Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Mamoru &1kurane 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow, angelsofsorrows, & JoshIGuess 
Mastered by: @joshiguess 
Artwork by: Azusa Banjo
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow 

[Chorus]
Ceiling filled with my thoughts 
Skipping across like a rock
(Rock)
They say they wanna hang 
But I don't hear a knock
You're such a loser 
But still have the nerve to mock
You're just another number 
In the Infrastructure

[Post-Chorus]
Spending all my time 
Tryna make him mine
But my smile never shines
Because I'm too shy 
To tell him the truth

[Verse]
I'm making songs 
So I don't end it 
Starting a new wave 
But I know I'm gonna bend it
(Bend it)
If it's a new style 
I gotta blend it
Masking my feelings 
To hide the truth but

[Bridge]
I feel butterflies
When I see him
I wanna look 
Cute for him

[Chorus]
Ceiling filled with my thoughts 
Skipping across like a rock
Oh Oh Oh
(Rock)
They say they wanna hang 
But I don't hear a knock
You're such a loser 
But still have the nerve to mock
You're just another number 
In the Infrastructure

I Wanna Look, Cute For Him (Prod. Mamoru & 1kurane)

DIRTY NACHOS

PLAYER IN ME

Yeah, shoutout master splinter
Jumpin' out the subway 
yeah, starving for so damn long
But I still got that weight, doing lines off of plates 
Don't know why I did it in the first place

Baby girl lets skip past the first base 
I need your love yeah just a taste 
I got pills all on my face
I pop one more I hope it's laced

Suicde notes that I scribbled and I ripped out 
Everybody really think that they got it all figured out (yeah)
In my lyrics yea no doubt 
Prolly about to end it all right now 
All right now, yea all right now (yea)
Maybe that would change if I only had one call
From anyone at all
(yeah) jump up off that bridge and see how far I fall 

I don't end it cause I need to help the gang
Can't die till I get a lil bit of fame 
Another legend going out dying in vain
But I feel the drugs circling through my veins 
Something feels off, something feels strange
I can feel my heart start to race 
I can't feel my face
I pop pills and hope they laced

Crashing through the atmosphere, coming back down to earth 
Poison in my veins girl you know it hurts 
Said you also wanna die, told me go first
I'm out of time cause my heart just burst
Diggin up my grave just to jump in head first
Every single day it's just getting worse
Free me of this curse 
My hearts gonna burst

Laced (Suicide Note No.1)

hey bry?
yea? 
how come you have a gun?
Idk.
It's just weird you know I mean, your the last person anybody would expect to have a gun.
Why have it if your not gonna use it? 
Look, I really don't wanna talk about this with you Stewie. 
I keep it in case... I ever wanna commit suicide.. ok
But why Brian?
I don't know um.. sometimes.. it's all, just too much..

Hole in my chest
So I gotta wear a vest
I needed you to know I loved you more than less
All these suicidal notes are making me depressed 
I'm gonna take my life from the rest 
I can't take this anxiety and stress
Beat me up, I'm used and oppressed
I'm one usless fucking depressed -
Piece of shit arrogant, that's to say the less

Poppin' one more pill
Hope that it's the last one 
I'm at my limit
Then I went and add one 
Why would he do that
Guess the lyrics were exact 
I tried multiple times yea, that a fact
He's never coming back 
Never again 
Never coming back no 
Never again
Hardest part is saying goodbye my friends 
Sorry my friends I gotta go
Cuz' this bottle's getting full - 

I don't know it- sometimes it's, it's all too much.
What is? 
Life, everything. 
I-I-I don't quite understand why your so unhappy?
Yesterday when you said I don't live with purpose.. 
You were right, I don't.
And that bottle of scotch? 
I was- saving it for my last drink..
I don't know what to say, wanting to kill yourself-

Why would he do that
Guess the lyrics were exact 
I tried multiple times yea, that a fact
He's never coming back 
Never again 
Never coming back no 
Never again
Hardest part is saying goodbye my friends 
Sorry my friends I gotta go
Cuz' this bottle's getting full -

Suicide note no.2

Written by: Kurumi Violet
Produced by: drma & 80root
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Sample from: https://youtu.be/GaT1GftoqV0?si=nkKyBWjEugnmGMFH
Artwork by: Scaramouche40 from Pinterest
Artwork Edited by: Kurumi Violet

[Intro]
Breaking free of the chains
I'm sick of bleeding for experiments sake
All the blood they take 

[Chorus]
Leaves me craving the taste of blood
I'm a psychopath 
I'm a Phantom 
I'm a deadly sin 
Wrath is taking over me
I win this battle 
But I'll lose the war

[Verse]
Changes to my core
Leaves me suffering in silence 
What have I truly become
A monster or something much worse?
Either way I just wanna understand 
What I have become 
WHAT HAVE I BECOME 

[Chorus]
Leaves me craving the taste of blood
I'm a psychopath 
I'm a Phantom 
I'm a deadly sin 
Wrath is taking over me
I win this battle 
But I'll lose the war

[Outro: Phainon trailer "Coronal Radiance" Honkai Star Rail]
Phainon:
Why did you....?
TAKE THEM ALL AWAY
FROM ME

Girl from trailer:
May this world never again need a deliver 

Phantom (Prod. drma & 80root)

guess whos back being sad?
my best friends did this to me and that just a fact
and all the things i do around them, i think i annoy them
even if they loved me i didn't have a choice man
what do i deserve anyway?
i wanna be anyone
i wanna be anything
wanna be something 
to somebody
one day
one day
yeah.... one day..

i feel like i have no other option but to cut
i feel like i have no other option but to jump
jump
jump
do you think i wanna jump, jump, jump? :(
the only thing that i want anymore is to make it to
Halloween and have some fun once more before i die 
but the way my body moving i wont make it past July 
yeah we could've had it good, watched fireworks all night
i guess you dont wanna waste your time
we use to stay up all night
now you dont even say hi

and i use to have a homie too
just to stay up every night
and lmao with him till yeah
playing games and
thats fucking distance
ion even know if i mean anything
i thought i was okay, felt that once again once again
i was so damn wrong but it didn't mean nothing to me
my best friends acted like i was supposed to die so im fulfilling it
X_X
WHY'D YOU EVER HAVE TO LIKE ME IN THE FIRST PLACE?!
I WOULDN'T HAVE FELL HEAD FIRST IF YOU DID NOT LEAD ME TO IT!

im not lonely anymore, im not lonely
im not hurting anymore
how could i be sad anymore..? 

I DONT WANNA DO ANYTHING BUT PARTY
yeahyeah anything to get me out my head
i need,
help.
IF YOU WOKE UP AND I WASN'T THERE
WOULD IT MAKE A DIFFERENCE ANYWHERE?
CL
CL
CL
CLEARLY NOT 
YOU'RE STILL GAMING,
UNAWARE
I'M SORRY THAT I COULDN'T THINK YOU, 
CARED.

i was scared :c

july prod. novachance x yiuvo

i didn't lose, i jus ain't wont yet!
produced by buggy

sh3d! (+buggy)

I can't open up
Open up my -
eyes

Girl you fucking caught-
Me 
In your web of liessss
In your web of lies

I still feel your love when I- 
Close my eyes
I'll just stare at your disguise
You won't let me in 
But your words are weaponized
When you speak I'm petrified
Turn to stone when we meeting eyes
Hope I'll see you on heavens side

Stuck up in your web for the rest of my life
Stuck up in your web
Stuck up in my head
Think I'd rather be dead
Then to be stuck in this liar-
Liar, Liars web 
Wouldn't you rather me dead

Instead, doubled down 
Thicken your thread
I'll never break free from this liars web

I still feel your love when I- 
Close my eyes
I'll just stare at your disguise
You won't let me in 
But your words are weaponized
When you speak I'm petrified
Turn to stone when we meeting eyes
Hope I'll see you on heavens side

Stuck up in your web for the rest of my life
Stuck up in your web
Stuck up in my head
Think I'd rather be dead
Then to be stuck in this liar-
Liar, Liars web 
Wouldn't you rather me dead

Instead, doubled down 
Thicken your thread
I'll never break free from this liars web

liars web (when i close my eyes) prod michael harrison

White Lily - Kāishǐ Feat. prod. deaf

produced by prod.deaf !!!!!!!

lyrics:

Reset my processors,
Put me to sleep.
This caffeine and bad temper's
All that I need.
Wolves in my head
Wearing skins of the sheep 
I count undeserving,
Then rinse and repeat.

Snakes in the grass
Of the garden
I'm guarding. 
Serpent eyes
In the mirror
Every morning. 
Heads of spies
To use as a warning, 
"Round up the troops
And ready your army."

Hear the signal 
And shoot on my word. 
Some will leave, some will stay,
Some will turn. 
Leave the man with your name
In the dirt,
Watch the life that you lived
As it burns. 

Don't feel safe,
The words you say
Just feel like bombs droppin'.
I've been bloodied,
I've beaten,
But I'm not stoppin'.
Say you're fine
From behind 
Enemy lines.
Initiate 
Your protocol,
Its about time

You leave 
Me here
So sick,
And in fear.
While piece 
By piece
The image 
Clears.
And your voice
In my head
Turns a pain
In the neck.
And the picture 
We painted 
Changes 
And fast.

Snakes in the grass
Of the garden
I'm guarding. 
Serpent eyes
In the mirror
Every morning. 
Heads of spies
To use as a warning, 
"Round up the troops
And ready your army."

Reset my processors,
Put me to sleep.
This caffeine and bad temper's
All that I need.
Wolves in my head
Wearing skins of the sheep 
I count undeserving,
Then rinse and repeat.


sleeper in the sleeper cell (+deaf)

Written by: Kurama Violet 
Produced by: taymxru
Mixed & Mastered by: Kurama Violet 
Artwork From: Horimiya 
Artwork Edited by: Kurama Violet 

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
My brother you made me laugh 
You make me happy
Brothers forever 
It will always be forever

[Bridge]
Everyone tryna switch on you 
But just know I'm here for you bro
You're one of the few 
That understands me the most
& I won't let you go
No matter what 

[Verse]
I'm not tryna boast just want you to know 
That I care about you 
People leaving you over crocodile tears 
When there's no evidence to even prove it
3 years have passed 
& You've made my life better 
By being in it 

[Chorus]
My brother you made me laugh 
You made me cry
& You make me happy
Brothers forever 
It will always be forever

[Outro]
Thank you for your presence 
Thank you for everything 
You've done for me
Whether it be helping me with my songs
Or helping me with having someone there to listen 
I'll always be here for you 
My brother Angel 

july prod. novachance x yiuvo

prod. deaf

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