produced by skylin

lyrics:

I don't want to be alone, I reached out to everyone
no one answering my calls, don't blame me when I am gone
feeling all this hatred and anxiety in my heart
can't control the thoughts that rush in I have to restore

please do not leave me I need you right here
patience is fleeting and you're nowhere near
cut off all my ties remove all emotion
treat me like some shit I know that you want this

why did you think that it was okay to leave me now?
I sit here all alone and I can't hear a single sound

I said that I'll be A-OK but I was lying out my face
the few that I would call my friends thought that I left without a trace

light a blunt and hold my tongue I cannot use the words I want
fuck him up and leave him rough if he think I won't piece him up
do no harm but take no shit, I promise you that's how I live
I don't really talk that much but it don't mean you won't get clipped

effort

free for non-profit (soundcloud & youtube) , must credit in title (prod. shy)
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BPM: 105
Key: Dm

bruise (i'm geist x skele guitar type beat)

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

I still save a seat for you
it’s just out of habit
I can’t remembered what happened

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

there’s this void inside my chest
inside my head, I can’t fill it
don’t know the last thing I said,
the last thing we did
why couldn’t I cry that day?
no tears streaming down my face

I wish I could say goodbye- bye- bye 
would I feel the same?
or would I get peace of mind? - mind - mind
wish we could go back frame by frame
take it all away
one more time

but we don’t get what we ask for

why am I breaking down
I’m feeling it now
there’s no use in hiding when no one's around
I’ll figure it out
I won’t make a sound
I’ll keep it to myself like it’s all I’m allowed
I still save a seat for you
Only if I knew 
We’d be stuck like glue
Til the end

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

still save a seat for you / don't worry about me

still save a seat for you

I forgot to listen, should I pretend u love me 
There’s something in the air, it’s something I should never breathe 
Clouds are looking morbid at the top I’m at the peak 
Tryna get em out, my words get stuck and I can’t speak
Holding on this mountain girl this gravity’s calling me 
Maybe if it’s fair it would let go but keep hold of me 
Cause I have this obsession and I keep rushing into things 
Maybe it’d better if I wasn’t so annoying 
I’m boring 
This isn’t what I wanted 
Wanted 
It’s too much to hear u calling
Calling
I just want u to be honest
Honest
I’m so replaceable 
I’m not really made for anybody else
But your eyes 
And your eyes only 
I’m so pathetic I can’t believe that I tell you how I really felt
But ur eyes and ur eyes only

wish you would have met me at a different time 
Maybe somewhere far we beneath the plane we realign 
Coincide
Nlm, there’s nobody here that I like
Push me away while I’m burning inside 

Feel like an animal I’m trapped inside a cage for you
I’m far beneath the plane
I wonder if you hate me too
Take my pulse don’t let me breathe until my eyes are blue 
Buried conciously my bones are breaking out in 2 

I’ll keep swinging til he’s dead
Dropped down on the floor
And If I miss I’ll pierce a lung heart kidney and all
If only he would listen 
Dickhead keep ur mouth shut
U told me it was fine
And it was not love
But I don’t really care
I never have done
U think he’ll keep u safe
He’s never backed no one
I could take him by the ear and hold him ransom 
Now he’s not even ur friend he’ll never have none 

Take a lil time out my day
I feel it’s all a disgrace 
My body’s rotting, decaying
I’ll throw it all to waste 
When I see myself in the mirror
I put my hands to my face 
So I can’t see what I’ve done 
Don’t wanna see anymore 
Don’t ask me if I’m fine 
My knife isn’t  even towards
Any skin, it’s passed that line
Least I’m not hitting the floor
Even if I was I’d lie
Let the ground coat  me in mold 
Sorry for wasting ur time
I been meaning to let you go

newmaker IV

it'll be okay

the temperamental feeling will pass
and then i’ll go home
i don’t take meds for any pain
i feel it in slow mo
baby don’t you dare say my name
cause i don’t know you
play cautious but i still lose the game

so i tripped
i fell
blood's on the stairwell
i stand where we kissed
and say my farewells
again
it always ends the same

what do you even want from me?
can’t you see I can’t fucking breathe?
there’s a beautiful thing about pain and suffering
it all depends on what you believe

crumbling in my skin
always lose never win
drink from the bottle until i spin and spin and fucking spin
out of control
i can feel it all in my bones
i ain’t never coming home
so just leave me the fuck alone

it always ends the same

spotify

it always ends the same w/ revengeinkyoto [tnvr]

produced by me ♡

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lyrics:
empty glass bottles clinging outside
all dressing up for the moonlight
but i stayed at home, i didn't wanna go
now they're gone for good, there's no more hello's

they won't miss me
it don't matter
all we did was use each other
for those 5 years so we weren't alone
now i'm leaving
with no one

so long people
so long people
so long people
you'll never see my face again

wondering where i'm going
cause i'm all alone
life is scaring me
please give me some peace 

~ ♡ ~

(if you listened, i appreciate you ♡)

goodbye, friend

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BPM: 110
Key: F Maj

i tried (sad indie x skele type beat)

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BPM: 120
Key: Bm

betrayal (hiraeth / heylog / i'm geist type beat)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
PULL OUT THE RED DOT
THIS GUNS ILLEGAL IN YOUR STATE
PRACTICE HEAD SHOTS
ILL PUT A HOLE IN YOU ONE DAY
I NEED NO THOUGHT
IF I IMA PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE
LET IT GO OFF
CAUSE NAH I DONT PLAY IT SAFE

YOU GOTTA MOVE
YOU GOTTA MOVE
I DONT PLAY IT SAFE
YOU GOTTA MOVE
YOU GOTTA MOVE

MOVE
MOVE
MOVE
MOVE

move

produced by me ♡

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apple:
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lyrics:
i don’t take my medication like i should
wake up, pills there collecting dust
took so many, starting to lose trust
that they can’t help my fucked up guts

i don’t take my medication like i should
wake up, pills there collecting dust
took so many, starting to lose trust
that they can’t help my fucked up guts

what if i hit the ground?
will the sirens ring their sound?
am i being too profound?
head's distorted, let go now?

cause i know, cause i know
that i'm not worth
what if i wake up, wake up
lying in a hearse

to keep feeling like this
i cannot afford
but how can't i
when living's such a chore?

(chore
chore
chore
chore)

~ ♡ ~

(if you listened, i appreciate you ♡)

medicate

smokescreen (sad indie rock x duster type beat)

all self produced, enjoy <3

all free for non-profit
for profit please buy lease on my Beatstars:
@ prodshy88

bruise (i'm geist x skele guitar type beat)

prod. shy

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