ghost (noahmadethiss)

Out on streaming 6/24

Twitter: https://twitter.com/DreamsYokai

Autumn: https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead

lyrics:

yokai-

new me
at least i hope so
new you, and i know that much for sure
you got a new man
i hope he treats you the best tho
cuz i know that you deserve the world and more

she's a death valley summer,
i'm november in alaska
the more i try and let it go
the more i end up back there
you moved on i'm not surprised
cuz so should i but i reside
within my own romanticized
ideas of you and i

i'm holding on
so tight my hands are cold and numb
i wish that i was what you want
but i'm just riddled with flaw
you are my only one

autumn-

all i'm left is this cold drink
my head is on sideways
i'll stop by the forest
and forget all the fine things
do these mirrors deceive me?
why's my face so disgusting 
i've lasted so long, 
but been holding onto nothing...

no one even noticed
i've been sentenced
a lifetime of silence

the difficulty of living, is on par with existing to begin with..
we exist to purge our thoughts; to become our own vessel.
find balance-...

time just twisted itself in knots
it tried to turn me to frost
i fuel up with love and scorn
DON'T WANNA FEEL ANYMORE

yokai-

YOU SHOULD KNOW I REALLY HATE THAT
I'M SICK OF ARGUING
BUT I WON'T SAY THAT
I'M LOSING TOLERANCE
I GAVE YOU ALL OF IT
AND YOU DON'T PAY BACK
SO QUITE YOUR HOLLERIN
I CANNOT TAKE THAT
SEE YOU ON THE WAY BACK

Death Valley w/ autumndropsdead (stezzyxl)

streetlights, long nights
it feels like winter 
ill run and hide
if u be the seeker
tell me where im
most likely to find
someone like u

so fast forward to summer
i dont think back often
but it always made me me wonder
how ur doing now
it would be nice to figure out
it feels like when the sun goes down
theres always something playing on my mind

streetlights, long nights
it feels like winter 
ill run and hide
if u be the seeker
tell me where im
most likely to find
someone like u

it feels like winter

<333 GARDEN AVENUE <333

try to keep looking at the bright side
stared too long it hurt my eyes
i met u at the wrong time
but i cant stop its so sublime
struggle with the sacrifice
know its wrong but it feels so right
reaching for the satellites
sisyphus try a thousand times

you will always be a part of me
i never want to see you hurt again
you will always be a part of me, i know
never will i be without you

its never enough
its never perfect
the stars wont align
so Ill make it worth it
its never enough
but well never be perfect
so just hold my hand
so hard that it hurts it

i tried a thousand times
could never get it right
i dont think I can stop it now

you will always be a part of me
i never want to see you hurt again
you will always be a part of me, i know
never will i be without you

you will always be a part of me

lyrics 

i been fucking w a poltergeist
u hadnt talked to me like 7 nights
i can feel it straining in my eyes
itching itchin but i feel alright 
yea i feel alright 

uh uh
lemme go
lemme hold on
hit the train
down to eltingville
i hold off
from telling u
whats on my mind
im southbound
im home now

in time 
ull find
what u 
hold dear
but i
ill find
my life
from here

im in the mood to erase ur life
but sometimes its better just taking mine
the spirits in my room can hear me cry
they reach out and they brush off my teary eyes
im sorry for letting u down 
i heard who ur talking about 
under this weight i could drown
but its better me hearing u out

i been fucking w a poltergeist
u hadnt talked to me like 7 nights
i feel like im a parasite
itching itchin but i feel alright 
yea i feel alright

self erasure

art by afxtik www.instagram.com/afxtik/
lyrics:
now there’s nothing left
i said i’d try my best
but i feel like a mess
it’s just not so
just wanted to rest
now love is just a test
of how much shit
that i can withstand from you
leave your messages on read
i’m fucked up i don’t know
what you said to me
said you wouldn’t stress it
now everything’s unthreaded
i felt i should’ve said it
seven years ago
cause maybe you’d have listened
you never pay attention
i’m always wasting my breath, oh
cause maybe i’m just stupid,
i know sometimes i lose it
it’s hard for me to keep you close
sheets thrown across the bed
i’ll fuck you to sleep
cause we both can’t get out of our heads
but hurry and get dressed
she know i’m the best
cause she texting me with all XO’s

seven years ago (prod. slatepsycho)

You Got It

personal (abyss33)

How does it feel

lyrics:
(hook)
cuz i aint going no where 
until the coast is clear 
cuz I aint going no where 
until the coast is clear
(verse)
I know this her favorite song 
leaving chills on her back spine
hanging with the boys 
headed straight for the spotlight 
fuck I think that she wants me for the views
there aint eye to eye baby please don't get confused
im forever young 
but fuck that I aint innocent 
I think she wanna fuck me 
cuz she see me getting Benjamin's
how could you 
treat me like an object 
use for your selfish needs
im sick of all the nonsense
all I see is darkness with no blind fold 
every time you kiss me why aren't your eyes closed
baby fuck the distance skip the time zone 
she said she got spells she'll make the time fold
(hook)
cuz i aint going no where 
until the coast is clear 
cuz I aint going no where 
until the coast is clear
cuz i aint going no where 
until the coast is clear 
cuz I aint going no where 
until the coast is clear

you will always be a part of me

brody