A collection of raw, emotional songs about surviving the aftermath—numbness, struggle, and the search for meaning after everything changes. This is life, back from the blur.

Back from the Blur

"Slipping Away" is a profoundly emotional ballad that explores the heartbreaking experience of grieving a loved one even before they're gone. With a delicate piano-driven melody, gentle orchestration, and soulful, expressive vocals, the song conveys the quiet agony of watching someone slowly fade away. The lyrics poignantly capture the helplessness and profound sadness of witnessing each cherished moment grow dimmer, yet desperately holding onto hope and love until the very last breath. It's an intimate journey through loss, memory, and the enduring struggle to find strength in the wake of immense sorrow.

Slipping Away

"Familiar Stranger" explores the haunting space between recognition and loss when someone we know transforms before our eyes. With ethereal harmonies and atmospheric melodies, the song navigates the disorienting feeling of watching someone retain their physical form while their essence shifts into something unrecognizable. It's an intimate meditation on change, identity, and the bittersweet acceptance that sometimes the people we love become strangers wearing familiar disguises.

Familiar Stranger

"Where It Hurts the Most" is a raw exploration of invisible pain and the aftermath of abandonment. This heartbreaking spoken-word piece, set against a backdrop of melancholic acoustic guitar and soft piano, follows someone silently drowning in the wake of a devastating loss.

The track delves into the quiet suffering we hide behind practiced smiles—the midnight scrolling, the unanswered texts, the endless replaying of memories that offer no closure. With unflinching honesty, it confronts how we blame ourselves when someone walks away, turning to whatever numbs the ache while still calling it love.

But beneath its portrait of heartbreak lies a promise: that our wounds don't define us. Every scar is evidence not just of pain but of survival. This isn't just a song about breaking—it's about the fragile, fierce hope that remains when everything else has been taken away. It reminds us that even in our darkest moments, we are still breathing, still whole, still carrying something beautiful within us that no one else can break.ncept beautifully, creating a cohesive emotional experience for listeners.

Where It Hurts the Most

"Echo Chambers" explores the quiet struggle of putting on a brave face while battling with isolation and mental health challenges. Through raw, intimate vocals set against minimalist acoustic guitar, the song navigates the disconnect between the person we present to others and who we truly are when alone with our thoughts. 

The track captures those moments when text messages are answered with emojis that hide our true feelings, when simple tasks feel overwhelming, and when the silence of empty rooms becomes deafening. Yet beneath the melancholy, there's a fragile thread of hope—a recognition that acknowledging our struggles is the first step toward healing. With its UK grime-influenced vocal delivery contrasting against delicate guitar work, "Echo Chambers" transforms everyday vulnerability into a universal experience, reminding listeners that it's okay to not be okay.

Echo Chambers

Breaking bad

You dressed my wounds in perfect white
Gave me promises that lost their light
Thought I’d break, thought I’d fall apart
Now I’m the storm that’ll tear your heart
[Pre-Chorus]
You kissed the venom, called it love
Now I’m the shadow you can’t outrun
Every rose you gave’s a bitter blade
And I’m the reckoning you’ve made
[Chorus] I move like silence dressed in black
You broke me once — I’m breaking bad
Hope she tastes the blood you hid
I know every dirty thing you did
You thought you’d fool me with your lies
Now I’m the bitch who’ll watch you die
[Verse 2] Your hands still stink of sweet decay She wears your guilt like cheap bouquet You haunt my name? I haunt you more I’m every lock you can’t restore
[Pre-Chorus] You kissed the venom, called it love
Now I’m the shadow you can’t outrun
Every rose you gave’s a bitter blade
And I’m the reckoning you’ve made
[Chorus] I move like silence dressed in black
You broke me once — I’m breaking bad
Hope she tastes the blood you hid
I know every dirty thing you did
You thought you’d fool me with your lies
Now I’m the bitch who’ll watch you die
[Bridge]
Save your lies, don’t waste your breath
You fucked it up, now dance with death
And when you’re crawling, broke and through
The last bitch standing? Yeah — guess who.
[Outro] Dead girl walking, heart turned black
You lit the fuse — I won’t hold back
No redemption, just my name
Branded in your goddamn shame

Copyright (c) 2025 Lisa Andreou * All Rights Reserved.

Breaking bad

“Back from the Blur” is a haunting fusion of dark pop and theatrical storytelling, channeling the raw emotion of post-trauma survival. With brooding vocals, cinematic piano, and modern synth textures, this track captures the ache of going through life’s motions after everything has changed. It’s a powerful, soul-searching anthem for anyone who’s ever felt like they came back from something—only to wonder if they were ever truly whole again.

"Weight of Air" explores the invisible battle of depression and anxiety—how something as imperceptible as air can become crushing when filtered through mental illness. The song documents the exhausting experience of carrying on when simple existence feels overwhelming, the frustration of well-meaning but hollow advice, and finding meaning in small victories when major ones seem impossible. It's about the contradiction of suffocating in open space and the courage it takes to keep breathing anyway.

Weight of Air

Blueprint of Regret

Paper Moons & Static Hearts is a dreamy, bittersweet journey through the soft ache of growing up, letting go, and holding on. Woven with shimmering synths, lo-fi textures, and heartfelt lyricism, the album explores fragile connections, faded memories, and the quiet beauty of imperfection. Like paper moons lighting up the night for a moment, and hearts humming with static, each song captures the tension between the fleeting and the forever. This is indie pop for the romantics, the wanderers, and the ones still listening for echoes in the noise.

Fluorescent Skies

“drowning in blue” is the sound of silence underwater—the moment when grief softens into surrender, when you’re no longer fighting the current, just floating through the ache.

This track blends melancholic vocals, ambient textures, and emotional bass to mirror that deep, almost surreal stillness that comes after heartbreak… or during healing.

For anyone who’s ever felt too much and disappeared into it—this one’s for you.

💙 Written & released by LÄLI
🎧 Genre: emotional bass · melodic dubstep · ambient DnB
🔮 Frequency: grief as a portal · water as medicine
#LÄLI #drowninginblue #crybanger

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The way back in.

Xak Stahl: Alchemist of Sound, Architect of Emotion

Xak Stahl is a genre-blurring music artist, sonic storyteller, and relentless experimenter. Every track he creates is a new world—a kaleidoscope of indie folk, alt-pop, electronica, and global flavors—infused with raw emotion and boundless curiosity. Xak’s music isn’t just heard; it’s felt.

From Shadow to Spotlight

For Xak, music is metamorphosis. His journey began in the shadows, transmuting heartbreak and struggle into songs that glow with hope. Early anthems like “Neon Dreams” and “Rising Through the Darkness” invite listeners to find their own light. His newest project, Major Arcana, channels the mysteries of the Tarot—each song an archetype, each lyric a step along the path from the Fool’s first leap to the wisdom of The World.

More Than Music: A Multisensory Universe

But Xak isn’t confined to sound. As a visual artist and writer, he crafts immersive stories that spill across genres and languages—sometimes haunting, sometimes playful, always honest. Whether he’s conjuring lush soundscapes, weaving bilingual lyrics, or creating striking visuals, Xak’s art dares you to feel deeper and dream wilder.

An Invitation to Transformation

Join Xak Stahl on a sonic odyssey that blurs borders—between genres, between artforms, between you and the music. Each release is an invitation to explore, to heal, to become. For Xak, every song is a spell, every album a universe. The only question is: are you ready to step inside?

Where It Hurts the Most

XAK STAHL

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