up being
so as the light from the tunnel grew darker and darker 
my mind grew further and further away
you should’ve stayed stayed with me 
but you left my body alone to decay

(you left me alone
traversing the unknown)

ameliorate this world (metlast)

u and me baby girl forever
we gon dance in the club together
u n me baby girl for ever
we gon smoke dope n fuck like crazy

u and me baby girl forever
we gon dance in the club together
u n me baby girl for ever
we gon smoke dope n fuck like crazy 


for sure ive been waiting all my life
runin round the world try'n just to find
someone to be  like robin n starfire
to tell the truth i thought i was gon fail 

baby girl i know 
u contemplated suicide
but you survived 
for u and me just to find
there's a reason
to stay alive 
that we love to dance 
just like fireflies 

if u ever sad 
or feel alone
just hit me up
ill pick u up

if u ever alone
or with a broken heart
just hit me up 
ill pick u up

u and me baby girl forever
we gon dance in the club together
u n me baby girl for ever
we gon smoke dope n fuck like crazy

u and me baby girl forever
we gon dance in the club together
u n me baby girl for ever
we gon smoke dope n fuck like crazy 

and i know ur dad hates me cuz im always high
i know u hate him  cuz he never tried to understand
girl no one is a fuck up  just for being sad
u are the only reason i stay alive

cuz there is one thing i cant tell u for certain
i was fallin i was drowning u saved me
ill always be for u n by ur side
cuz we love to dance like fireflies 

if u ever sad 
or feel alone
just hit me up
ill pick u up

if u ever alone
or with a broken heart
just hit me up 
ill pick u up

u and me baby girl forever
we gon dance in the club together
u n me baby girl for ever
we gon smoke dope n fuck like crazy

u and me baby girl forever
we gon dance in the club together
u n me baby girl for ever
we gon smoke dope n fuck like crazy

u n me 4 ever(prod. yaxis)

radio signals nice 
to keep you out of my mind
this girl from math
she learned to drive 
over the weekend
i came home n cried

tears bruised my skin
as i realized
ill never know u enough
in this lifetime
all of the pretty things i dont get to touch
always always die

i can't lose u now
I'm not strong enough
gimme a couple of months
ill get back in touch
I can't lose ur hand 
i can barely hold on to shit
I barely got shit to live for
I barely got shit

i 
im so mean
who'd wanna talk to me
maybe we can just scream
maybe let's just get sore throats 
for the rest of our lives
so we'd have a better excuse 
than "I just couldn't get the conversation ryt"

i can't lose u now
I'm not strong enough
gimme a couple of months
ill grow up
I can't lose ur hand 
i don't know where to go
I barely got shit to live for
I barely got shit to live for

MAYB JUST SCREAM..

[The cycle is easy to get caught in, it isn't hard to recognize it, but damn is it hard to break]

thanks for listening <3

LYRICS:
i thought that it’d be different by this point
idk
expectations set at younger ages only lay the foundation for disappointment

i could never know what they meant
when precedents are set so early on
you find yourself chasing expectations you’d never expect to be met
but nonetheless keep racing forward till you hit a wall
and that’s the problem with growth
you thought it would be linear
like no way i’d be back to days where i thought i was inferior
to everyone around me even friends and maybe family
faces covered masquerading love to hide the scrutiny
triggers set to spark a mutiny my common sense abandons ship
when i’m confronted with any sort of lack of clarity
cause attention issues only risen too inept to kill my skepticism 
set to spill my cynicism
speculating placement in this world i hope to gain forgiveness
from any action that i didn’t even do but still projected
focus dwindled over time at 18 thought i had it covered
but with age i found you can’t escape foundations of your character

and that’s kinda really sad though isn’t it
bits of history ingrained your brain’s mosaic of events
cause influence to split the present past and future to their limits 
ends in disruption of emotion pause security feed the critics
i know my biggest one is me 
this sentiment seems to be heavy in the hearts of everybody
so infuriating to go a day or week or even month
okay with issues kept at bay and then the dam just breaks apart
i’m human know you that know just need to convince myself
my standards get set higher after every goal i think they killed my health
cause my chest will start to tighten and my breath is feeling shallow
when the thought of moving forward creeps up in the evening hours
and i feel lonely fucking lonely even with the ones i love
cause i could never be convinced my effort put in was enough
and i could never say that to your face at least in ways i think would matter
it’s hard to know my feelings matter
cause those standards breach containment poison every single corner
of my life i tried to stabilize to a state resembling order
concentration dedication find my place and make a name
i held on to depression familiarity was safe
but the issue with development is that trauma’s tucked away
ready to bleed into present bomb an ordinary day

so no, growth isn’t linear
and i think i always knew that
i just kinda hoped it was
i can recognize the pressure i put on myself to overcome obstacles before i’m ready
and can recognize that i’m projecting when i think that people hate me
i can recognize that this isn’t it, i have so much to do and see
but recognition is only the first step
so for the time being i’ll be right here

a theory on growth [prod. eeryskies]

infinite rizz

produced by me (dawsin)
mix and mastered by me (dawsin)
written and preformed by me (dawsin)

(AMV) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6iv_vSbFm_s

lyrics ♡ :

"it hurts doesn't it?"

oh ur cheating now?
thats just how it goes 
and the more you lie the more youll break ur nose
and im too tired, i wanna break my phone
and the more you cry the more i feel at home

you thought u buried me? well its not gonna happen
with the more the merrier the more the sadness
think im fucked up, but i can't tell you that shit
but i'm done with love don't you ever call me back bitch

you think im dumb? im done with all your lies
it's not what you do, its all of you i despise
your pissing me off, i cant tell you enough
rip out my heart and i watch as it pumps


the more u fuck around the more likely youll bleed out
how dare u say something to my bro ill knock ur teeth out
the words u say are blatantly just way too loud
locked in my room creating music with unique sound

cuz i aint got time for this no life for this
dont wanna go thru this again
beat that pussy up until he suffers and dies for his sins
what else am i supposed to sing about when i lost all my friends?
this is why i hate myself and i wont ever talk again

(stop)

the more u fuck around the more likely youll bleed out
how dare u say something to my bro ill knock ur teeth out
the words u say are blatantly just way too loud
locked in my room creating music with unique sound

tragedy

destroy еverything

curated by nisshoku
all credit goes to morri, he worked his ass off for this song and it truly shows

enjoy

lyrics:
I never lied
I wish i could
spend my time with you
And everyday i think of you

Let yourself
fall apart
In my arms
I promise
I will keep you safe
From everything u hate
I will cave a way
I will cave a way

My heart
can't take this
I wish you well
My lover's spell
(Lover's spell)

I lost u once again
This time it is permanent
I dont want ur sentiment
I knew i would fall again
I lost u once again
This time it is permanent
I dont want ur sentiment
I knew i would fall again

morri - it’ll be okay

https://open.spotify.com/track/6mGSl8ijLF2RWgvY3PZnRG

stopped proving something to people
she wanted to arrange a sequel
I fight inside with evil
but playing with so much illegal
you covered your body in ink
you tryna hide cuts on your skin
you tryna hide your feelings
we broke up our dealings 

if I get no friends 
its nevermind
my circle small 
i got no time 
its never end 
my heart divide 
i got 2 ways 
to change my life 
I don't like take care about fake friends
I don't like take care about my self
I dont like to hear you speak in that manner
I don't like it when u calling my name 
you spreading gossips behind my back
im gonna leave you it's not my bad 
try to destroy me im fucking mad 
kill all my feelings it's all i bad 

i don't like u
 could u stop touching me?
 the way u talk
 always makes me feel anxiety
 easy to breathe out
 but i can't seem to breathe in
 trynna control myself
 i don't wanna lose it here

 she fucking loves it when i cry
 i fucking hate when she lies
 lying down with other guys
 making me want to rip oout my eyes

 i tell her the truth she denies
 promises me love til she dies
 i have other wars to fight
 i can't be having u killing my mind
 running out of time 


I Dont Like feat. casperrr

Alternative Melodic Trap, deep the lyrics though <3

HaveYouLookedInTheMirrorLately? (ushankaboy)

Poseidon's Drowning

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