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prod. me with help from taiyoukei

i’ve been growing up fast for as long as i know
under the shadow you cast, i’ve hit a new low
cos this is all i have, i can’t stand on my own
got me sick n fucking tired, might just get up and go <3

you've been blowing up fast, left your friends in the cold > .>
drive everyone mad with all the strings that you pull
now you're buried in the sand you met your end all alone
you must be sick n fucking tired, weighing sins up in gold $$$$$

call me a diamond in the rough i don't believe you >:)
if everything i'll ever be equates to "i just miss you"
letting up for so long but i think that that's an issue
always switching up well now there's nothing left to switch to

i can't deny lately i think i'm a little deranged @ .@
but i won't lie maybe there are things that i can't explain
i'm tongue-tied daily never knowing what i should say
i don't really know if i'll keep going at this rate

the world's been fucked for as long as i know
and i think that i'm stuck, i've hit a new low
yeah this is my crutch, i can't stand on my own
why the fuck is it killing me, i wanna know

i’ve been growing up fast for as long as i know
under the shadow you cast, i’ve hit a new low
cos this is all i have, i can’t stand on my own
got me sick n fucking tired, might just get up and go <3

you've been blowing up fast, left your friends in the cold > .>
drive everyone mad with all the strings that you pull
now you're buried in the sand you met your end all alone
you must be sick n fucking tired, weighing sins up in gold $$$$$

tired!

(i'm still in the middle of recovery so i don't know wha-a-a-)
hands and feet are frozen 
now's no time for hesitation
tired of this proxy war
i'll pull up on location
call me back to nevermore
throw me to the ravens
i don't really blame you tho
i'm time you went and wasted
sorry that i went and left 
i thought that's what you wanted
maybe an apology?
i swear i'm being honest
honestly, i'm probably not worth another fallout
eyes bouta fall out

spiders bouta crall out
stuck inside a small house
way across the country
wish i could be called out
wouldn't that be lovely
i know you don't trust me
honestly i've earned that
plz i would prefer that 
we could see recovery
that we could see recovery

wisdom, wisdom, where did it go 
like august, winter, memories of snow
laid thin on the grass outside my door
where an angel sits, that's you i'm sure
if you're an angel, where's your halo?
was it painful to be ripped from your manger?
anti, anti, crossed by your family
broke that trust for a taste of the candy

spiders bouta crall out
stuck inside a small house
way across the country
wish i could be called out
wouldn't that be lovely
i know you don't trust me
honestly i've earned that
e-e-eyes bouta fall out
spiders bouta crall out
stuck inside a small house
way across the country
wish i could be called out
wouldn't that be (lovely)
i know you don't trust me
honestly i've earned that
plz i would prefer that 
we could see recovery
recovery
(recovery)

recovery (nativ)

imma just keep putting out sub 2 minute bangers

nguom

cover of caprice no. 24 by paganini, which is the best piece of classical music hands down

stems: https://stemmy.versary.town/a/annieversary/paganini

pagan.ini

[lyrics]
Hey, lifes not fair for you
And you’re just ticking by
A sad man told stories 
About how it's ticking by again

It's getting dark, you're leaving my house
I'll be alone before i can notice 
What was that remark? Your final decision?
I'll be alone i already know 

Hey, lifes not fair for you
And you’re just ticking by
A sad man told stories 
About how it's ticking by again

tick tick tick

@c0ncernn please notice me pls

vocal sample/og song: https://soundcloud.com/danteinred/villain

dante red - Villain #RunRunRun (whiteslate flip)

pre-save my new song "honeydew": https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/monikrr/honeydew

prod. monikrr
@elidrinksgrapemilk is the reason this exists

guests (in order):
@alaskasargent
@amplifi-beats
@defordtunes
@pickset
@prodfltr
@1_adri
@taiyoukeis

monikrr:
hey so this song is pretty silly
and there's like 10 soundgoodizers on the master
so yeah
enjoy
ok
bye
love u
mwah

i think you'll be the death of me
i haven't been myself in a couple weeks
i want to throw my phone into the fucking wall
and i feel a sense of urgency
like t he feeling you get when you have to pee
but you've been kicked in the fucking balls

tearing down the walls
look at us running in circles again
i think i'd rather fall
than dream of you in my bed
cos even in my sleep
i'm finding meaning in the things that u said
and i just want it to end, but i don't want us to end

you got pretty fucking lucky
to be the one in my head
but when u say you love me
it's at my fucking expense
cos everywhere i look
i'm finding meaning in the things that u said
and i just want it to end, but i don't want us to end

Alaska Sargent:
your voice is muddied and disheveled
your words reduced to artificial
frequencies sat upon my dashboard
my beating heart sits below the threshold
my cries don't echo beyond the fabric
your simple wish leaves me feeling candid
the bittersweet taste
of what i had before

monikrr:
hook

amplifi:
sometimes i wish i could ctrl z
to reattempt what i could not see
tunnel vision, lack of periphery
yeah my hindsight is 2020
 
sometimes i wish i could ctrl z
and tell her what she meant to me
make a wish, there's no genie
make it real, do you feel me?
 
sometimes i wish i could control z
my girl telling me i'm going oh tee tee
but i can't help it, it's just me
i won't chill out, adhd
 
sometimes i wish i could ctrl z
but i keep forgetting the hotkey
just like she forgot to want me
damn, i no longer want me
 
sometimes i wish i could undo
but maybe clear history will do
down ethanol until i puke
fuck this i still remember you

monikrr:
hook

DeFord:
DOO BEE DOO DIP BAAAH
IF YOU FIND ANOTHER LOSER YOU CAN END WITH A DRAW
AND DON’T SWEAT IT, IF IT STARTS TO GET BAD
YOU CAN DROP IT ALL AND RUN AWAY JUST LIKE YOUR DAD
SCOOP DEEP DOOP BOW
I THINK I WENT TO FAR SO I’LL JUST CUT IT OFF NOW

monikrr:
hook

pickset:
she knows that she's toxic
i need some time
been too fucked up with my fucking life
now i can't even close these eyes
i'm gon talk em down
cos i'm gonna stick around
never fading, never facing our fears

FLTR:
so in reality i wanna sing about some dumb shit
that's it, i don't know what the fuck that i should sing about
looking at myself, competitive drough, oh
lookin at myself thinkin bout my mental health
no matter what i say nobody seems to help 
no matter what i say nobody seems to care
might pull out my own hair
so these people stand and stare at me
like i'm a star with a weird ass stare
but when i go down, i ain't ever gon' frown

monikrr:
hook

Adri:
ears are bursting
i cant save it
crying out loud, hope you hear me
cause all the pain you gave, makes me sick
makes me sick
ma-ma-makes me sick
im trying to move on, but this pressure
is putting a hole right inside my head
i cant take back all the words that i said
now i fantasize 'bout you, by someone else
i cant take back what i said
i love you over all the hate

monikrr:
hook

taiyoukei:
don't need
to put
reverb
on your
mom to make her wet
i'm all she needs x2

sound/goodizer/cypher (w/ taiyoukei, Alaska Sargent, FLTR + more in desc)

lyrics:

pour a little water in the bottle

dilute me just a little bit 

i’m tired of being a weight on your chest

i’m sorry if the details are too intimate

resolving my issues

(resolving my issues)

dissolve and i’ll miss you

(dissolve and i’ll miss you)

i’m tired of thinking

(i’m tired of thinking)

give my headache a rest

(give my headache a rest)


i meant to tell you yesterday

that something felt off

and now i’m here and you’re trying

to find what you forgot


i bit the bait right in front of my face

i reached too hard and got put in my place

a calling card is what i need

i’ve fallen off and i’m only eighteen

and you call my name

nothing feels the same

was it always hard to breathe

and i’m stuck like i’m in a dream 


i meant to tell you yesterday

that something felt off

and now i’m here and you’re trying

to find what you forgot

to find what you forgot

to find what you forgot

geocache*

freestyled gibberish - drum rack practice

bathroomtoilet(🚽)

prod guda & swiftslash & me
written and sang by me

lyrics:
- part 1 -
never been the same since i was that day
i'm so tired of attention cuz i wanna run away
people always act out but they never wanna change
and my life is like a book the wear i'm tearin off a page

and i've never been the same since i was that day
i'm so tired of attention cuz i wanna run away
people always act out but they never wanna change
and my life is like a book the wear i'm tearin off a page

i know how it ends but i still really wanna give up
i hate that you're persistent, can you give me this and let up?
i'm always fucking hurting, always told to keep my chin up
so i'll just buy a rope and make a promise to keep it up

you know i'm tired, and i'm very unstable
i'm constantly looking for reasons to label
myself as dead and have no one bat an eye
cuz they'd never wanna question why the fuck i'd wanna die

i don't wanna make them sad
i always make my parents mad
i'm still hurting really bad
but i know how it ends up

- part 2 -
i need to sleep
i'm so exhausted from my medicine
why am i so weak?
am i really goin through it again

day five, i wont speak
i think it's probably cuz of medicine
why am i here?
i thought you said you'd never call them

pick me up, they throwin me into a small, brown room
another person says "hello, who am i talking to?"
i'm introduced and then they took my phone away
i'm fucking terrified of who i even was that day

they told me that i would recover here
and that they'd always lend me an ear
but when i tried to talk about my problems
they kept me round and told me that they'd solve them

do they think that i'd be happy here?
these fucking walls are stained with all my tears
they never even fucking cleaned my window
they kept me locked inside my brand new limbo

Eclipse

feezo