my death playlist

pointless.

guess whos back being sad?
my best friends did this to me and that just a fact
and all the things i do around them, i think i annoy them
even if they loved me i didn't have a choice man
what do i deserve anyway?
i wanna be anyone
i wanna be anything
wanna be something 
to somebody
one day
one day
yeah.... one day..

i feel like i have no other option but to cut
i feel like i have no other option but to jump
jump
jump
do you think i wanna jump, jump, jump? :(
the only thing that i want anymore is to make it to
Halloween and have some fun once more before i die 
but the way my body moving i wont make it past July 
yeah we could've had it good, watched fireworks all night
i guess you dont wanna waste your time
we use to stay up all night
now you dont even say hi

and i use to have a homie too
just to stay up every night
and lmao with him till yeah
playing games and
thats fucking distance
ion even know if i mean anything
i thought i was okay, felt that once again once again
i was so damn wrong but it didn't mean nothing to me
my best friends acted like i was supposed to die so im fulfilling it
X_X
WHY'D YOU EVER HAVE TO LIKE ME IN THE FIRST PLACE?!
I WOULDN'T HAVE FELL HEAD FIRST IF YOU DID NOT LEAD ME TO IT!

im not lonely anymore, im not lonely
im not hurting anymore
how could i be sad anymore..? 

I DONT WANNA DO ANYTHING BUT PARTY
yeahyeah anything to get me out my head
i need,
help.
IF YOU WOKE UP AND I WASN'T THERE
WOULD IT MAKE A DIFFERENCE ANYWHERE?
CL
CL
CL
CLEARLY NOT 
YOU'RE STILL GAMING,
UNAWARE
I'M SORRY THAT I COULDN'T THINK YOU, 
CARED.

i was scared :c

july prod. novachance x yiuvo

a ugly boys been feeling kinda hopeless lately
i dont think anyones gone come around to save him
he wishes he would call it quits but he cant stop caring
he couldn't tell you why except thats the reason he was placed here

IDK ANYTHING AND I WISH THAT I COULD BREATH CLEAR
ILL NEVER HAVE WHAT I NEED WHAT I WANT MY DESTINYS HERE
TAKE ME BACK TO LIKE 2010 WHEN I STILL HAD SOME DREAMS FEAR
THAT IM GON DIE TOMORROW GOD TELL ME WHY I AM STILL HERE


hoping with somebody
that we'll brave it to a place where
this pain will subside
if we dont take this shot we'll break it 
i know u want to but dont cut up on that skin, please
no i get it it feels like thats all u got
NO ITS NOT!
cause swear to GOD to me you'll know 
im 
always
here
if i didn't meet you then i wouldn't be here.
ion like nun bout him...
what am i to do?
what am i to do, when you're gone?
i guess ill be okay 
cus i have no other option
i dont got any option
cus i cant stop LIFE
sit around and die
sit around and die
sit around and die
silly boys been feeling kinda
HOPELESS LATELY
i dont think anyones gone come around to save him
he wishes he would call it quits but he cant stop caring
he couldn't tell you why except thats the reason he was placed here
im falling apart i dont think ill make it

i might as well damn park this shit
so high i just dont give it up
baby once u stop trying, shit i think its so fucked
save me
we'll just go up
we just go
getting money we get money till
cry
idk y im on this gas so long
idm idm so im gone

HOPELESS LATELY prod. koukai 後悔

hey..
idek why im typing this text
ull say idk and it hurts me yeah
i dont wanna do shit that way
let me know when to do my best

dont worry about a fucking thing
cause ull be alright
you made it 13 years of ur precious life
ull be just fine
i wouldn't mind if u listen to my songs all night
no..
what the fuck am i saying? will you think of me..?
no, no..
and after summer i hope that i feel better
but i know that i wont cause youll have friends that will be better
all i really wanted was to be ur bestie
huh.. but we was, but what happened? 

oh what happened
oh what happened
oh what happened
oh what happened 
oh what happened 
oh what 
oh. without you..?

idek why im typing this text
ull say idk and it hurts me yeah
i dont wanna do shit that way
let me know when to do my best

i still love you, i still love you

and after summer i hope that i feel better
but i know that i wont cause youll have friends that WILL.
BE.
BETTER.

♡

after summer bestie prod. cornflp

we were never destined to be anything
we were never destined to be anything
we were never destined to be anything
we were never destined to be anything
be anything
shes only six ♡

this aint your pity party i promise
promise
i.. still care
wanna know why? wanna know why?
you gave me everything i ever asked for within in a week
i swear that u cared i wouldn't do it 
now im running out my life death is nearing me 
why is life doing this to fucking me
why is life doing this to fucking me
maybe i should ask why i be slouching in the chair
i dont even know what im here for yeah 
every single day feels like a disgrace 
i dont even wanna wake up in this place
i dont even wanna wake up in this place
i dont i dont even wanna wake up in this place

this aint your pity party i promise
promise
i.. still care
wanna know why? wanna know why?
you gave me everything that i truly need in a week
then u fuckin dropped doin that like wat da fawk B
stop acting like u rly fuckin with me
i.. love you
and i.. could say something
but i couldn't count on my two hands 
how many nights ive waited for you
all ive ever done is pressure you
ohh, put some stress all over you
ohh, im really sorry b..a.. 
I CAN'T SAY THAT
I'm fucking sorry.

destiny? prod. nextrie

just for now
i been up for days
i been up four days
haven't ate a thing

just for now

you know youre not happy when youre thinking bout her
so why the living hell are you thinking bout her?
well its cause i miss what we had when we had an hour
im gon be writing about you till the next meteor shower
im not with you 
im not with me
guess thats fine cause i dont know who to be
girl or boy does it really matter? 
no it doesn't cause no ones gonna put a ring around you
im just being for real~
~ "i hope that i end up in your familys will"
- "what??? XD"
wish i was writing bout someone 
wish i was writing bout someone SPECIAL :(
wish i knew why i was here, why im fighting this damn battle
wish my chest didn't hurt and i wish that i wasn't scared
that my lung gon collapse before i make this song here
imma hope youre happy on your own
if it wasn't capping id rapping

tryna see the long road what happened?
when my lung collapses i will ask god 
"what happened..."
i know imma die yeah
i know imma die yeah
maybe im not right 
but i never forgot to die yeah
shes only six
do you know how life feels
to be counting down your seconds while youre breathing still 
every breath i take hurts
so its gon be labor
to record these songs
but i dont know what ill do no more

i just got mad deja vu
does that mean im special too?
im gon die 21 in this chair in my room
am i really happy when i feel so much pain?
physically i dont really know my name :(

pneumothorax prod. 2ukko × six

this album ab death
this album ab life
this album ab growing up and not caring @ all, 
yeah.. bout wanting to kill yourself all night
oh... i take everything for granted, what a spite ;(
oh... i dont know why im here, dont know why i was even born
oh... i think i was wasted i think i just missed the-
i missed the point~
oh... i did not get the memo when-
oh... you invited me to your party.

id like to be a pretty girl
id like to have a pretty voice
and i think i do but im losing it every song that i make
prettayy~
pretty..
pretty,
waste.

im not- im not- im not- im not-
pretty but im a waste
i hurt to much to uh.. put something here :'
waste </3

this album ab death
this album ab life
the one that i dont have
idk at all
maybe i should stop singing 
but i think i wont
i think ill jump off the building in the fall
in the building in the fall

i lost the point
does the way im dying matter..?
i cant tell anymore, ill speed this shit up-
FUCK THIS ;(
i need more
prettayy~
pretty..
i wanna stop singing

this album ab death
this album ab life
this album ab growing up and not caring @ all, 
not one bit nah not one 
theres not shit to do anyway
growing up is unbearable pain
oh... i dont know why i was even born
i think if i was put on the wall id be more important
i lost the point~
i lost the point~
i lost the point
ill figure it out :/ 
i guess i have no choice now 
ill extendo this beat cause i got shit to say now
prettayy~ waste
i gotta hold my chest it feels like im gonna collapse yeah
waste
this album ab death
WASTNG AWAY
WASTNG AWAY
WASTNG AWAY
WASTNG AWAY
WASTNG AWAY
WASTNG AWAY

do you feel it now?
do you feel that pain in your chest by now?
uh huh.
uh huh.
uh huh, uh huh.. ;(

y was i born?/pretty waste prod. kenzee × ppayn33

ion have a sense of time but when u leave me it feels so long
and idk what im waiting for
it feels like theres flames outside
its only 6 am
who the fuck do i got?
jugg
who the fuck do i got?
jugg
when my body rots
when my body drops
i was okay my whole life until i was not
i was okay my whole life until my shh dropped
i mean what im sayin im being srs
i feel pain inside my left lung im scared of dis
oww...
mahjong jigsaw and im tired of shit
theres nothing to do in this life except dying
i got bigger fish to fry 
i cant even touch my doorknob without wanting to fucking die
i dont know what to write about
i wanna rise up out the ground 
i wanna switch my life around
ill figure my life out some how
school friends everything is useless
you gotta grow up and move on and forget em
you may think you dont but where is your childhood?
gone in the past like you didn't know it would
maybe i should say something 
but i dont know what to say no more
i just feel like i wanna cut my wrist and maybe hit the floor
hit the floor hit thaaa floor

ion have a sense of time but when u leave me it feels so long
js like a dog.
i guess im sorry for being a bad friend
youd say i wasn't but thats just a lie again
this is what dying sounds like
fr
but it feels kinda real though 
die, i want you to die
its Halloween all year its Halloween all year :)
i really do not care 
why would i ever wanna beee here?
oh~ ;3
mahjong jigsaw and im tired of shit
theres nothing to do in this life except dying
pop a perc yh
get high as fuck yh
the only body that know me  is my gang fr yh
jugg
i wanna rise up out the ground 
school friends everything is useless

after summer bestie prod. cornflp

prod. deaf