just for now
i been up for days
i been up four days
haven't ate a thing

just for now

you know youre not happy when youre thinking bout her
so why the living hell are you thinking bout her?
well its cause i miss what we had when we had an hour
im gon be writing about you till the next meteor shower
im not with you 
im not with me
guess thats fine cause i dont know who to be
girl or boy does it really matter? 
no it doesn't cause no ones gonna put a ring around you
im just being for real~
~ "i hope that i end up in your familys will"
- "what??? XD"
wish i was writing bout someone 
wish i was writing bout someone SPECIAL :(
wish i knew why i was here, why im fighting this damn battle
wish my chest didn't hurt and i wish that i wasn't scared
that my lung gon collapse before i make this song here
imma hope youre happy on your own
if it wasn't capping id rapping

tryna see the long road what happened?
when my lung collapses i will ask god 
"what happened..."
i know imma die yeah
i know imma die yeah
maybe im not right 
but i never forgot to die yeah
shes only six
do you know how life feels
to be counting down your seconds while youre breathing still 
every breath i take hurts
so its gon be labor
to record these songs
but i dont know what ill do no more

i just got mad deja vu
does that mean im special too?
im gon die 21 in this chair in my room
am i really happy when i feel so much pain?
physically i dont really know my name :(

pneumothorax prod. 2ukko × six

prod. deaf