yo, i just released my new album "a series of unfortunate events." im very very proud of it, and would live if you would give it a listen <3

In my future diary, I can see us flying free, but you got school and family. You got real shit happening.

sad boi

hope you all doing good. theres someone out there going through the same thing. Jesus loves you <3

#SCFirst

the long way home (feat. Sarcastic Sounds & Sara Kays)

drinking under the streetlights

a classmate from a different world

future diary

mario kart

soda stream sky

tell me your feelings and i won't tell you mine

a castle by the sea

ice heart

sleeping on the floor

draw you inside my book

draw you inside my book (feat. KMays)

produced by @chivnti

lyrics:

nose lame as fuck get it peirced like a bull
i live and i die to be different
if we fuck just know that my hearts not involved
i learned i could numb my emotions

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

mid september ill be fucking crazy
swear to god im ugly no one wanna date me
i been so fucked up i want it please dont save me
whenever im stuck like this all my dreams amazing

when i make plans respond within the fuckin minute
im not busy but i hate it
10 minutes tops and im not waiting

like what the fuck u comtemplating 
for so long
u wouldnt do this if i made it
and blew up

i always hated being sheltered
im not urs just give it up
i go to parties full of strangers
just to come thru and fuck it up

at least my music going good
but knowing me ill prolly fuck it up
tonight my head is feeling good
but of course i always drug it up

i went from always being late
to pretty much never showing up
i went from i dont have a plug
to damn my plug is coming clutch

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

art found at http://johnnysboots.tumblr.com/post/76103773768

scissor hands (prod. chivnti)

"the way we used to love." coming this winter. . . my next album is on its way.

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LYRICS

i'm always so alone
even when surrounded 
by people that i know

i'm always so astounded
by my ability to ruin everything
losing friends and starting fires
everyone thinks i'm a liar

i always stay at home
cause i'm not good in public
i sit here on my phone

i'm always disappointed 
i watch them live their lives
i wish that i were happy
victim of my generation
time machines can not erase it

who am i supposed to be?
when will i be complete?
when will they be proud of me?
it's getting harder to see

slit my wrists, bloody fists
questioning why i exist

pain persists, evil gifts
fucking up my life to shit

i'm worthless, i'm worthless
i'm worthless, slit my wrists until i bleed out

i try to stay strong
no matter what i do,
i'm always in the wrong

it never gets easier,
but maybe that's the point
it's part of growing up
messing up and learning from it
that's just life, it's necessary

clinging to hope
what else is there to live for?
got nowhere to go
what else is pain good for?

i am confident that your life has purpose
it's okay, you will get through it
don't give up cause someone needs you

please, don't give up
gotta stay strong, gotta move on
gotta know hope, when you feel low
please, you gotta know
that someone needs you

please, don't give up
gotta stay strong, gotta move on
gotta know hope, when you feel low
please, you gotta know
that i need you

worthless

Music video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ED8-mym1uXU
You are not alone. It is okay to not be okay. Message me on instagram @seon_47. I am here for you
Maybe I can be so sad when I’m not 
Life can be so lonely and I’m stuck up in the thoughts
Everything I’m wantin I can have it at the top
But I’m at the bottom I’m surrounded by the rocks

If I had love would I still feel this lonely 
I was by myself and nobody had to show me 
Never gave a fuck nobody tried to know me 
Handing out these guns but nobody tryna blow me

I don’t wanna be here I just wanna go 
Wanna leave my family everybody that I know 
Suicidal thought will they miss me when I go 
Tryna get high i been riding all the lows

Finally getting sober and it bringing back the pain
Sunny for a minute now it’s cloudy with the rain 
Shit falling down and it bringing back mistakes 
future looking blurry I don’t see it in my fate 

Whyy oh whyyy
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad Itll never be alright 

Please come and save me I really need saving 
These are not just lyrics I’m really not playing 
This life that I’m living I feel like I’m faking
If I can’t be real then it time for the taking

Come take my life and my soul
When I’m not even old
I been searching for hot cause my heart is so cold 
say I dont listen not doing I’m told
don’t fit the system I’ll never be gold 

If I hit escape would i just fall and go to hell 
Moses say I would but who is he to go and tell
Wanna judge me now but not gon hear me when I yell 
I been crying out said I really need some help

Nobody wanna talk nobody picking up the vibes 
Smile on my face but they can’t tell that it’s a lie 
Cover for the sorrow that I’m feeling deep inside 
Hit em with the shock when they hear i wanna die

Whyy oh whyyy
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad Itll never be alright

Video

never be alright [prod. kado] (video in description)

Error In Ur Perfect Little World

Cover art by    @ peachy.rosie    (on instagram)

LYRICS

Making me sick
Lose my shit
Go party
I'm staying in
Once again
We're parting
Girl, do you sin 'cause I sin
I'm sorry
Losing my shit
Can we sit and restart it
You rip me up shawty
Do it no sorries
I show you love always
You give it back hardly
I want you so strongly
You want me back partly
One look and I'm concrete
That look that say "don't stop me"
...well I won't

All you want is just a break
Don't know why you feel this way
Did your heart stand still?
Won't you look at my face?
Can't you tell me what's his name?
I need someone I can blame
When I'm taking these pills
When I let myself fade

future diary

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