melmige vibes 🔥 fr tho dope track 🖤

still keep coming back to this track, its so beautiful <3

Every second's important
I just wanna see your face
Void of all feeling before this
Guess there's a time and a place

Sweat on my palms
I don't know what to say
Wonder went wrong
Thought it would feel the same
Cried out for help
But no one was listening
Drag me through mud and then act surprised
I cover my eyes
but I see straight through your disguise
Mutual feelings arise
This won't end till one of us dies

Every second's important
I just wanna see your face
Void of all feeling before this
Guess there's a time and a place
I know it's long overdue
Find it hard to live without you

overdue

thx @777evil & @nokerbforever <3

Life is alway changing, youll find a new perspective
Im sorry that i did this, but that shits not respected
fucked up once we let it go, you fuck up twice and then it shows
That you never changed, and you never will
in me builds the rage, to the point where i could kill
put a bullet in your chest, watch the blood pour out and spill
I trusted you, you gave me nothing, i shouldve known, you were up to something
A second chance, we deserve it all, but people like you, put us all at fault
And theres nothing i could say, you didnt learn your lesson
Forgave you the first time, but i cant do a second

Choices fall, into a sick shape
Reminisce the times we fixate
On our broken souls
Swear i let it go
Every fucking second
But your failure it shows

evilmiku:
i can’t keep up with every single change
you try to make everything bad a game
all of these thoughts you planted in my brain
but i won’t go down from anything you say

NOKERB:
you would always pressure me to get shit done
lately i been wondering if this is all worth it
wasted my time on you, thought it was perfect
it was not, you was treating me so worthless
i wonder how long it all will last.. 
the choices fell!
you was treating me like trash
im on the edge of falling down
baby im about to jump

choices fall ft. evilmiku & NOKERB [prod. saint mike]

Mixed/Mastered By Me
-
Produced By Blossom
-
Lyrics
u said ur leaving me soon
so why u crying again 
It's all in my head
don't pretend that u care cause 
I know that u don't 
It's all in my head 

wanna see u again 
but it feels like ur miles away 
it sucks i see gray through my eyes 
I wish that I could change my life 

my whole life 

u said ur leaving me soon
so why u crying again 
It's all in my head
don't pretend that u care cause 
I know that u don't 
It's all in my head 

It sucks that it's all ending tonight
don't ever wanna feel alone
I don't wanna end up crying 
and have my head around your arms 

ur arms

u said ur leaving me soon
so why u crying again 
It's all in my head
don't pretend that u care cause 
I know that u don't 
It's all in my head 
X2

Spotify

it's all in my head (blossom)

shoutout @memoryfactory on the feature
AMV by biteki: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sPqBtBqltMI
LYRIC!!!
On a quiet sunday evening, you stand on broken ground
I know you may be grieving, but there's nothing to be found
I dont know, why you come here
Waste my time, its  unclear
Things dont always make much sense
I cut our ties our dividends 

Back in time you were my friend
Actually you were more than that
You were the one i loved, and i adored you back
We were once together long ago
But things dont work out in this show
if things dont work out the first time, i doubt they work twice

[memory factory]
no worry, you found me
just hope i'm on the way
don't worry, things won't work out
this broken glass might hurt now
but not for long
tell me to please don't act like it's just a scene

broken ground ft. memory factory [prod. coka$ian]

engieered by kii. 
mastered by kii.
produced by king theta 
written by kii.

lyrics: 
it's been 4 months since you called me 
i know that you're broken you say that your lonely
i know why you called me 
and no i know, i know i know 
you spend days inside my bed 
blame me for all this dread 
know you felt bad when you broke my heart
and i been inside my head
and i cannot go to bed 

and i'm so sorry i didn't mean to leave 
and all these lies all they do is deceive
and i can't breathe with all these people looking at me 
looking at me 
looking at me yeah 

the cigarette ash left on my bed spread 
oh our last left me breathless 
i guess i know you have a deathwise 
your parents never settles all these issues they left
oh the soul tide that you gave left with my last breath
i can't tell you how felt that last night 
we spent together and we could sit and cry 
we can sit and cry 
we can sit and cry 
we can sit and cry 
sit and cry 

and i'm so sorry i didn't mean to leave 
and all these lies all they do is deceive
and i can't breathe with all these people looking at me 
looking at me 
looking at me 
and all you do is argue with me 
and no i can't take it when i'm breaking down 
is leave, leave

silk sheets - (king theta)

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

the waiting game's begun 
so i can't talk a lot
she's got it figured out
while i'm left in the dark
there's no escaping me
i'm bound to my own fears
'cause this is who i am 
i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome 
disadvantaged and alone 
nobody ever checks on me
'cause they know i'm out of hope
why do i take up this space? 
i'm not worthy, i'm afraid
how can i make it more clear that
i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess 
there was no saving me 
i took it all straight to the heart 
now i've got jealousy
the greenest eyes you've ever seen
staring carefully
i'm sorry that i'm not that strong 
my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility
i'm like a tree stuck in the dark 
suffering and steep 
and while i'm stuck behind a screen 
there's no agency
i've come to realize i'm not free 
there is no release

i came on too strong 
but how is that wrong?
i can't help it if i have a heart
that's full of love
fuck what they all say 
i'm borderline insane
i wouldn't get close to me
if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability
i burden those close to me 
don't you ever feel like you're the
only one who's lost at sea?
reading all your messages 
feel the sting inside my chest 
pace around my room until i
write off every word you said

even if i was found dead
i'd hope that you won't regret 
everything you never said
i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day 
i still care about you
regardless of our statuses
i know you'll find truth
the boundaries we put in place
will keep us en route 
we all change, but honestly 
we can't forget our roots

-----

anima

lyrics:
im scared to open up
can i just take a month?
ill come back when im done
to you
irregular approach
a jester with no jokes
and im left more confused

fazed by the daylight
take time to make time
or shut it all out

uncomfortable silence is all i can hear
when i close my eyelids nothing disappears
thought i was behind it, but i guess its still here
thats the way it goes

thats the way it goes

[The cycle is easy to get caught in, it isn't hard to recognize it, but damn is it hard to break]

thanks for listening <3

LYRICS:
i thought that it’d be different by this point
idk
expectations set at younger ages only lay the foundation for disappointment

i could never know what they meant
when precedents are set so early on
you find yourself chasing expectations you’d never expect to be met
but nonetheless keep racing forward till you hit a wall
and that’s the problem with growth
you thought it would be linear
like no way i’d be back to days where i thought i was inferior
to everyone around me even friends and maybe family
faces covered masquerading love to hide the scrutiny
triggers set to spark a mutiny my common sense abandons ship
when i’m confronted with any sort of lack of clarity
cause attention issues only risen too inept to kill my skepticism 
set to spill my cynicism
speculating placement in this world i hope to gain forgiveness
from any action that i didn’t even do but still projected
focus dwindled over time at 18 thought i had it covered
but with age i found you can’t escape foundations of your character

and that’s kinda really sad though isn’t it
bits of history ingrained your brain’s mosaic of events
cause influence to split the present past and future to their limits 
ends in disruption of emotion pause security feed the critics
i know my biggest one is me 
this sentiment seems to be heavy in the hearts of everybody
so infuriating to go a day or week or even month
okay with issues kept at bay and then the dam just breaks apart
i’m human know you that know just need to convince myself
my standards get set higher after every goal i think they killed my health
cause my chest will start to tighten and my breath is feeling shallow
when the thought of moving forward creeps up in the evening hours
and i feel lonely fucking lonely even with the ones i love
cause i could never be convinced my effort put in was enough
and i could never say that to your face at least in ways i think would matter
it’s hard to know my feelings matter
cause those standards breach containment poison every single corner
of my life i tried to stabilize to a state resembling order
concentration dedication find my place and make a name
i held on to depression familiarity was safe
but the issue with development is that trauma’s tucked away
ready to bleed into present bomb an ordinary day

so no, growth isn’t linear
and i think i always knew that
i just kinda hoped it was
i can recognize the pressure i put on myself to overcome obstacles before i’m ready
and can recognize that i’m projecting when i think that people hate me
i can recognize that this isn’t it, i have so much to do and see
but recognition is only the first step
so for the time being i’ll be right here

a theory on growth [prod. eeryskies]

my face is made of clay, my skin is moss, my heart is rock

featuring @sydcxx

first out of three tracks for the "moss man" EP

thank you for listening

LYRICS:

what’s the difference between hope and desperation
patience isn’t what’s rewarded praising full complacence
dull the force of
nature i’m organic know my body made of dust
and when i’m speaking to the trees the whispered melodies will slow my rust
and ease the pain of generations humbled by the earth i must
wash out the stain of condemnation that i set upon myself
the beauty’s left me at a loss

i think the wires have been crossed or neurons fired into fog
cause the sirens only off when every warning should be on
i switch positions at the cost
of my stability the option
to respond to my behavior only present when i’m lost
and a fork that splits the road that i will one day surely cross
is hazy maybe safety is the goal
disoriented since the mold
that made my shape my face is clay
my skin is moss my heart is rock
i drift away

into ethereal green scenery
the dreams of a delinquent
see a decline of lucidity
intentions aren’t apparent
anymore
sure i’ve made it this far
but every checkpoint is a bar
that’s raised
im starting to unravel harsh realities the day
that i wake up and reach the height of growing standards
in despite of situations i perpetuate i know i’ve lost my fight
cause i find purpose in the pursuit of feeling right

born in the image of what could have been
and still can be
torn to bits i would have welcomed it to bring relief
cause what’s a bit of pain to face the music
loosen grip on toxic routines to acknowledge my avoidance
of reality grew accustomed to a state of being
and i got many theories
ones on fate humanity and growth
i’ve shown progress found a home but i regret the time i tried to stay afloat alone

so i hope you sing of me
when i return to which i came
from deep within the the trees
i’m sorry every time i pushed away cause i was stubborn
sorry that i had make u question if my character
lined up with what you knew about my heart and at which caliber
i operated on i’m sorry life can be unbearable
i’m so predictable in ways and in others i live chaos

cause my face is made of clay my skin is moss my heart is rock

moss man (feat sydcxx) [prod eeryskies]

don't worry, it's not your fault

the conclusion to moss man

very special shoutout to the boys @horoshavibes and @swainesworld for helping make this happen

LYRICS:

(HOROSHA)
How would you like to lose your mind tonight?
How would you like to lose your mind tonight?

I guess I'm feeling it again,
it's like an energy borne from anxiety
and I can't shake it
information age, restless
paralyzed by potential endings

there's a million different ways to face oblivion
wait, it's too much, I'd better change apps
before I'm nauseated by the cognitive dissonance
of our own algorithms manufacturing distance
we're not okay

(MELMIGE)
slipping through the cracks again
mental chemistry off balance ensuring that i can’t relax a friend
is sayin something goes unnoticed
paying price for old components
seizing up i’m not as young as i once was
decades pass in a single month
relegated comfort cause i don’t stress enough
sometimes i try to listen but the instant some transmission
message sent i spread the distance
know that it’s not intention
i just can’t focus show a moment of my clarity
remember what i spoke on the comedy
how connections overwhelms and burdens younger minds
now mine is hurting all the voices gather into static find
it’s harder now to see the nuance
comprehension skills are put off
for instant gratification
no time given for creation
now i’m forgetting what i’m doing why i’m here or my relation
to the world around me
hoped by now i would’ve found me

stimuli inspires me to be complacent
now i’m tired nothing else about me
switching focus of my vision no precision
in my irises just finding nicer views for timelessness
and obstinance a pinch on tendons couldn’t wake me up
feel romero monster living numb and willful ignorance
reset tensions every time i’m swiping up
preset thoughts can’t miss the posts i want
attention fucked so i can’t help but be blunt

(SWAINE)
back on my 1 track shit
wait a minute
collecting myself like the damn deck just finished
was back in my cell
just a shell, mad diminished
feeding into self-help took me out of the grander vision
and the massive picture that im
paintin when i stay rappin with it
i cant believe it
i had to leave it
im way too down low to even speak it to existence

i know im misfit
i know that im different
i know that im mixed in with all these others who cant grab me without gloves like a pigskin
i know i dont fit in
i know i aint sticky like glue before they mix it
when i stick on em i aint ever lettin go
cuz this shit aint a fuckin hobby
think that i already told you so
i think you already know

put the blame on me here i go
if i was anybody else, i'd blow
if i made a song just a little emo
if i wasnt wrong would i really be close?
close to the edge
close to the ledge
if i jumped off, I'd be a legend i guess
you know im a dog, ima do what i said
and i still got it all left in me, fuck yes

romero (feat horosha and swaine) [prod alanfor]

PRODUCED BY PACIFIC & POLAR
ENGINEERED BY BYEFLORET
MASTERED BY BYEFLORET
WRITTEN BY BYEFLORET

lyrics 
wait for me baby 
tell me why you’re lazy 
told me you were changing
i don't wanna leave 
no one else behind now
i don't wanna leave 
no one else behind now 

i don't wanna leave now
i don't wanna leave now
and i don't wanna leave now 
whatcha wanna say when im sober
 drinking baby come right over 

sixteen days and i told you lies and why 
i wanna die like i been wanna cry 
told you i am fine no i don't wanna die
say that i'm just fine say you're just fine
told me all the lies sixteens days and i 
told you i'm just fine told you i'm just fine 

late night drinking 
friends are leaving
mentals depleting 
whatcha really missing now 
whatcha wanna say call me now
told me you love me not right now 
i said i miss you now 
could you take me back right now 
would it even matter right now 
and i don't wanna let you 

sixteen days and i told you lies and why 
i wanna die like i been wanna cry 
told you i am fine no i don't wanna die
say that i'm just fine say you're just fine
told me all the lies sixteens days and i 
told you i'm just fine told you im just fine

a theory on growth [prod. eeryskies]

melmige

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