✨𝓭𝓲𝓪𝓻𝔂✨

headlights

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

roxas + kiryano - feel it (waifu & 4am) #7s

@taylor
@sainttomorrow
cover credit ig@konoenoko

nothings fading off
i dont wanna go back
i dont wanna go thru that again
know it this could b my only chance
tell her that she got me til the end
not nobody else it makes no sense
when i fuk up know i make amends
when i fuk up hate to see u upset
remember when i couldnt even care less

ill b there if u need someone to hold on
theres too many fake its such a problem
idgaf wat they say i do that often
just us on our own my only option 
tell her u’ll b ok
want u to say my name
so take me on ur way

nothings fading (taylor morgan, saint tomorrow)

ty for the bday wishes :)
@mental
@15elias

[blxty]
wake up~~ cant look at myself in the mirror
so done my reflection is never clear
there's noway! i can tell u why i'm shedding tears
there's noway! i can tell u that ur what i fear

[mental]
ohhh i dont wanna see whats next
whole life ive been a walking L
i dont think ur my friend
i was down i had to save myself
and u make me choose
cause u hate me too
not dead but im close to the option
no life easily forgotten

[blxty]
let the vines come consume you
you can't run from your fears
you can try to close your eyes
but that wont save you here

mirror ft. mental (elias x mental)

awooooo light music club!!! awooooo!!!!!!!!!

@mental
@bugbu6
@beatsbykrave

[blx]
If I needed your help,
Would you come on my side?
I need your decision baby this is not a do or die
You ask me if I feel okay and honestly I feel alright
I walk past you out the door cus bby i don’t wanna fight

I don’t wanna fight with you right now 
I’m walking home
Had something to tell you on the tip of my tongue but it’s out my dome
If I were you and you were me you’d probably be alone
Maison Margiela's my toes 
I’m not a friend I’m a foe

[mental]
i feel like im trying way too hard
not to let you take away my heart
giving up feels like a dangerous part
to play it might make me break apart

it might make me fall down
i was floating like i wasnt even on ground
bad thoughts really need someone to break my walls down
mad lots i been getting pissed at all the small sounds
need ur love if i wanna calm down

foe ft. mental (lovbug x krave)

Ten Four [Prod. Royal + Reset]

twikipedia - the code

@pyu
@frendishawty408

baby can u hold me close
lately ive felt so alone, i went comatose
and i withdraw when im without u, not a overdose
i feel safe when im around u, im just going slow
all my life i never wanted more
all my love, ill give until im sore
body aching, laying on the floor
told myself i wouldnt give up any more

but i could never quit it
people change i get it
but youre never different
id never forget it
first time that i felt you
i healed in an instant
now i hate the distance
living with this sickness
scared of being distant
scared of not forgetting
scared of being different
scared that im forgetting

no reason just to fight you
there's no reason just to lie, too
baby, what do you want from me?
in the end, it didn't matter
to you
guess that's how ts go
baby, why'd ya leave tho
issey miyake, my fit tho
she still wanna rock on my 2 chains
baby girl, why you two faced
kicking me, like um Liu Kang
treating me like i'm no one
baby,  yeah you on 1
please can you love me, for me
cause i'm on my knees :/
don't even matter, fr
baby ily, fr
ts feel like a drill
hand on my heart, n I kill
im in dis bih right w mental
she all on my mind, n my mental

affection ft frendi prod meta

produced by negativecreeper & guardiangel
art by @cryinggsilence

@i9bonsai
@kggn
@negativecreeper
@guardiangelll

[blx]
no no
im at my brink im like no no
i been sinking im like no no
i dont know where to go go
im like waves ya im one with the fluid
i dont wanna do it anymore i cant do it
i do what i want ya dont look at me stupid
i tell them to move it well they're going to fucking move it
i told them to love me well they're going to fucking love me
how am i gonna get my point across ur acting like a dummy
oh he acting funny wrap him up justt like a mummy
and i said she looking stunning when im with her it is sunny
go go (go go)
said she wanna love me i told her that i dont need that
go go (go go)
she told me she love me i told her that she dont mean that.

[i9bonsai]
leave me in the cold i dont wanna go out。。
anymore but i know that i dont want to stay around,, anymore
n i dont want to b bound by the chains n the words n the sounds ::
yh its time t forget it then (・・;)ゞ
i dnt wna pretend:: i cant let u in

goin t to the road。。 can u let it end?
if i stay around its a never ending mess
its not enough,, we just needa c it less
its a mess 2much with tht excess

cut tht off,, :: (・人・)

[ku]
go go
go go
wipe my tears as u leave me in the cold
im on some stuff that u aint heard of movin slow
whts the big deal im messed up dont u know
this
hopeless
focus
on my eyes
we’re almost there
psychosis
i did evrything i cld but its all bogus
all tht stuff u put on me w/o a notice
feel the addy in my stomach got me so sick
its clear u rnt tht so tell me why im homesick
feel the walls theyre closin in im claustrophobic

no no ft. i9bonsai & kuru

https://open.spotify.com/track/6q5tpJrD8cL2oZgrQRG9iO?si=ea0bdabd28254d03 

@mental @1luvpurp @symels1

mental - megaman prod. luvpurp & symels

performed, written, and produced by me @mental

i dont know what ima dream about 2nite
i dont rly wanna leave without a fight
and i rly cant believe that thats my life
every single time i breathe im boutta die
i cant ever even see the reason why
ur even in love with me, but thats alright
ill just hold onto belief until i die
and then i cry and say goodbye

know u wanna leave me
stay up cuz im bleeding
it dont matter what im feeling
but its nothing, im eating

Love me, hate me, wannakill me

I h8 me so badd wanna end it

im so mad @ me im so mad @ me

im mad @ me

ily @twikipedia
first beat prod delta
second beat prod me

i told myself i'm fine i'm not
i thought that you would've forgot me
sometimes i think that i should rot
if i tried would you even stop me
i thought that you would feel some type of way
i can't tell if you even like me
i'm anxious i want it to go away
i'm paranoid nobody's got me
with you i feel safe
still wanna run away
you can't be replaced
it won't be the same

i used to wanna give up
i had nobody to trust
i lied still wanna give up
i can't feel nothing but lust
nobody gets how i love
i'm sick of falling in love
i'm sick of feeling this shit
sometimes i wanna exist
sometimes i wish i was dust
i hate that everyone lies
i don't know who to believe
wish i was a ghost
i try to say how i'm feeling
i try but nothing comes out i think i might choke
lost me inside of your soul
i should go choke, you're happy when i'm at my low
no one likes seeing that shit ill go and suffer in silence so nobody knows
sorry you'll never be sorry
i can't feel my body
i wish i could not breathe
am i dead prolly
i miss every time you called me
i know that it's not me

paranoid prod twikipedia & mental

@violetxx9 <3

i never thought it would end like this
i never thought it would end at all
ill try to come to terms with it again
i never thought we would cry like this
i never thought we would cry at all
ill try to come to terms with it again

i fucked my life up
wasted time and empty smiles
i know things cant be the same
but thats alright though
thats alright though
i fucked my life up
wasted time and empty smiles
i know i cant turn the time back
ill still try though
ill still try though

you said you loved me do you though?
burning heart in the freezing cold
lovesick, you're the antidote
homesick everywhere i go
without you i don't have a home
theres a hole in my soul
you don't call anymore
passed out on the floor
its the same thing everyday
heart hurts, heavy weight
cant feel, not anything
i need another chance

need another chance
fell into your eyes it was just a glance
you can keep my heart i don't want it back
i heard every word but didn't understand
i still try to come to terms with what you said
whats a soulmate but my other half?
whats a soulmate but the one i lack?
if i heard you calling id be running back

don't touch me there it hurts
don't touch me there it hurts

i miss u prod violet & mental

stupid __ twikipedia!

@pyu
@1luvpurp

you could give me one more kiss
i feel like a piece of shit
i wish i didn’t exist
i would touch your fingertips
hold them til my body slips
hold you til i wanna live
hold you till you’re gone again
i wish i was really fine
i wish i could go a day and night without missing your eyes
i wish i could show you that there’s still light on the other side
i wish i could fall into your lies and trust you every time

i wish you would leave me alone
never make me feel at home
i miss being something whole
i wish i could be a ghost
never missed me anyways, i try but i still feel so dull
i wish i could, i wish i could be a ghost
but i guess thats typical
i feel so invisible
i mistook a broken heart for you being invincible
we’re back at the part again where i’m bit by the winter cold
we’re back at the start again but this time my heart isn’t yours

until ur gone prod meta & luvpurp

amv:
https://youtu.be/vXHDlnhLHXA

@owtiss
@yashio20k
baz

[chorus]
won't u put urself in my shoes
can’t u see im trying to survive
won't u open up ur eyes
wish i had a little time
think my heart will turn to ice
never thought u were so blind..
i can't fall asleep at night
won’t u put urself in my shoes
can't u see im trying to survive
won't u open up ur eyes
wish i had a little time
think my heart will turn to ice
never thought u were so blind..
i can't fall asleep at night

[verse]
i go thru it every time
im losing my mind
i can see right thru ur lies
push me to the side
maybe then i'd breath easy
can u even see me?
why can't lovе be easy..
free me
just wantеd u by my side
believe me
everyday i sit and watch
time is bleeding
i dont wna stay awake
tired of thinking
can you hear my heart stop beating?
(can you hear my heart stop beating x4)
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[chorus]
won't u put urself in my shoes
can't u see im trying to survive
won’t u open up ur eyes
wish i had a little time
think my heart will turn to ice
never thought u were so blind..
i can’t fall asleep at night
won't u put urself in my shoes
can’t u see im trying to survive
won't u open up ur eyes
wish i had a little time
think my heart will turn to ice
never thought u were so blind..
i can't fall asleep at night

erasure

survive

SPOTIFY

owtiss - survive (yashio & baz)

Debut album 'for a kiss' out everywhere February 7th @ https://for-a-kiss.com

Official MV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rCQdhOKSgGI

produced by me

lyrics:
i want to feel again
i need your touch
one day can we meet again?
i'll dream for us
it's okay you can breathe again
i'll be your lungs
i'll be your lungs
i'll be your lungs
i cried 'til my tears were gone
i hope you can't see me blush
i forgot how to sleep alone
your beauty would keep me up
i need you to breathe again
so be my lungs
so be my lungs
so be my lungs

don't want to feel it
keep on my bleeding
i could always tell that you'd be leaving
every lie you told me i believed it
don't make promises if you don't want to keep them

so what?

♫⋆｡♪

i'll be your lungs

@mental
@15elias

[blxty]
my head don't feel right 
i see u cry
i don't rlly blame u-
cus we're both having a bad time
they say they don't change
promise i'm not like the last guy
blacked out last night woke up w/ a blackeye

[mental]
i dont wanna talk but they driving me insane
next time we drift apart ima stay away
i dont wanna deal i cant deal with all this pain
fall apart every time u say my name

hope i mean a lot to u
cuz u mean a lot to me
and it seems we're falling thru
but i'll never let u be

said a lot of things
i didnt rly mean
i dont wanna feel
put a pill in my drink
i just want love
ill do like anything
do what u want
u pushed me to the brink

feel ur aura
girl i like it way too much
u make it colder
hope ur just another crush

bad time ft. mental (elias x mental)

@0rch_id
@odel007

[blxty]
maybe i'm not the bad guy
but i'm awful
keep it all inside
put my feelings in a bottle
moving too fast full throttle
guess that's what i get for being thoughtful

i can't even see right now messed up
how am i gonna walk when i can't get up
in the hall i'm a student
lights off watch your whole movement
and you treat me like a bad guy
gotta keep my head high
everyone on standby
nobody to stand by
gotta keep a hold of myself
if i would've let go, you would have fell

[orchid]
push the bullshit into my head
never listen to what u said
check the bullshit into my head
never listen to what you
oh i felt like i tried so hard
but its never enough or a little bit too much
im bleeding from my eyes in the ceiling
cut my skin like its peeling 
heartbeat pull it out my chest
see? crush it into mess
we never really meant
i rip open your legs
meat eat it oh so fresh
bleed run myself to death
see? aint it oh so blessed?
she opened up my head

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