PULL UP!

lyrics
in my mind
i been waiting on this all my life
its just me stuck in this shithole blind
i sleep on the floor of hostels by night
i can feel u as u rip my eyes
i can hear him as he grips that m9
i dont fear it i will welcome the fight 
im not going out without a fight

back on my shit again but still ive changed
i look in the mirror i dont know the face 
i can live forever if u keep me safe
i got half a mind to solve it on this blade
he aint going home if i run the fade
if i get the chance he’ll end up kurt cobain
i just lost my mind to a bullet rain
i dont got the time, u should keep away

in my mind
i been waiting on this all my life
its just me stuck in this shithole blind
i sleep on the floor of hostels by night
i can feel u as u rip my eyes
i can hear him as he grips that m9
i dont fear it i will welcome the fight 
im not going out without a fight

M9 (EMORY X R3DQX)

Happy Thanksgiving everyone, This is from my next album releasing in the next couple of months. I hope you all enjoy it.

Written by: Kurumi Violet 
Produced by: Yourstranger 
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Sample From: https://youtu.be/XstnXvlAPSo?si=uKzqenO5NaKyRHrx
Artwork from: https://pin.it/4XVN4X6YF
Artwork Edited by: Kurumi Violet 

[Intro: Sample From Tokyo Ghoul]
To live is to be unhappy 
It's futile 
Even so...
Small & grotesque as I am
Short & cruel as this life may be
I still claw forward 
I still search for beauty 
Because...
It's worth it
To keep choosing 
To keep being chosen

[Chorus]
Torn pages writing down these letters 
Cause I need somewhere to vent 
Problems live rent free in my head
Every event causes deep dents
The pain is talking 

[Verse]
My code is breaking down again
And my mode is malfunctioning 
My mind is on the verge of destruction 
Spiraling into nothing
flashing on and on 
Like life goes 
(It never ends, Does it?)
Cause it goes on even when you're gone 

[Chorus]
Torn pages writing down these letters 
Cause I need somewhere to vent 
Problems live rent free in my head
Every event causes deep dents
The pain is talking

[Outro]
Let it end on my terms 
Sincerely yours Kurumi Violet

ChApTeR_1_S1nc3r3ly Y0ur5 (Prod. Yourstranger)

Scarlet - dreams

Written by: Kurumi Violet & JoshIGuess 
Produced by: under the maple tree
Mixed by: Kurumi Violet & JoshIGuess 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork From: Senpai Is an Otokonoko
Artwork Edited By: Kurumi Violet 

Lyrics:
[Intro: JoshIGuess]
Holidays
Are passing like street signs
It feels so sublime
Now you're standing in line
Yeah it's Christmas morning
Fuck up on the fucking rain pouring
Just wanna get my presents fuck yo presence
Don't want no one but myself bitch

[Chorus 1: Kurumi Violet]
I'm not like everyone else 
Can't get through these holidays like you can
Too many things have changed within this year
That I don't got no Christmas cheer left in me

[Verse: JoshIGuess]
I'm still home for the holidays
Once again skipped with family
It's that time of year i'm stuck being sick
Yet on this mic I still try and spit
To express my feelings its my form of healing
But it's not healing my voice
But there's a deadline and I don't got a choice
Gave out so many toys but where is my own?
And all my Christmas money just went to what I owe
And I promised my ex we would go to the snow
Before the season came she wanna be a ho ho ho
And so I gotta spend the holidays alone
And I was too sick to do a show
Memories scrolling thru my phone
And now I'm just wondering

[Chorus 2: Kurumi Violet]
If I could get lost in the past once again
I would go even if it doesn't last 
Open presents in the morning 
Sorrow takes over & I'm left mourning

[Outro: Kurumi Violet]
Mourning
Is it so wrong?
To believe that someone is there
Even when it's all falling apart
Everything's not the same as it was

Holidays Pt 2 W/ JoshIGuess (Prod. under the maple tree)

for all those we've lost, keep creating <3

Lyrics:

it's my favorite season
illness in the boy gonna
drown the voice of reason
i don't wanna hear it
i don't wanna deal with this
give me another night to dwell on how i stepped in shit
think it's do or die
friends pass all the time now
i'm not gonna lie
i still take my life for granted
don't know how we manage
face tank all the damage

i can not slow down
for other dreams conclude
another's journey ends
but mine survives somehow?
it's not fair

it's my favorite season
illness in the boy gonna
drown the voice of reason
i don't wanna hear it
i don't wanna deal with this
give me another night to dwell on how i stepped in shit
think it's do or die
friends pass all the time now
i'm not gonna lie
i still take my life for granted
don't know how we manage
face tank all the damage

i can not slow down
for other dreams conclude
another's journey ends
but mine survives somehow?
it's not fair

it's not fair
it's not fair
it's not fair
it's not fair
it's not fair

not fair (prod. remghost)

prod by flux :D

lyrics:

when she talks to me
feeling butterflies in my chest
when i talk back not the best
when she takes a few steps closer 
i take a few steps less
i don't wanna get to close to her
i don't wanna get to close
she asked if i wanted to hangout
I'm sorry but I've got to go

light an incense 
need to calm my nerves 
& ever since then 
i don't talk bout her
i go on tangents 
like all the time
i cant manage 
with u on my mind 
i cant focus 
see ur pretty face 
taking damage 
they wont go away
all these scars on me
like they're tattoos
why they always treat me
like I'm bad news

when she talks to me
feeling butterflies in my chest
when i talk back not the best
when she takes a few steps closer 
i take a few steps less
i don't wanna get to close to her
i don't wanna get to close
she asked if i wanted to hangout
I'm sorry but I've got to go

gtg (w/ prod flux)

fun af to make
lyrics://
in the tomb of the giants i saw a perishing corpse
of a man past his prime but for his goal went forth
found a dime of a girl so he kept goin north
in the village she was from together they unearth

a city below filled with diamonds and jewels
the city of allenia shall prosper forsooth
the king fell ages ago in a climatic duel
tho his own people thought the monarch so cruel

as to plan his death for a total renewal
but work it did not the coup proved unsuccessful
building bricks were destroyed, the structures too weak
homes fell one by one debris crashing quickly

the books buried, their wisdom it you cant seek
old dilapidated places painted with a crimson streak
i believe the man wished his eyes ripped at the seams
from the troublin note i read in a pocket of his jeans

i feel bad for his story but by all means
can i not end up like him id rather this be a dream
in a way im like him and i can kinda see
deep emotions in his bloodied handwriting

tomb of the giants (prod. secre x wraithontheporch)

Gone For Whatever Moment prod. Wolfgang Pander

Emotional sad guitar type beat inspired by Lil Peep – “Be Mine”
Perfect for artists looking for deep, melancholic and raw emo rap vibes.

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