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DEEP THOUGHTS FROM AN IDIOT SERIES

The deepest thoughts an idiot can have. Questions that shouldn't be answered.

Deep thoughts from an Idiot

https://www.facebook.com/badwolfny

Lyrics:

i'm looking at myself
but i see someone else
in the space behind the glass
i know this space too well
i spend a lot of time
pretending i'm alright
saying thing's like, i'll recover
or everything is fine
when it's not fine

i wear black jeans in the summer
to cover up my scars
and when people ask i tell them
that i have not been burned so far
cause i never leave my house
not because i have no friends
but because the thought of getting up
is worse than just pretending i'm alright
when i'm not alright

wake me up when this is over
let me know where i belong
they said, “you'll be better when you're older”
i said, “i don't think i'll last that long”
						
i left my excuses in the car
and left my courage at the door
so when i came to talk some sense to you
i forgot what i was fighting for 
and if this is where i'm at
then i wonder where i'll be
when i finally get the nerve to say that you can't fuck with me anymore
i'll be stronger than i ever was before

rewind to looking at myself
and seeing someone else
why couldn't i just see myself
how fucking hard is it to tell
that the face that's staring back
has been through all the shit you have
and he never left your side
and he always had your back
you were alone
and he was the only one who stayed there
you were alone
and he was the only one who still cared

wake me up when this is over
let me know where i belong
they said, “you'll be better when you're older”
i said, “i don't think i'll last that long”

I'm Not Alright

Upside Down Frowns (feat. Atlas)

VISUAL

Heart Attack [Prod. JVCXB]

Such Nice Sounds - Atlas

Lyrics;

I want everything there is to have don't say I'm wrong 
I've been through the worst and yet I'm still here standing strong
step into my mind you'll last two seconds then you're gone 
demons in my penthouse know the words to all my songs 
sing along if you feel it, hey
fill it up then sip it, hey 
i still got my vision, hey
fuck it ill go missing, yh yh 
this is the sickest game 
brand-new cold devision, hey 
twisted and efficient, hey 
screaming helps the crippling pain.
I can't be giving advice, aye
bottle your hatred inside, yh
loose yourself when you get high, ouu
i do that shit all the time, aye 
i told my lover goodbye, yh 
sometimes i hope that she dies, yh
i got no tears left to cry, yh
im really gonna blow this time like, ay.
I got my foot on the throttle, yh 
drowning my sorrows in bottles, yh 
i carry baggage like cargo, hey 
someone please help me I'm not okay
i want the plaques like im Dr dre
stunting with jewels like everyday 
your chain looks nice so they confiscate 
if i get desperate ill rob the safe
i know you wish you were me i got rich and i finally got money to eat
shit i was down for a minute or 3 
i got scars on the tops and the backs of my feet, aye 
lastly i know how to breath
took me so long to get back on my feet 
i never quit you see quitting is weak 
change up the vision with things that i speak, yhyh.

In all my searching theres this one thing that i found,
we don't go to heaven we just rot inside the ground 

6 feet x4
stay down right down x4
6 feet x4
stay down right down x4

6 FEET [Prod. MUPPY]

Atlas - Holding Yr Hand (prod. Yung Bae)

Freshman Halloween

produced by @jhfly

lyrics:

i often sit and wonder how your hand would feel
if we were sitting on my carpet sharing chamomile
keep a lot of little secrets that i can't reveal
until we're high at 3 am just sharing chamomile
(x2)

i guess...

i've got a letters that i've written
a few of them i'm tempted to incinerate
they tend to pile up around my desk
at the frequency of sadness and dinner plates
it's easy to get lost inside of memories
it's harder to pretend that isn't bothersome
you told me 'bout your favorite kinds of flowers
so i went to the market and i got you some

i didn't even break down when i left my house
i didn't even get anxious when i went out
you know the words never sound quite right when they leave my mouth
but, darling, just finish your tea, and we'll go lay down
we can go lay down

i often sit and wonder how your hand would feel
if we were sitting on my carpet sharing chamomile
keep a lot of little secrets that i can't reveal
until we're high at 3 am just sharing chamomile

flowers ep

chamomile (prod. jhfly)

tan- Iwrotethiswheniwassadimbetternowlol

hey cool song coming for 100k
here's a thing i made this morning
also i'm on hiatus

@beet_farmer

lyrics:
wake up, take my morning walk, and pass out on the porch again
shatter under pressure, pilot corpses made of porcelain
terrified of questions, 'specially "lesser than..." or "more than friends?"
i panic over people like a swimmer to a dorsal fin

i'm out my element in every single element
bad with conversations, speak in nervous stares and mellow shifts in tone
in every room i occupy, i play the elephant
and glance at clocks to tick away the moments 'til farewell and dip

if anxious was a role one could fill upon a credits list
i'd grab an oscar every other time i left my bed a bit
performing well enough to leave my colleagues in a deficit
the academy awards would be incredulous

i'm often opulent in time alone, purveyor of the faux pas
horrible at family festivities, silent, phone on
i wander to the dinner table, fumble to the coleslaw
and wish i was at home so i could doze off

morning walk (prod. dweeb)

grim flow - 143 Means I Love You (prod. Zeeky Beats)

Fallen Angel

grim flow - Fallen Angel

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